I Broke Edge

So I've been sXe for a good 5 years now.

I think I broke edge last night.

I was at a restaurant and I ordered some tofu.

I later found out that the tofu was cooked with wine.

I feel terrible, I've had nightmares all night. I do not know what to do. I have committed my life to abstaining from all this harmful shit. I have more fun like this than all those idiots who poison their bodies.

I really don't know what to do now though. It's like I tastes sin, felt temptation.

"If you're not now, you never were!"

What should I do?

I don't think that I can forget about my contamination. I don't know if I can face my other edge friends anymore. I will still go to shows and like fight and mosh, but I don't think that it will be the same.

I even got all these sweet tats, I cannot have them if they don't represent the person I am...





Should I get them removed?

Should I just give up my lifestyle? It means everything to me.

I'm really lost here and could really really use some advice.

 

You should consider killing yourself

 

I was gonna suggest getting exorcised, but the above suggestion works too.

 

You know, I was thinking about it.

This lifestyle means alot to me, and I feel like I let myself and the people around me down when I ate that tofu.

I can still feel the alcohol seeping through my veins, poisoning me and turning me into a lazy unproductive person.

 

the best thing to do, is get more aggressive with non-edgers. Afterall, it is their fault for cooking that tofu in wine in the first place. Maybe you could follow the lead of some other edgers and start killing people for smoking and shit. Kill anyone who is using and you won't have to worry about accidental ingestion anymore.

 

I'm sorry, but exorcisms are totally not edge.

 

He can become the next An Hero!

 

That's actually a good idea.

I do all the regular stuff... bum cigarettes off people and then break them infront of them, smash people's booze, throw bricks through liquor store windows.

I guess that I should indeed step it up. It's the world that's fucked up man.

I still don't know though, that might make me feel better, smashing a couple of skulls. It's not like the world will miss any of those... users.

But, I dunno if it will help me live with myself after I have used.

 

Wow. Is it really that big of a deal?

 

It merits a suicide, IMHO

 

You really don't understand, brah.

EDGE is not just a thing, it's a WAY OF LIFE.

 

Check out these Earth Crisis lyrics, this is what EDGE is all about.


"Strength. Born from pain. Beyond that of my flesh.
Betrayed, robbed and beaten, but not defeated. Through my
search for allies, I have found myself.
Persistence is the answer to regain all that was taken.
Hatred drives me onwards
across to desolation of dying dreams and failure,
to find I am my own salvation. From the experience of injustice, from the
horror that I have witnessed comes the knowledge that freedom must be won.
Strangled by frustration, no longer will I be my
victim. My patience is whaning, now all it takes is one spark to set me off. I have to try to find some peace and hold that
peace inside before it gets to late.
Emancipate my mind. Breathing life into my visions,
forcing them into reality.
From paradise into the inferno, into paradise, into paradise."

 

Stress is poison too.

 

Stress is NOTHING like alcohol and drugs.

People who do alcohol and drugs deserve to die.

 

Yes,make the world the way you want it.Fuck the rest of us.Fucken fanatics.

 

well at least you don't follow a trend brah!

 

I don't follow the trend, the trend follows me. This is not about fitting in, it's about being myself, brah.

QFT

 

you can never come back to the edge lifestyle

 

You know I've smoked a lot of grass
O' Lord, I've popped a lot of pills
But I never touched nothin'
That my spirit could kill
You know, I've seen a lot of people walkin' 'round
With tombstones in their eyes
But the pusher don't care
Ah, if you live or if you die

God damn, The Pusher
God damn, I say The Pusher
I said God damn, God damn The Pusher man

You know the dealer, the dealer is a man
With the love grass in his hand
Oh but the pusher is a monster
Good God, he's not a natural man
The dealer for a nickel
Lord, will sell you lots of sweet dreams
Ah, but the pusher ruin your body
Lord, he'll leave your, he'll leave your mind to scream

God damn, The Pusher
God damn, God damn the Pusher
I said God damn, God, God damn The Pusher man

Well, now if I were the president of this land
You know, I'd declare total war on The Pusher man
I'd cut him if he stands, and I'd shoot him if he'd run
Yes I'd kill him with my Bible and my razor and my gun

God damn The Pusher
Gad damn The Pusher
I said God damn, God damn The Pusher man

 

But brah, I watched Boston Beatdown like 50 times.

I cannot let go.