I fear becoming a murderer....

Now, I'm not one of those people easily influenced by movies or television, but once I started watching horror movies and the like, whenever I encounter a problem, the only solution I think of is going apeshit and taking out anyone in my way.

I'm a talented person, who could go far in life, but I feel like one day I'll be pushed over the edge. The sad part about it is people around me don't have trouble believing I could pull off some horrendous shit.

What do I do?

 

I don't think that's probably and uncommon fear...maybe speaking about it is uncommon. I don't know what a person who actually speaks of it should do. Just don't murder me, please.

 

hide the knives and guns

 

I don't want to act on an impulse or anything, because if it's a person I don't like, it wouldn't take much for me to just unleash on them. I've been bottling up things for the past two/three years, and if I let all that out on one particular person, it won't end well for them. Plus, if I were a murderer, I'd never use a gun.

 

If you dont like the way you are thinking then take steps to change the way you think. Maybe learn how to cope with not getting your way.

If you like the way you think then go with it, be yourself.

 

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Hotwater

 

So horror movies do turn people into raging killers. This bodes well for my theory about such movies. Not so well for you, though. And the people who die at your hands, of course.

 

It's not the movies influencing me, because they aren't. All they've done is give me the freedom to believe if I wanted to go that route I could do whatever the hell I wanted and not be stopped. But other than that, all I was doing was comparing me to horror movies, not implying they're why I think about said things.

I've thought countless times of literally stabbing people to death, until they're not moving.

 

I don't think you'd post this if you really feared you'd do it. I'm sure those thoughts are... well, not normal, but... a legitimate part of the human psyche. If they're really bothering you then you might need to speak to someone about that.

 

I fear it more than you know, but this is a place to vent thoughts on your mind, so I thought I'd try it and get as many responses as possible.

 

Those movies are a work of fiction, so while you might get away with murder you’ll eventually get caught and spend the rest of your life behind bars

also, while you don't need a permit to wield a knife; by using a knife you transfer DNA like a mother fuck and the bloody scene you create will likely to end up on the cover of true crime or true detective magazine



Hotwater

 

just pull off some horrendous shit :reddevil:

now seriously, just try to control yourself, you gotta leave that "stabbing people" stuff inside your mind, and try not to cross the line and actually do it in real life

srry my english

 

I dont think there is anything wrong with feeling that way, i often see a person who i do not like the look of and feel violent and think of fighting, but i rarely fight.

I guess the difference is that you feel that your feelings are more then deep rooted emotions expressing themselves but rather a possible series of actions you may take. I think it is a great thing your reflection has led you to understand yourself this well and accept what might be a difficult truth.

But now that you know, perhaps you should take steps to change (assuming by the tone of your posts that you're not happy with this situation?), first thing is if i were you, I'd stop watching horror movies (dont get me wrong i love horror movies) because by your own admission, even though they're not influencing you, they are pushing you in the wrong direction by allowing you to think "it's possible".

Maybe work out why you're finding that route in life (murdering) appealing? because even though i think it is perfectly fine to think whatever you want, what you're describing sounds like a more dangerous obsession/situation, no?

 

I'm slowly working on changing the way I think, which I do with my writing, and I'm actually writing a horror film as we speak, which is kind of helping me release a bit of anger in how vicious I'm making the killings.

 

I get that feeling all the time, then i snap myself back in to reality and realise it wouldnt be a smart move to put a knife to my teacher

 

There's only one solution........

 

sounds like your really young and hormones are making you think funny. Calm down & enjoy life, use the images in your head & write a scary movie. Besides its 2009 nobody gets away with murder anymore too much technology

 

What do hormones have to do with this?

 

Forget knives and guns.


Its not hard at all really to get into a drunken brawl, king hit a guy and have him fall over and crack his head on a concrete footpath.

I was in a few fights like that when I was younger, where if the guy had fallen the wrong way, or caught his head on the side of a table or something I could have been doing some serious time, and for stupid stuff that really only started cos of some stupid smartass comment that only pissed me off becuase of the 10 scotch and cokes beforehand

 

How old are you?

The way I think about it is... imagine someone you really fucking love (like a mother or possibly a sister) being horribly stabbed to death by someone, for a pretty insignificant matter. How upset/angry/pissed off at the world would that make you?

Now imagine actually killing someone.. and the pain that those who love that person would feel?

Shit... I can't stand a lot of people... but I'm not in any positition to take anyone's life (except maybe my own if I wanted to badly enough)