I don't think I'll ever abuse caffeine again

after it wore off, it left me in a real fucked up state of mind

I'm basically afraid to sleep, cause I feel like I know for certain that Iw ill never wake up, and the thing is, usually I'm not scared of death, but right now I pictuee it as some horrible soul devouring eternal pain type shit

and I'm kind've afraid to live too, cause like, I don't trust me



other than that, I feel real fucking groovy though

 

caffeine is great. who needs sleep ? I certainly dont.

 

sleep is for the weak

 

exactly. well said. why sleep when u can, lets say learn german or chinese. or anatomy in my case...

 

I actually generally agree
hence, why I do abuse caffeine on occasion (though really, sleep deprivation is easier without the aide of drugs, I reckon)

but I am seriously FUCKED in the head right now

I don't like it at all
I feel so demented and perverse
but like, I don't know why
I can't access the thoughts
and that's what scares me
I don't know what I am thinking
I just know it's bad

AHHH

 

if by 'learn ... anatomy' you mean masturbate, I totally agree

 

Ummm...I actually meant learn anatomy as in learn 820 pages and all them bones, nerves and muscles. But ur way is ok too.

 

you can't access the thoughts?
as in your thoughts?
that does sound fucked...
smoke a joint?

 

^ no weed + mum is home

 

eat something
did you take like caffeine pills or something?
cause then seriously eat something, you'll feel better
or drink some milk

 

Well Im glad you dont live my life, you would probably be admitted by now.

 

Maybe you should have some coffee... :reddevil:

 

yes, I did

and my stomach kinda acidy fromt he caffeine and we don't have much food that wouldn't irritate it further

but, I'm feeling much more calm now, just a bit... nervous

 

bean madness...not everyone can handle it...

 

ew, I can't even handle the taste of that crap.

 

Bam!!!!

 

That shit will really kick your ass when abused. One party this summer I decided it would be a good idea to pop about 7 caffeine pills at 3 am and I couldnt move for three days or I would be sick!!!

 

yeah I had 5 at 3 am =P

 

Oh what would life be without youthful impetuousness? I'm assuming that there was no other compelling reason to take the caffeine apart from "for the fuck of it"....

I'm glad you're feeling better Duckman! I've never popped the pills- my caffeine abuse is strictly in the coffee form. I'm enjoying a cup as I type this.

 

I bought them wehn I was tired as fuck at work, and have slowly been using them since

but I might just throw those last 8 out =P

I did it cause I wanted to be un-sober, and after searching all stash-spots only found one nug =P