Have you ever felt like your life was spinning out of control? Have you ever felt like everything you are doing is being done is vain? That you are making choices about your life that can't possibly be fofilled, that you have neither the funds nor the talent to do what you are tring so hard to do? Moments of self-doubt, moments of thinking that nothing will work out. What the fuck am I doing? I'm crazy to be thinking these things... My life is moving to fast for me. Or am I moving to slow for my life? Please say that you sometimes feel like this too. This is normal isn't it? Tomorrow I will wake up and none of this will make any sence. Of course everything will work out. No, I'm not being irrational. I have goals that are completely attainable. Why the hell not. God. I would be scared if I belived in God. My life would be in danger than. But don't worry. I'll wake up tomorrow as if none of this ever happened. I will be staring at a blank computer screen. My life never flashed before my eyes.
i definately know how your feeling. i feel so little here. what am i doing, why am i doing it? whats its purpose.... i feel like im trying to catch the tail of my life and its running away....its going to fast....and what have i got to show for my efforts?
I could relate to a lot of that, good post. I enjoyed your expression. And have much thought in the matter, but find myself too stoned to talk about it.
What if someday everything is revealed as a FAKE, A FRAUD, A Joke@!!!!!!! wouldn't that be funny? would that be cool? great? edit: Your post is a frrrreeeakinnn GGGGrrrreeeaaatt Poem. wow. It rocks. Seriously.
the us vs. them mentality is only gonna cause you pain if you stick with it for everything, for your whole life
I didn't write this as a poem. It was an honest feeling that I get sometimes. (LOL, I guess some would say thats what poetry is, but I am one of those people that think poems need distinct structure to be a poem.) I seem to be caught in a loop. I am doing nothing good, nor bad. yet all the things that I should be doing, I have been putting them off. which is bad. I need a kick in the ass. JUST DO SOMETHING DAMMIT! All I wanna know is that other people feel this way, and that it goes away. I hate doubting myself. I hate admitting it even more. grr. But today is a new day. and I still feel the same. I MUST start doing something. maybe NOT sitting infront of this stupid computer so much would help. yet, Im STILL sitting here.
^^^LOL thanks com_do_drawings I KNEW someone was gonna do the kick thing. glad it was you. BTW you could grab my ass anytime
i actually feel like that right now i know im not doing anything wrong and i am actually doing alot that i need to do but it still feel out of my control and as if its all just spinning down the potty or sumthing lol i dunno *pinch*
Just slow down and enjoy whatever you are doing now. Because your life will surely change, and you will look back fondly at these times. No worries maaaan.
