I Hate Being Sober

I got really good grades in 7th grade. Then 8th grade came along. I came to school one day and they said they didnt want to be my friends with me (my best friend too who lives down the street[who I dont talk to his fag ass no more]) So for about 2 days I sat close by them feeling betrayed they didnt talk to me unless they would say why the fuck are you hanging with us. Thinkin they were all cool n shit when really they were just preps and hicks. Not even popular or anything. So I just went to luch one day and sat with the popular kids one day. It was perfict. They all called me to see what was up. Every day we would go around town; go see movies n shit. It was perfect. Then the summer came along. Along with summer was mary jane. We all started smoking. Then when we got into high school the crue split. 1/4 going prep 1/4 going skater and 1/2 going the so called "stoner" and Im pretty sure you know what group I fit into.


But lately Iv realised that sober is gay. It's fucking retarded. I can just talk to people on the phone and have fun. Everythings fun. Im not talking just weed. Pills too. I take them all the time, I love the feeling. All my life I wanted to be that guy that owns a business the head of a corpiraion. The guy that owns your ass if you work for him. With money just make something out of my life. I just cant bring my self to do it. The way Im going is easyer and in my mind it seems better. Feeling this way I do now... I can't see my self as anything. Everythings fun this way. Not even fun just better.

 

hun,

you're a good guy but if you keep it up...

know where you will end?

a dumpster.

 

gosh not another wannabe loser.. very saddening..

 

It may seem fun now just wait.....


by the age of 18 i wanted to kill myself i weighed 90 some pounds, my teeth hurt, i had heart papulation, i had sores all over my body, i would do ANYTHING to get my drugs, and i hated everybody.

you keep it up, once you feel liking quitiing it will be very hard, and hard to catch up with everyone else.

 

but you know what.. no offense cory.. i love you.

BUT we wont listen to any of us. crystal, you know that dont you? tis sad.

 

yeah

 

i mean, we can talk and talk and talk. it didnt work for me. guess he will either change on his own or change when he is forced to.

 

I'm pretty sure this post is a joke.

 

"Feeling this way I do now... I can't see my self as anything. Everythings fun this way. Not even fun just better."

That is because you are not feeling. The drugs take over and the fun is short lived. Better turns to not being able to function without them. Then you are a slave to the drugs. Be good to yourself. They will make you stupid by 30 if you let them. Reality is gone with drugs. Soon you will not even know you are high on pills, until you stand up and fall into a wall on the way to the bathroom or unexpected phone call and you speak for the first time in hours and hours. It is no way ever so better. You are 16yo. You have a chance, you can stop it now. Please just stop them. Don't let them do to you what they have done to me. Peace in a higher plane.

 

Smoking pot won't kill you or anything like that, but smoking pot makes you okay with being bored... you should be ought firting with girls and reading and finding ways to piss off your teachers, or learning a new skill. If you do it too much, you could grow up and realise your a really boring person,

Theres a neurological basis to it too, THC acts by slowing down the action of synapses, and by relasing dopamine, your brains excitment chemical.

If you do it alot, your brain will become hardwired by getting its fix off of pot, and everything else in your life will have the volume turned down.

Chemical dependancy isn't pretty, you'll probably end up regretting it.

Maybe you won't listen to me, and you'll have to figrue this out by yourself, but next time you feel like getting high, go for a run instead, or go buy some music or go meet some girls, find something else in your life that means something to you.

 

Why does anyone think this guy is worth trying to save?

It's like he is determined to be a worthless fuckup! I can't figure it out. It's like he's trying to convince everyone that the coolest thing you can do is be a drugged-up loser.

Corster, go right ahead. By all means. Be my guest. Drink and smoke and pill your life away until you're a toothless fuckin' homeless dude at the highway interchange begging for change with a mispelled cardboard sign. You are human waste. G'bye!

-Jeffrey

 

your brain is slowly rotting away

 

just wait till he gets a real taste of depression and lonelyness

 

Or jail or a good beating or AIDS or HEP C...


He is one character I feel no sympathy for. Everything he is cruising toward, trouble-wise, is stuff he's been adequately warned about. But still he thinks that he's got it all figured out and that drugs are the best way to enjoy your life. Pathetic. Once he's gone, there'll be less drag on society.

-Jeffrey

 

Wow your a pretty fuckin retarded fag aint you. If you really knew me you wouldnt of said jail or beatings.

 

jeff... maybe it's just "tough love" or what ever you people call it but i really dont think that's nice. lots of people go through phases.... LOTS OF PEOPLE. maybe you didnt. but i did.

and im sorry but i dont think he deserves to get AIDS. i understand you are just speaking the truth but i dunnoo... cant you be nicer about it.

 

He is trying to convince himself as that makes it easier to destroy yourself. He knows he is on a one way street that is going no where and does not wish to be.

Anyone who is still breathing is worth trying to save. With out that we have lost our sense of balance as a society. A throw away society is what we have become and too many times we also throw away people.

He is not a danger to anyone on this board, only to himself. To try to reach him with words takes a little time, nothing more. It may work or it may not, the choice is ultimately his.

It might be your choice to view others a losers. If he can still articulate even though it may not be what I would like to see in print or thinking, it means that there is still hope there, otherwise he would not of posted it in the first place.

 

thank you, heat. maybe i care too much but i know... that the people that have cared about ME when i wasnt thinking in life... helped. espiecially my husband although he has lost his temper with me.

i just.... i dont know, telling someone they should get aids or whatever... maybe it was just a warning of what could happen... and if so that's cool but the way it was worded... i cant dig.

 

No telling someone that or wishing that upon someone is not cool.....it is cruel. It was meant to be cruel.

Enough said.

 

well, i mean... maybe that was his way of warning him but he didnt know how to do it without sounding like that.

although, i tend to agree... it was WRONG.