I smoked crack last night

Isn't that horrible? I mean, I fucking loved it... but I feel like such a loser for doing it. I believe it's okay to try anything once though, well, pretty much anything... like smoking crack haha... never again though. I really want it right now, but NEVER AGAIN.

 

why would you do that?
you of all people should know the dangers of hardcore drugs...

 

I know... I really don't know why I tried it, I guess because... as I said... I will try anything once. I feel mature enough and in control enough to do it, or at least, to have done it and that's it. It's done. The guys I was with didn't wanna believe I was only 21 until I showed them my license. They were impressed by my demenor... I was totally in control of myself, I didn't freak or act out or anything stereotypical of a crackhead... which I'm not at all... I just smoked it once... and that's it.

 

It wasn't that bad at all though, I mean I don't know if it's just me or what but it was like cocaine... just didn't last as long and the crashing wasn't too bad, I mean, maybe I have a really high tolerance to it.

The only fucked-up thing was I smoked all night, spent a lot of money and it was very stupid, but... hey... I'm fine now. I'm not gonna have anymore, and I feel totally normal like it never happened... I don't understand how people get addicted to that shit. Like seriously crackheads are probably the most pathetic kind of people out there, they crave that shit so bad, can't live without it? That's really disgusting...

 

i know someone like that. they said the same thing.

but now they do it all the time

 

I've never smoked crack. I have smoked some powder cocaine though. Me and two friends put a gram of coke in a blunt with 2-3g of weed. I ended up having a seizure. I think a gram was too much for a first time.

Anyway, I hope you don't do it anymore. My dad is a crackhead and it has prevented him from being in my life. He lives about 1 mile down the road from my house, but I haven't seen him in 5-10 years because he would rather smoke some rocks than see me. I remember when I was younger, probably 5 or so, he took me with him to a pawn shop to pawn his truck for some crack.

PLEASE don't do it anymore. I know you say you won't, but there may be a time when you say "fuck it.....one more time won't hurt anything". Then you'll think that way again sometime, and it will start happening more often. That shit is almost as bad as meth.

 

That is some evil shit. I hope the two of you never cross paths again.

 

Penny you know better than to do this shit to yourself.

 

Yay! You impressed crack-heads with your maturity!

You do know that it's a line, right? All guys say that about the younger chicks they hang around with. It makes them feel better. It gets them to do things.

I used to be a try anything once girl too but having maturity and control is when you learn to use the phrase 'No Thanks'.

 

Well put.

 

you're on a downward spiral, penny.

 

creck keells

 

I've smoked crack many times, and honestly, I loved it. Its afterwards that I felt the guilt and the shitty feeling of how much money I wasted and how much I wanted more and more. I don't smoke crack anymore because of it. although, if someone gave me some for free......

 

That's fucked up. Why would you do that to yourself?

 

I smoked it a couple of times... wasnt a huge fan to be honest though after only smoking it a couple of times I had dreams about smoking it YEARS later...which just goes to show how strong a pull it can have.....

I prefer coke much more myself.... though I dont touch that anymore either...

Anyways be careful.....

 

No kidding...

It's as though you are willfully turning your life into a train wreck and expecting people to pity and support you when you hit rock bottom... you've chronicled your chemically fueled emotional roller coaster here and as a product of an alcoholic household I shudder. The only appropriate response to your journaled toxicity is to offer tough love. Your forays into drug use get no support from me. Instead of using this forum to post your ploys for attention get yourself some help... get into detox and figure out a way of living your life without being dependent on drugs. You shouldn't even smoke pot. I'm sorry because I'm sure you don't want to be reading this but your ploy for attention gets no sympathy from me. Please get yourself help before something tragic happens.

 

she needs to go to rehab because she smoked crack one time? what the hell?

 

Oh yeah you're right... let's not take into account the multiple drugs she takes already to keep her mentally stable... some folks can handle drugs and some can't. Some folks can handle junk food and some can't... same for alcohol. This isn't just one incident- it's a history- an incredibly toxic one- to which the addition of crack is anything but constructive. This is someone who should have been in rehab long before she touched a crack pipe. Thank you for enabling.

 

well, I don't know, nor do I care to know the history behind this. I thought you were saying she needed rehab for one night of crack binging.

 

I wouldn't react that way to an isolated incident.