Bear with me here. This could be something completely unique to my experiences with salvia, or maybe something you've heard before, but I have tripped several times and after a long time of thinking about my last few salvia experiences (haven't tripped in months) I think I have put together a somewhat accurate assessment of what a salvia trip consists of, again, at least for me..I ran it by my brother and he seemed to be surprised and enlightened and quickly agreed... Somehow...I feel as if there is something pertaining to being the seconds hand on a clock, in relation to the supernatural force that seems to pull you through a trip. In this explanation, please do not actually picture a clock. It has absolutely nothing to do with the clock numbers themselves, but can almost explain what a trip is like, even in physical terms. It starts at 12..with you sitting upright, before the trip. Then it starts. You, the seconds hand, slowly begins to fall forward, and the journey begins...stiff and straight as a board and straight forward..just like the seconds hand, from 12 to 1..this is the uncontrollable laughter, the understanding that the effects are kicking in..as it gets to 2 you are already completely wiped from reality and greatly under the influence of the salvia. The force continues to pull you to 3, where you have now theoretically gone from perpendicular with the ground to parallel with it, of course in the realms of your trip and with the "ground" not actually being the ground....maybe this is some sort of parallel with reality, some kind of boundary...because this, in the depths of your consciousness, is the furthest it can go...but it keeps going, past 3. Now something is wrong. You're "falling" too far, down to 4, and everyone (who this 'everyone' is, that's another day's investigation) is watching and almost enjoying your confused and flustered reaction to this, much to your dismay, but you have no control as you continue going..Through this fall past 4 and 5, you experience the fear of where it has taken you. The confusion of what this has turned into, and the absolute terror that it is all reality (of course, this is all perceived). You eventually get to 6. Now, you become calmed and a bit more at ease as you can see 12 waiting for you in the distance, back at the top, helping you understand that your journey will eventually bring you back there and this isn't just one big spiralling black hole. As you climb through 6, then 7 and 8, you are still tripping and deep into the salvia, but you've come to understand what it is you're seeing and grow with the experience itself. This can be seen as an enlightening phase, but the memory of what is seen and learned here is hardly retained..it simply plays off your initial reaction during 3-6, when you were more scared and hesitant to journey through this world. Once you hit 9, you're almost back at square 1 (or 12, to stay consistent). Your newfound acquantences in this new world and everything that was just enlightening you slowly grows less vivid, and you begin to slip from the world and back into reality, this is through 10, 11, until finally back to your past consciousness. The seconds hand sits still at 12 once again. Of course the effects of salvia linger a bit even after the trip, and the afterglow is a whole other story, but this pertains to an actual trip itself. Again, throughout a salvia trip, there is nothing even semi-related to a clock, and that's not what I'm inferring. It took me this long to even be able to relate the trip to a clock, so it's not as if the two are anymore connected. For a while I was almost trying to connect it to a page in a book being turned, you as the page..which also has some interesting similarities, but I feel as if this is more accurate - that thought was also conceived after smoking it through a bowl, which makes sense as that could really only bring you to the "3" on the "clock", and an already completely turned page, or a completed trip in that comparison, would be in the "parallel" position, sitting on the boundary of reality that I mentioned before, without completely breaking through.
i can almost agree with you on that, in a very abstract way its true. but the one thing that always strikes me, is that everything is so familiar, like a feel i used to get when i was a kid. this feeling makes me feel really grounded. any thoughts on this?
Yeah, this happens to pretty much everyone and I'm not exactly sure the reason why. It probably has to do with exploring the inner thoughts within your mind, ones that are so deep within your memory from childhood that the sudden revertion in conciousness brings them all to the surface. People never know how to explain it, but there's definitely some kind of mental revertion back to childhood, where it almost feels as if you're a baby and everyone is looking down at you in your crib, smiling, but you're looking back wondering what the hell it's all happening for. It makes me wonder if that's how I felt about it back then, too. Me in particular, during a trip, I feel as if there is a "game" being played with me. There are many people, including my dad, watching and drawing entertainment through this game, smiling and encouraging whatever is happening while I (at least through that '3-6' stage) am desperately trying to figure out what the hell is happening to me. The game involves me and my body, melting, twisting, and being contorted into god knows what. The real surroundings are surely influential, as the music and sounds around me almost make a blueprint of how I'm going to "melt", and with each word and sound it grows more intense..but at the same time scripted to these "people" and almost meant to happen step by step, causing even more horror within me as it continues to unfold. The people chant, maybe my name, maybe it's just the words I'm hearing in real life, but as they do it everything intensifies. They're all having so much fun, everyone is so eerily happy, but I am just a guest here and do not know my place in this world or why this is all happening. The comfort and understanding that begins to grow during the '6-9' stage is taken away too quickly for my liking, to the '9-12' stage when I land back on earth and anything that had just enlightened me is suddenly indescribable in words, becoming almost lost in the trip. It's all about exploring that 3-6, and making it a full rotation of happiness and beauty I'm not sure how easy that is to attain, but I have to be getting closer, especially with an increased understanding. Figuring out all this is next But at least I can come up with a universal template of sorts with the seconds hand theory. That feeling of being pulled down and around and what transpires through each part is too accurate to ignore.
