I think i've been stuck in an acid trip

I took some acid way way back and felt like i was forgetting who i was and loosing my mind I got scared and the trip went bad and things haven't been the same since.

 

instead of fighting the ego death should i have just let it play out without resistance? Do i need to go through this again??

 

i haven't done acid yet but will this weekend cause i got a tab but I have done other psychedelics. The key is you have to let yourself go and turn your mind off. Don't fight the ego death and don't think about what could and will happen or what happened just think about what is happening. If i was you i would trip again and this time alone somewhere away from everyday life meditate a bit before like a day or two and the day of and just let myself go.

 

this incident happened 15 years ago. The thing is i got scared of what people would think if i lost my mind and it's colored my experience ever since. I should have not resisted i did not realize what was happening and thought i would go crazy ever since ive been stuck in this bad trip it seems

 

Thats the best thing about acid... you never really come down. Try doseing again.

 

you are the fun you make. you're completely in control of your perception of the world. If it's been 15 years and you're still functioning; I'd say the trip just brought up a few ideas you weren't ready for, these types of things are usually a result of fighting ego loss. If you were ill-informed on the substance, under a fair dose, it's not untypical for this type of thing to happen. It's mostly due to paranoia about what the hell just happened to you.

I would personally say dose again, but only when you know enough about what the drug not only does TO you but FOR you. Many people who don't understand these substances and ingest them feel as if they're going crazy and this can lead to a long term sort of self-hypnosis in result of fighting ego loss. It's hard enough to undergo this the first time in general, much less without knowing what is happening to you.

If it were me I would take it again just to prove to myself that it didn't do anything "bad" to you. I would recommend taking a low dose (100 ug or so) just to show yourself that it maybe wasn't quite as bad or damaging as you remember.

Buy the ticket, take the ride.

 

Redose. Don't fight anything. Embrace decay, destruction, and despair. They are as much a part of who you are as birth, creation, and ecstasy.

 

I've tripped 2wice in the past 15 years and both times it just feels like ive smoked some really awsome weed. It's like there's not much psychological influence now just visual. That may be due to the dosage.
I meditate regularly now and focus on being aware that i'm aware and consciousness itself.
This week ive been reading Grov's book on LSD research and it from what it appears i think im might have gotten stuck in BPM II stage matrix the "no exit" scenerio. What i'm thinking happened is when i starting getting scared about losing my mind it threw me into this this reality that my ego is generating and i need to take more acid to get out.
Hopefully, I will be able to face ego death again and more importantly let myself relax and go with it.

 

Excellent to hear that you've been doing your homework, Amp!

Turn Off Your Mind, Relax And Float Downstream. It sounds like you're a much more open and informed person than you were 15 years ago. I think you'll be surprised at the results.

Happy Trails, good sir.

 

I never really thought about it in a way of letting your ego go or destroying it. kind of cool to look at it that way.

But I've always realised that you ahve to let the drug take your mind whever, otherwise there will be an epic battle between yourself and the drug and it won't end up to well.

I've only tripped like 3-4 times, but each time I just keep on reminding myself to let this stuff play with my mind, its what i took it for.

 

Yeah, that's basically true. But it should wear pretty thin after some time. I haven't done it for a few years now and I am basically back where I started. But there is no doubt that tripping changed my whole outlook on life. I'd really like to do it again some time.

 

ive heard of this before. stop everything. pot caffien nicotine whatever. pretty much any psychoactive chemical will trigger those bad trip effects. eventually it will go away..or atleast get better