It seriously effects my mood and all day long I only think about 1 thing. And that is the one i'm in love with. God. It feels like going crazy. Can't people just fuck and make babies. Why this shitty feeling. The thing is I can fuck this girl easy. She is not that difficult kind(unfortunately). But I don't wanna fuck her. I don't even wanna have sex. I only wanna cuddle and stuff. It is really sickening. I think I just gonna ignore this girl and this feeling. It is not the right moment for me to be in love. Jezus. I fucked girls that where 10 times as nice as her and kissed them goodnight in the morning. Why do I had to fall in love with this girl. God. What evil things did I do in my former life to deserve this punishment. It hurts. It really hurts. I am desperate. Aren't their wiccan potions to make this feeling go away. Help me. Last time I fell in love was in 1998. I thought couldn't fall in love anymore. pheeww was I wrong. It came back with a vengeance. Hello, how are you, fuck you. I really need help. Before I grab the good old alcohol to releave myself. Heeeeeeeeeeeeeelpppppppppp. I am exploding
It's a bitch, mang. Just go with it. That's all you can do. Fuck the wiccan potions. You're not an angsty fourteen year old mallgoth.
Damn bro, you live in fucking Amsterdam. Why are you even letting that get to you? Seriously, go hang out in a coffee shop. Then buy some buds on the way out and go get even more stoned. Then go to a seedbank and start growing some Dutch sinse. That will keep you busy for awhile.
Yeaeaeah. I had a great time this saturday. I was wasted. Whoooeeee. But she's still in my head. :& I will be all good soon. I hope :H