I just moved to texas to better my life. to have a better job for my g/f and my daughter. I got hooked on opiates 7 years ago im 25 now. My addiction started with vicodin , oxys, morphine. only took me one time taking a 750 hydrocodone pill. And Bam i was hooked took away all my depression. worries. stress at work. then i started to get xanax from my doc and then my addiciton went all out of control. i was spending about 80-100 bucks a day on vicodin. ( makes me really sad to type this ). after 3 years of doing that i told my doc about my problem and got put on 10mg methadone tablets 3x a day. thats when i thought i was ok.... The methadone made me do alot of fucked up shit. i was really buzzed up on methadone and xanax and drove my car with no brakes and hit a gas station window then took of with out giving a fuck. 2 hours later the police found me and asked what happened and i some how got away with it. no ticket no nothing. Sorry if anyone thinks this is boring but i have never posted about my addiction. I was mixing methadone with xanax ,valium and soma while smoking pot. I have always been a pot head and probley will. but i have been off methadone for a week now and starting to regain my life back. its kinda wierd. Im still on meds like clonazapam, tempazepam for sleep. and take vicodin 500 and tramadol for my back but im trying to get away from the pain pills cus it only makes me a fool and only think about my self. anybody else getting clean?. needing help? my email is alexisonfire004@aol.com if you want to ask anything. believe me if i can stop theese hardcore drugs anyone can. life is good. alot of us self medicate our problems and i did for 7 years. I have watched friends die. let their selfs go for theese pills. and Im thankful for that not happening to me thanks for reading
Hey, I feel your pain. There is a geat website that helps. Its medhelp. There is a forum there that talks about abuse. Your story sounds the same that Ive seen there. I went through a meth addiction about 17 yrs ago and it was hell. it was more menthal than psyical. Pain pills are both and can be a bitch to kick. That wwbsite will help. theres also a sticky at the top with some advice in it.
I hear ya man. Check this site out... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/substance-abuse/ Lots of good folks there that have been through our bullshit and worse. I've been clean now for 13 months! Although I do miss gettin high from opiates (I read here to help with that), I dont miss that ball and chain hangin on my ankle. GL man.
Hey man I'm trying to quit myself ive been taking about 20 norco/lortab a day for months and im trying to get clean by weaning off it just seems so hard. Every day when I wake up I have awful leg and back pains, and I wonder if weaning is a good way to do it. actually it seems the only way to do it for me. I have a job and I have gone without before but I get very depressed and to me that is the worse part. I spend way to much money on the crap and want to get clean. the meds dont really get me high any more. Its just a huge relief when I take them. If anyone has any input on a good way to taper let me know. I just dont want to be depressed about it. any help would be greatly appreciated thanks. and good luck to anyone else trying to kick this crap, and congrats on all who have done it.
The tapers Ive heard are 10% a week. So every week reduce your eatn by 10%. I couldnt ever taper bc I like than to much. Good luck
just in this last month i've started fucking around with pills again, its starting to catch up to me. starting to feel that monkey creep onto my back again. So i gotta stop this before it gets to bad again. I almost died last time. so hey man, i feel your pain, just get through it, youll be better off. once your clean you can look back and if your having a shitty day you can say "well atleast its not as bad as that was!"
There are a few people getting clean that post of this forum but most of us are just users. Good luck getting clean man, it'll be worth it.
yeah, i was also gonna say that this probably isn't the best place for you if you're trying to get clean. good luck man, and nice user name. silversun pickups rock!
Hi. I quit abusing opioids and now take Suboxone (buprenorphine), 4mg a day. I don't have any plans on going off of it though.
God bless ya, Royal. It's a tough road but many have made it through to the other side with their sanity in tact. Methadone is a bee-yotch to quit, so props for that. I've been doing poppy tea daily for about 3 years and pills infrequently since 2005. Please PM me if you wanna chat in private. Good luck!
Royal, I feel your pain man, i really do. I was up to 200mg of roxies/day. Had only been on them for 7 months. I couldn't stand it anymore. I lost 64lbs and was scared I was gonna die. Opiate side effects will affect people differently. I lost all desire to eat while taking oxy for a really fucked up back. I jumped off cold turkey on 1 Feb. I flushed 40 30mg roxies down the toilet and went through withdrawals. After day 5 I was out of the physical symptoms of it, went into that free floating period where I felt good, didnt want a thing to do with opiates. Of course that lasted a week. Then the mental withdrawals took over. I had to disassociate myself with things that reminded me of opiates. Fortunately that didnt involve alot of friends, just activities. On the 15th i had an abcess tooth removed, doc handed me a script for 40 10mg percs, i handed it back and asked for 5. I ended up taking only one for pain then switched to Motrin. Its hard, fuck, i wanted to swallow all 5 of em at once. Im thankful for the support of the wife, but I can honestly say that i can only be sucessful one day at a time. Good luck brother, JUST WANT TO BE CLEAN MORE THAN YOU WANT TO BE HIGH!
