I sometimes wish I'd succeeded

About four months ago I swallowed a bottle of prescription pills. I had two seizures and was rushed to the ER. Sometimes I wish I'd succeeded in my goal.

I've heard people say that after a suicide attempt that life seems so precious. Like they wish they'd seen it then, or some shit. I haven't felt that yet. Since my attempt, I found out my boyfriend of 5 years cheated on me with 5 different women (no, not at the same time (why do men always ask that)), I had a hysterectomy, I fell totally for a guy only to find out we can't ever be BECAUSE of my hysterectomy, and I seem to have become a drunk. Where's the preciousness in that?

Sometimes I think I wish I'd succeeeded. Once in a blue moon, I'm glad that I didnt. Today's not one of those days.

 

Things will change and soon enough you'll only wish you did once in a blue moon. Life is short, don't waste time being depressed.

 

hey there kristyclueless i know how you feel i used to feel the same, there is a reason you didint suceed you just have not yet seen it if the earth was ready to take you back it would have things will get better. look at good things even if they are small, things will get better no matter how bad, there is a reason mother earth didint take you then it has something left for you to do you have not achieved her goal, what you were put here for (sorry i ramble alot but i really mean it) if you ever want to talk im always here
peace and a hug for you things will be better, like said above by xac dont waist time being depressed lifes to short