i'm haunted.

tonight, while sober, my friend, on acid, "realized" she had to die and tried to kill herself, right in front of all of us, stabbing herself with a knife in the chest. it didn't go in far enough, but she tried. she was breathing afterwards, but just a blank stare in her eyes made it obvious that it wasn't her inside. she wasn't there. the ambulance ended up coming and taking her to the hospital, still completely out of her body. i've never done acid or seen people on acid but witnessing this experience tonight scares the shit out of me.. i feel haunted. shudder.

 

When you say 'still out of the body' what do you mean? How could a person who is out the of the body stab themself?

Sounds to me like you're friend is a trolly case anyway.

 

when i say she was "out of her body", i mean.. well.. the look in her eyes was blank. it was her body laying on the floor and her eyes staring up at me and the paramedics but there was nobody IN them. it was just fucked anyway.

 

Did they find out she was on acid?

 

yeah, everyone knew (including the cops and paramedics) that she took acid, and it was sooo brutal, they treated her like she was drunk or something... and i mean, i know its just their job and i'm sure they see this a lot and they just are tired of it, but i mean.. LSD is so different from anything else and they acted like she just needed to have her stomach pumped and she'd be fine.. but i think obviously there are some deeper issues here that needed addressing.. and yeha, they were soo rough with her and so unbelievably disrespectful to the two of us who walked into the whole situation completely sober. basically, they said they had grounds to search the entire apartment becuase it reiked of marijauana (which they had also smoked), and threatened to take us in over night. what the fuck! the one cop also told my friend whose apartment it was that she was completely responsible because it was HER apartment and that if anything happened to the girl on acid that she could be sued or taken to jail.. even though we weren't there when they decided to take the acid and we weren't there for the majority of the trip, we just walked into a crazy scene and did the best we could to keep it calm when it got nuts.. but yeah, it was so horrible, i could not believe how harsh the "authorities" were... fuckin merry christmas to them.

 

Gah, Authority sucks, I'm so sick of the way the system works. Maybe your friend took a big dose, or she is a bit loopy beforehand?

 

How much LSD did she consume? Just curious.

 

we couldn't get her to tell us, she wouldn't speak at all, but the other girl who took the lsd said they did between 1 and 3 tabs.

 

Whoever's apartment it was is responsible for what was going on there, they are supposed to be in control of the place. Just like if you had a wild out of control party goin on over there and things were thrown through windows and whatnot - you'd still have to pay for it to get fixed.

A prime example of how dangerous these drugs can be, especially when taken by someone who shouldn't be messing with psychedelics. Was this girl suicidal?

Just wondering, not to be in any sort of accusatory tone - why were the cops called in the first place? Why couldn't the people there handle the situation? Why did she have a knife?

 

whoevers apartment it was is responsible for what was going on?

thats such a good way to state that im an ass hole. lol. probably dont know what im talking about but its cool. *glances to right, wtf?

i think i forgot to fill in the blank, oh yea, you knew that and are going to persecute me for it. fucking cops and their mind games.

anyone ever fuck with a cop before?

 

Did you forget your meds Jesus?

 

are you an FBI angent?

 

Schizo's shouldn't eat acid. I don't know if your friend was mentally unstable (no matter how normal she seemed she could still have those demons lurking in her head) I hate cops just as much as you do and don't think they shoulda been assholes to you, but they see that kinda shit all the time. Irresponsibility of drug users is what makes everyone look bad. They stereotyped the hell out of you guys and for that I'm sorry. If she weren't a "bad case" as far as bad trips go, no one would have known about it. What I'm saying is that if she had something good come from acid then it would have gone unnoticed, but something bad is easily seen. Pure bullshit in my mind.

 

No. This girl was not suicidal. She is the happiest and most loving girl I know, obviously she has issues beneath the surface that arose while she was on LSD and thank god she is okay after trying to deal with them in an irrational manner. She didn't "have" a knife. She ran to the kitchen frantically before anybody could stop her, before we even knew what she was doing, and grabbed the first knife she could find and did this. Obviously we didn't just give her a knife and some acid and say "go play". Oh, and the apartment belongs to two of my friends. One of them was the other sober person that I was with, and the other one is the other girl that did lsd. We (myself and the other girl that lives in the apartmnet) had no idea whatsoever that they were doing acid there OR that their trip would lead to this. They have both done acid before so it was a shock to all of us. The girl i sout of the hopsital now and is fine. Oh, and why were the cops called? We didn't call the cops, we called the ambulance because we had a naked girl on an unknown amount of LSD bleeding in my arms on the apartment floor after stabbing herself - does that sound like something you could take care of oyurself? I've never even done acid before, we needed some back up obviously. And the paramedics were the ones that contacted the cops and asked them to come and make a report. Anyway..

 

I am sorry to say that I think she has some major underlying issues to have a reaction like that. Glad to hear she is ok.

 

can she recall why she felt she must die?

 

when everything was going on, there was a moment when she just said "i just realized i am MYSELF" and that was all. identity crisis issues i think..

 

some people just cant handle acid. Its the one drug that owns you more than any other drug, for the longest amount of time. thats why it makes you go insane temporarily.

 

yea, i guess some people are already used to being owned so acid is old news...

 

Let's say 'un-sane' in the case of a normally mentally balanced person.

But it's true that the idea of 'me' can look pretty dismal from the lsd perspective. It just needs a bit of insight to see that this 'me' one sees which is so bad, is actually only one tiny mental construct.A purely relative and constructed thing. 'Me' is also a mass of some billions of living cells, a living miracle of sheer bliss. A god perhaps, or more even than a god....it is also utterly nothing and totally insignificant. Or both at once. Eventually, the mind just shuts the fuck up hopefully and the clear light can shine through.

My advice to people is if you're not ready to confront everything within yourself, light and darkness, and go into territories that are totally unfamiliar to the ordinary awareness, stay away from psychedelics.