I never thought that I would be someone who would be writing my thoughts for everyone to read but I'm sure glad that I stumbled upon this site. I'm married and have a couple best friends, yet at times I feel there is nobody to talk to. I feel like I'm living inside "the wall" waiting for it to be torn down so that someone will understand me. I don't usually sound this depressed, in fact I'm quite optimistic. I guess I'm just a little sad right now. Maybe I'm just some over emotional hippy chic who's way too in touch with her feelings.
tear it down if you'd like, but i tend to gain from bending it to my liking well, im new on here as well ... but im here for you and im sure from what i've seen on here so far theres plenty o folk with their light shinin. im sure everyone knows how you feel, i can assure i do. things are great, just figure out how you see things best...like i say, bend your walls up just right for you! light for you, Lotus Butterfly!
i know how you feel. i always have to be doin sumthing that i enjoy...or even kind of enjoy. the second i'm alone doin nothing i freak out. i feel like i have no friends or that people just don't want me around. i feel alot more alone than i really am. this is a semi-new thing for me. i used to be depressed, but it's been over 2 years since i've felt that way. i think it's that my friends have trouble relating to me. it used to not be a problem, but now we're in college, or are working and tryin to make a future for ourselves and i'm starting to want different things. i too am over emotional at times. but hey if you ever need sumone to talk to feel free to drop me a line. i like to talk, but i like listening to whole bunch more.
Well, sister, what is the problem? What emotional wall are you living behind? What is it you are obviously so fearful of that you must let it stay in your life, conquering your emotions? Tell me this, and I can help you.
Thanks to all who responded. That's a good question Nathan11. You really got me pondering that one. You see, I've been such a carefree butterfly my whole life but lately, especially since I turned 30, I'm fearful of everything. Feels sort of like theres a dark shadow waitng to swallow me up. Even when (especially when) everything is great in my life, I'm wondering what terrible thing is going to happen. I know I'm just in a funk and I need to transcend above all this and realize the perfect balance of life but it's hard to do when I'm down. Anyway, I like everyone I've talked to in here so far. Keep writing and sharing your wisdom and love.
Well, my sister, I don't feel anything bad is waiting to happen, but I feel that you are realizing your mortality with your aging years (no offence). I feel you need to come to grasp with your physical body before moving on to focus on your spiritual body and/or higher self. Does that make since?
Nathan11, that makes perfect sense. It's funny you should say that because I'm almost done with my program at massage school where we've been talking all about the physical body as well as looking inward. I've also had a close family member pass on recently, and as hard as it was, it forced me to realize that it was just his physical body that was gone and he was just on another plane of existence. Thank you for helping me realize that this is probably were alot of my fears are stemming from and that I need to just let go and live life.
There is a quote that I say to myself often "Death is certain, life is not." We need to embrace life while we have it. I hope that you can get past this phase with ease and learn to live your life to the fullest.
