I HATE nags

im leavin my husband for real.
half the reason
i cant take the nagging.
nag. nag. nag.
i NEVER do things right its always the wrong he comments on.


i seriously
im okay til
i wake up my cigs are gone
he's bitching at me for things i didnt do.


someone shoot me.

 

fucking bulllshit!
i am so sick of stuff im DONE.

 

yeah, you guys probably should have called it quits a long time ago.
did you start smoking again?

 

I'm gonna ask a LOADED question here, but are you still getting off your face on benzos?

 

Make sure you set the safety before loading such questions.

 

lol@stinkfoot
i dont mind questions and im honest.
no, im not off the benzos yet. i have to take more n more to get my panic to go away and it sucks. i traded so many for tree and gave josh a bunch and gave sticky's (a like 10 of my friends named jess) boyfriend some. he smoked me up i mean but i gotta be careful.

so no, im not off the benzos.

and yes ive been smoking tree.

it annoys him.
he hates my friends.

he hates ppl that smoke weed alll the time and all i am TRYING to do is fix things, get well and i try to be civil...
i swear he's gonna cause give me a heart attack.
he expects me to be perfect.
let me tell u
if i DONT do something he'll bitch at me anyways.
alll he does it complain.
and he wonders why im always out with my friends.
i cant handle it anymore!

 

and yeah actually i think you're a member of lucky spiral
find it near user support. me and tns made a thread last night and hhb joined in. lol.
but yeah im actually done this time. it fucking sucks cause i love him i just cant take the arguing.
with EVERY OTHER PERSON i am with a lot
its chill
im nice
im funny
im CHILL
him....
he creates such drama and im sure some of it is my fault but i cant take the pain of this marriage anymore.

 

um.
Sorry,or good for you..
or,uh,I hate nags too.
er something


( this is one of those situations where I felt obligated to reply after reading-but have no idea what the proper response would be,and on a better day I probably would have just not responded)

 

Well, good luck to you in your new future. I'm sure only you know what you really want but to be honest, from the little I know of you on here, I bet your husband is going through some tough times trying to deal with your addiction.

You mood seems to be up and down more than a whore's knickers. So my advice for what it's worth would be to get off the shit that's fucking with your brain, and then see if you still want to leave him. But, what do I know.

If he doesn't want you to get out of it all the time, he probably has his reasons other than just trying to control you. Maybe, he just cares and wants some stability in your life.

 

I would like to ask you a couple questions. What are you doing to fix or mend the relationship? What are some specific problems that your husband has with your marriage? Do you have kids? Do you tell him how you feel? Are you under stress from anything else, etc? I don't think you should just give up a marriage because you are having a rough time right now. My parents went through a huge rough patch and they are still together. Marriage is a lot of work, and I would hate for you to end it if it is able to be fixed.

 

thanks babyhellfire :hug:

red....
you are probably right and i DO love him but .....
i just
im tired
i know i put him thru shit but he puts me thru a lot too. he calls me names A LOT for one and i have told him over n over that i do not like verbal abuse. in the heat of the moment i might call him an asshole but.... i try to keep my insults to a minimum. and it hasnt always been easy for me..... i have a TEMPER. what my friends know is, you're cool to me ill NEVER fuck you over or call you a name, etc.- but im not a girl to mess with. i will beat someone's ass IF they start it. im a passifist but i used to have a problem with anger and words....
i have tried sooooo hard to stop calling names when im mad.
names are hurtful and unneccasary.
yet i cannot COUNT the amount of names he calls me in one day.

and he knows i begged him to stop.


you have to understand. i love my husband. ive been WITH him (not married but lived with) since 2000. he TRULY is my best friend and the thought of losing him....espiecially when half of my friends are moving TODAY or THIS WEEK. im crying now cause i dont wanna lose him. and i know im not perfect.... i know i put him thru shit. but to me love is..... love is something accepting and loving and it doesnt treat a SICK PERSON even if they are withdrawing...they dont treat them the way he does.
im so tired of it.
and there is someone that has been so loving to me.... has made me feel like im beautiful (im not but he makes me feel i am) and he treats me SOOOO goood
life is so short
i wanna do what will make me HAPPY.

this is horrible for me but unless...yeah, ill get over my benzo addiction but i cannot take the verbal abuse anymore. what's worse is... i KNOW he loves me and he cares and doesnt want me to be addicted to anything. so ill wean off the pills a bit....
and i will think....

i wont like JUMP to conclusions but im pretty sure im done.

 

okay.
i havent been doing much to mend things lately cause im so hurt and i almost dont care. i DO try to be civil with him. he just left for work. i told him to call me when he gets there, that i DO love him. i try to be nice to him even when im crying and sooo upset.

the problems are sooooo much. that's why i dont know if itll work. soooo much shit has happened. but good shit too.

ummmm no kids. we tried. it sucked. and caused a lot of pain cause i dont ovulate.

i am under soooooooo much stress. i can barely breathe.

we are having HUGE money probs and now i gotta go to my grammas and try to get 50 to 100 dollars just so the account is not over drawn.


im just hurting. im not sure what will happen yet for sure i just know its too much for me to bear right now.
stress is right
im so stressed that i have to eat valiums like candy n it makes him mad but i cant take th ings right now..... soooooo much drama going on. i mean it. too much.

 

It sounds like you are under a lot of stress. I'm sorry that things are going so hard for you two. I can't imagine how it was about not being able to have a child.

Don't listen to these people who are telling you to leave your husband...they have no idea what they are saying. For one they are only hearing one side of the story and there are too many factors they don't know.

I really can't tell you how much I think you should stop taking pills. thats a big problem, and will result in more.

Give me a couple examples of what your husband has a problem with. Its important that I know his side too.

I think you should both go to therapy to help your marriage. Remember all the great times that you have had together and all of the beautiful things that were said to each other. You two just need to work on it, and I really think you two can get out of this mess. I can tell by what you said that you still love your husband and don't want to end your relationship. I know you are under a lot of stress but there is hope at the end of the tunnel.

Communication is so important and it sounds like you guys need to work on it. I hope that you guys can work through this.

 

i personally think you should seek longterm inpatient psychiatric care at this point....

 

thanks.
elwhitney
its nice to feel people understand.
since 2000 ive lived with him and he IS my best friend. whether we can stay together married if i lose him as a friend ill be crushed.
ill reply more to this thread later. i really will. since people seem to really get things n care.... i just gotta try to chill cause i gotta soon drive to my grandma's to ask for money (which i HATE to do but its needed) so i gotta chill to some music and myspace a few friends that are moving.
i wish i had tree.
prolly willl later. im just sad n ill come back to this thread.
love.

 

i dont need to. i can wean myself off the benzos. i can.
i just need the will power and its summer
im gonna be outside a bit today n meditate and i know i can do this on my own but i apprieciatte your opinion.

 

anytime....

 

I'm gonna side with HHB on this one.

 

its all good.
ill figure it out.
if i decide to go to rehab, i will.
i just think i can do it on my own.
n this bitch dont like being caged.
listen im feelin better

a bit
its all good
thanks for truth.

 

I often disagree with hhb, but rehab may be the way to go. If you're honest with yourself, you'll see that you can't do it on your own.