I want nothing

I don't want to go to school - yet i don't want school to be over
I don't want to get a job - yet i don't want to be homeless
I don't want to live a normal boring life - yet, i have no motive to do anything about it
I don't want money - yet i don't want to be poor
I don't want to live - yet i don't want to die
I don't want anyone in my life - yet i don't want to be lonely
I don't want to live with civilization - yet i don't want to live with out it...

as you can see, my life is filled with contradictions... My mind is constantly changing, there is honestly nothing i want in life, therefore i don't see the point in life, yet... there is also nothing i wan't from death, so i don't see the point in death either... Basically, i see no point to our existence, this world bores me greatly... There is nothing i truly fully want...

 

I don't want relationship, I just want BANG BANG BANG

 

what is you daily/weekly life like?

 

i was like that two years ago untill reality hit me

 

Average day of school: Wake up, go to school, come home, waste my time doing nothing, go to sleep, then the cycle repeats itself

Average day of work: Wake up, go to work, come home, waste my time doing nothing, go to sleep, then the cycle repeats itself

Average weekend: Wake up, waste my time doing nothing, go to sleep, the cycle again repeats itself

And on occasion i will go out with some friends here and there, or go on a little 'trip' other than that, its the same old boring pointless routine, fun stuff huh

 

I think reality has hit me, which is why i now know human life is pointless, we are born, then we work, work, work, then work some more, until we die... Whats the fun in that?

 

Society and the rules about money is a bitch alright.

 

not to come off as a dick, but have you tried everything you can conjure up in your head? Raunchy, dirty, filthy sex, painting or writing something, getting into some badass books, maybe making it a goal to listen to a new album daily combined with whatever mind altering substance your little heart desires (if that's your thing), standing up for yourself in a confrontation you've been dieing to get in...my point is you're limiting yourself, bitching about school or work has been beat to death and you're only preaching to the massive choir...at least that's what I suspect. Again not trying to be a dick at all, I do hope you find something and make it your own. Homo sapien=greatest freedom of all, though our definitions of "free" would lead us to believe otherwise, what's stopping you but you?

 

Dude you want life in the jungle.....You want to be a monkey in a world of humans...Me too dude...Me too.

 

Some of your assertions are correct. Life is pointless, we are born, and eventually we die.

But most of what happens between birth and death is your choice. You don't want to work? So don't. You don't want to be poor? So don't be. Use your tremendous power of intellect and find a way.

Discovering the pointlessness of life can be very depressing or very liberating, or both. Try to use the discovery to your advantage. Do as you wish, follow your dream; if you don't have one, make one. If there is no point, what do you have to lose?

 

Thats true, nothing but me is stopping me. But i don't know what i'm stopping myself from seeing as how i have no clue what i want to do, my mind changes constantly, i can never make up my mind about anything, therefore i do nothing at all, i know its not the best solution, but it's the only one i got

 

This.

 

But making a dream, is the hard part. I have a few interests such as writing, music and stories for example, but i can never stick to one thing, i get bored or forget about a project way to quickly, which is also why i can never see myself in a steady career, or any long term job

 

Making a dream is easy and you just gave some interests. All you need is one. The hard part is sticking to what you want and not letting anyone or anything put you down, get in your way, or tell you otherwise. A lot of people give up to soon, think its too hard, and just don't want to come up the hard way.

It is hard to fulfill goals but along the way you will learn other things that benefit you in life. Just keep your eye on your prize and never forget what it is you want.

 

Nothing comes easy in life.

Don't be a pussy.

Stay high and remain optimistic with confidence. : )

 

originallymasked: Sounds like you're doing fine. What's making you think you aren't? It wouldn't be the people like broony encouraging you to have a "dream" by any chance, would it?

 

If that is how YOU want to live YOUR life then go ahead. You can make so many changes for yourself to change up your routine. Routine isnt in itself a bad thing, often a good thing to have, but make your life interesting by changing your normal 'boring' routine.

You dont HAVE to go about making money and doing the daily blah blah work and school grind. Fuck it all, leave it, be homeless for a while, i bet the homeless routine will be a lot worse than your 'boring situation now'.

Take some LSD, grab some cannabis, start to re-think your daily grind, change it, life SUCKS a lot of the time, due to some things we control and do, and it SUCKS sometimes due to things beyond out control.

 

I cant really stick with anything that i am really interested in either. I am interested in Pharmacology, but i dont know HOW interested i am in it. Should i attempt to go to school and get a degree in it? Or not? I am interested in sellings things, marketing and advertising. Should i get a degree in that and try and get a job that way. Should i drop out of school and just WORK WORK WORK, like millions of other people who havent had the chance for higher education.

An interest i have is kayaking/canoeing, yet i have neither of these. I am probably going to look into buying a kayak, second hand probably, given now that i have moved from NJ/PA to Georgia, and i live by a HUGE lake, i think it would be fun!

Idk

 

I am the same way: I want to be known for something and be famous in the Mathematical community, but at the same time I REALLY just want to go about life making a decent salary, having a nice family, plenty of hobbies, but not being a famous Mathematician.

I think we all juggle these questions from time to time, especially as young adults in our "Cut-Throat" society.

 

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