Intense Paranoia

Hello stoners. Last night I was so fuckin stoned. I am unsure of how many bowls I smoked, but I was thoroughly blazed.

Anyway, At about 3:30am, when I was getting ready to smoke my last bowl and go to bed, I started to have VERY paranoid and irrational thoughts. I started to get crazy feelings that I wasn't alone and that there were demons and spirits all around me and they were just waiting for me to let my guard down so they could take me to hell. So I smoked my bowl out on the porch and the paranoia just got more insane and more irrational. After I finished my bowl I went to take a shower. I felt normal in the shower, just stoned, but no thoughts of demons or anything. After I got out of the shower, I started to get paranoid again. I looked in the mirror and could have sworn I saw a ghost/spirit/demon in the reflection, but at second glance, it was just me. lol Then I started imagining that the spirits/demons were inside of me and that they were trying to get out. After that, I would look at myself in the mirror and get the craziest feelings. It was just creepy. I really felt like the demons were inside me and I was severely creeped out when I looked at my eyes in the mirror. I locked the door and stood away from it while I brushed my teeth, because I had a strong feeling that some demon was gonna bust the door down and tear my throat out.

After I finished in the bathroom, I walked into my living room and was still very paranoid. As I was walking around the corner to get to the living room, I invisioned, very vividly, that there was a decaying demon-girl sitting on my couch snarling and waiting to get me. I didn't actually see her, but I invisioned her so clearly that I may as well have seen her. I could picture her so clearly in my mind that she almost seemed real.

I went outside to sit on the porch, as I do every night/morning before I go to bed. While I was out there, I kept visualizing all these creepy, decayed demon children in private-school uniforms walking around my yard and drive-way. I was very creeped out and couldn't stop looking at everything around me. It seemed so likely, at the time, that these demons were gonna kill me and take me to hell.

Has anyone had a night like this? Everything seemed possible and it felt very likely that demons were out to get me. That shit was fucking strange man. I felt like I was schizophrenic because, even though I knew my thoughts were irrational, I couldn't shake the feeling that there were demons/spirits all around me. I literally felt insane last night/this morning. I was almost scared to just walk through my house.

Do you guys think I am going crazy, or was I just really high? Because I don't know.

 

weed gets me paranoid sometimes too, but as soon as time goes by the paranoia fades and you end up thinking how foolish you were beforehand.

 

lol yeah i agree with psy, you just look back on it and laugh


and battery acid, lol.. tellin topnotch to lay off weed

 

haha yeah.

Anyway, it was actually kinda fun. I wasn't actually 'hallucinating' per se. I have taken 775mg of DPH HCl, as well as numerous psychedelics, so I know what hallucinating is, and these weren't hallucinations, just insane thoughts that enabled me to visualize all these demons and spirits around me. I could see them clearly in my mind, but not with my eyes. I knew they weren't there, but I just couldn't shake those feelings. I didn't know if it was because I was so stoned or if I was just going insane, which made it kinda fun and really interesting.

 

ya man, don't worry too much bout it. you got good vibes comin at you from all of us so no bad spirits .

 

maybee you visualised your true surroundings??

maybee ya just went to another dimension of your being and got a glimpse into the world your truly surrounded by..

 

topnotch check out the shadow people thread in psychedelic experience, i was just reading that and then came back here reminded me of it

 

You were buggin out.

 

Alright. I'm just gonna go smoke this bowl first and then take some hydrocodone. Then I'll check it out.

 

that's the spirit!




pun. intended. .

 

if i ever get so paranoid that im not enjoying the high anymore- i go to sleep. i dunno before when i just started smoking i would ALWAYS get really paranoid about everything, and it would take me like1omin to think stuff through and realise im only stoned and y the fuck would the military send a chopper to gun me down while i was smoking out my window. now im alot more layd back- basicly only things i get paranoid about are getting busted so i just ell myself- if i get busted again then its meant to be only difference is whether i enjoy myslef before getting hotted or sit there for 2hours shacking like fuck lol. OR i just have a few beers, i always find alcohol lifts the mood and decreases paranoia. i dunno ur 'trip' sounded kinda fun to me. i love when stuff like this happens- before i heard somehting in the kitchen when i was high, boped down and forgot while i was there, lol so i just got myself a drink.

 

Yeah that's what I'm saying, it was fun. This shit has never happened in the 6-7 years I've been smoking. I hope it happens again tonight. I am pretty fukt up right now, so maybe if I turn on some fukt up music I'll be more likely to get in that fukt up mindstate.

 

hahaha posts like this make me glad to be high.

 

haha lol yeah just get really fucked up and go and have a look, itll be interesting

 

I read through it. That shit is crazy readin when you're fukt up. I left a post about some benadryl experiences.

 

glad to hear it

 

haha im glad to be high too

except i just burnt my thumb

 

life goes on

 

i am also glad to be high but i've been high alll day and i'm gonna have some munchies then hit the deck. ahhhhh it's all good

 

yeah sometimes i envision crazy things too when i'm high. it's not like i see stuff, i just imagine it really vividly so it can affect me to a certain amount. many times it's cool, though other times it can be fucked up.