I'm a slut...a dirty slut....

And it's not necessarily a good thing.

My best friend and I have a long and complicated history. We never dated, but we gave each other our virginities. We were always messing with one another, and he even lived with me until he went to university in June. I was heartbroken, but I got over it as soon as I left for university myself.

In university, Sam's life has come together. He's got a job, good grades, and a girlfriend. He lives 12 hours away from our permanent home (he still calls my mom's house his home). I am so proud of all he's accomplished because considering what his life was like until recently, he's a miracle! (long and complicated sob story about his drug-using, abusive parents belongs here...maybe another time)

Anyway, Christmas time approached, and both of us decided to come back home. He hopped on a plane and planned to spend 2 weeks here. I'm spending the same two weeks here. We are sleeping in the same bedroom. When I went to pick him up from the airport, I immediately felt sexually attracted to him...again...:&

I tried to be a good girl, to forget what I was feeling, to ignore it. But I apparently was not the only one to feel anything. He and I talked about what we were feeling sometime last week, but the fact remained that he still has a girlfriend. So in the course of things, we'd grope each other occasionally or tease each other at night (not much else though) until last night.

We fucked last night. And it was the stupidest thing I have ever done. We were talking in the dark, trying to fall asleep (at least I was) and he climbs into my bed (we switch sleeping on the floor or the bed) and says that it's too cold to sleep in the floor. I don't mind sharing a bed with him, but I didn't expect that he was going to start kissing my neck and doing all the things he knows turns me on. I couldn't help it...Heat of the moment type thing, and soon clothes were flying and we were going at it as if our lives depended on it....no condom (I'm a FUCKWIT!!) and no second thought about his girlfriend.

And now, not even twelve hours later, I'm awake and feeling horrible about this. He's sleeping like a baby. Should I feel bad?

Holly

 

Well your in some deep shit..sorry but he had a girlfriend and you both are too blame, but him more so than you though..

 

Your not a slut your a girl, your a naughty girl, whos been naughty? you! yes you have.


jk

but... try to get him to get the girlfriend to dump him instead of him dumping her to make it easier on her, if your pregnant or in love.

 

what? oh lord, may i ask how old you are...


Holly, he has to tell his girlfriend, and then let it be to her to decide whether she wants to be with him or not...

 

no you may not ask how old i am, ive posted it plenty of times. But still, it might hurt the innocent party, thats why i think it would be a good idea, but only if you are pregnant or in love (both parties in love)

 

dont get your panties in a bunch...

lying never solves anything and he did something wrong, well they both did, and he must tell his girlfriend the truth, if you lie, it will come back and bite you in the ass...

 

there lying can help, and lying can hurt.

 

I want him to tell her. We fucked up. Period.

As far as being in love, never gonna happen. He and I are friends but I know I've never felt anything other than a sexual attraction to him. I don't love him romantically.

As far as being pregnant, fuck me running...:&...If I am, do I have to tell him before I decide what I plan to do about it?

Holly

 

Lying will NOT be done, at least by me. If she asks, I'm gonna tell her.

Holly

 

Haha I wouldn't take any advice from a 13 year old...

 

If that did happen, then you should definitely tell him.

 

I don't plan on it....But you older, more mature people, comment...help me out...please! :&

Holly

 

I have been cheated on before and the lying about it hurt more than anything.. She will probably leave this guy, cause thats what i did..
But if you didnt have any feelings for him, you shouldnt of risked his relationship with this other girl, and double for him, he should have known better and if i was his girlfriend i would leave him immediately..
And if you are pregnant, YES you have to tell him no matter what...

 

I should? shit, that's gonna be difficult...I'm going for a morning-after, I think....I don't need this shit...I'm going celibate, I think...Because this isn't cool...

Holly

 

1. He'd better tell her, or I will...I shouldn't have let my sexual side get that much of a hold on me...He shouldn't have started anything...When I told him I was attracted, I said for him to keep it in his pants...we'd both be better off...

2. I'm going for a morning after pill...maybe...if I can afford it...If not, I'll wait until I get to college, wait it out, and then discuss options should something happen.

3. I'm definitely going celibate...I mean, fuck...I can't even control myself!

Holly

 

the morning after pill isnt expensive, but it will make you sick..but you have to take it within 48 or 72 hours, dont remember which one it is..
He is more to blame than you..cause he is the one that has the relationship...

 

well, this just happened 12 hours ago, so I think the morning after pill will be a good option...Though, explaining to my mother why I'm all of a sudden deathly ill will be no picnic...

And as ar as him being more at fault, yes. He is. I didn't chance MY relationship to fuck him. But I should have said no.

holly

 

hey, just cause im 13 doesnt mean i cant offer good advice, you dont know that girl.. or do you? some people take things a lil to seriously and get suicidal over the most trivial things, im just thinking about her, she didnt do anything to deserve it, not that i know of. she was an innocent person caught in the middle.

 

me? innocent? No, far from it. I knew what I was doing. And I won't become suicidal over this. He's not worth it. Sex isn't worth it. But I am allowed to feel bad...horrible, actually...:&

Holly

 

i was talking about his gf