So, today, i was out with my son. he was having a bad morning, cranky tired, crying etc, normal little kid who's had enough and wants to go home type stuff. i'm carrying him, trying to comfort him and lugging the stroller to the bench at the bus stop. i'm calm, sympathetic, blah blah blah and then out of nowhere like this huge powerful wave, i get a sudden impulse to deck my kid! and i'm not like that EVER!! i am the most anti-spanking child respecting person i know. (and NO i didnt act on the urge to hit him) And then this guy who had his stuff on the other end of the bench starts freaking out on me because my kid is crying. he was saying stuff like it's a big park, why did you have to bring your crying kid here when you could have gone anywhere else (i'm sitting there stunned thinking...it's the bus stop, duh!! and have a little compassion for a fellow human being who's not doing well). And then it dawned on me that i was psychically attacked, that the urge to hit my baby came from this deranged asshole. i'm empathetic and often pick up on other people's moods, but this was beyond what i'm used to.
wow! one time i could feel my brother, who tortured and abused me, trying to get into me or something. i just KNEW that he had to at least be thinking about me very strongly. I had to fight him off from gettiing into and afftecting my energy field. it was scary. i was, like, wrestling him off of me on a psychic level.
i've had that kind of thing with my sister. we're really close in age and used to spend a lot of time around each other. i've had to pretty much cut all ties with her because of crap like that. she did it to me the last time i saw her too. i was expecting it though and was better prepared to fend her off. my mom thinks i'm loony when i try to explain to her why i wont have anything to do with my sis anymore. i dont know if my sis does it on a conscious level, but damn is it ever annoying to be on the receiving end. it was so weird to be violated like that just totally out of the blue by someone i didnt know. i used to wear an amythest amulet to absorb some of the weird energy around me...they always break on me so i dont have one right now. time to get another one i think.
I've always leaned toward the darker gems like obsidian, onyx or jet for their absorptive qualities. Did you say anything... your feelings being reactive may have opened a door to allow the energy to remain/linger. Seeing your self in the attacker, as one reacting from the abuse they have been given, and extending love to the equality of your selfs will remove the charge. Never underestimate the power of water for cleansing. I will hold a burning wish for your saftey in my heart. Bright Blessings for you and yours. Namaste.
one time when i was sleeping i dreamed that i was laying in my bed sleping and a black shadow emerged nxt to the bed. then i woke because of my mom was standing next to my bed and was gonna wake me up. but i was like warned in my dream. i saw my mother in a very near future.
i think the weaker and more vulnerable one's energy field is, the more susceptible it is to stuff like that. Like, I've had experiences while being extremely physically ill, where EVERYONE'S bad energy, anger, jealosy, disgust, or whatever, even if it had nothing to do with me, just got comletely DUMPED into my energy field, thus making me sicker and sicker. I had to go through my whole body and make it all leave. It's weird, cause if someone else's anger is in your body, it can make you angry for no reason. Quite an anomalie.
we define and give the power to the energy by naming it and then by reacting to the charge emotionally. Hope you will not mind a thought from me? Having walked some of the places I have and through some of the experiences I have shared I have tried many ways to deal with connections and energy fields. Rage did not work, avoidance just piled things up like dirty laundry. Fear multipled things ten fold. blocking gave something for the energy to push at. and feeling sorry for myself gave me a migrane. What I did learn was that this was not about "Their will" This was about "MY reaction" They then became a reflection for me to see the greater whole as a lesson and or experience I could learn from. Sometimes I let things hurt beyond tears. Then again I can open to a deeper trust inside myself knowing that even what appears negitive can become a strength for me. This has toughened me up a bit, but has also opened my heart in ways I could not have imagined and or dreamed. I had to ask what being true to myself ment. I had to face what reality really is. Then I had to ask if I could find the strength within me to become vulnerable enough to see and move beyond what the feelings told me and the heart knew within itself. These are not easy places to walk. I understand that. Back when my girls were growing up My oldest daughter received a package in the mail. It was a large box of candy and hair ribbons, pencils and stationary plus odds and ends of trinkets. She was so excited. She grabed her box raced to her room and within ten minutes flew down stairs and out the door with a lawn chair and her box. I watched her sit at the end of the drive way and make a for sale sign. She spent the next two hours selling off everything in that box. She came in with $20.00 and an empty box. I looked confused and she said, "Do not worry mom, you do not need to you what is sent to you the way it was ment. You can get creative and change the energy. Can we go to the mall I want to get this pair of blue jeans?" I will never forget her advice. "Do not worry, you do not need to use what is sent to you the way it was ment. You can get creative, and change the energy. " We are in control, and the choices we make are ours to face.
I know a woman who was so sensitive that she couldn't handle the energy she'd pick up in a crowded room. Even in quiet times, she sometimes had to leave because whatever she was recieveing was too uncomfortable for her to handle. One day my wife taught her to ground herself whenever she felt negative energies overwhelming her. It took all of ten minutes. This same woman, no longer has any difficulty at all. Her friends were amazed. I wasn't. I was suprised that a woman who made her professional living as a psychic hadn't already trained herself in this manner. You'd think that after 15 years in the business, she'd have been able to pick up such a simple skill. My wife seems to have always known how to do it.
