Journal #68, October 18: Desired reputation as a sex object (NSFW)

I really want to have a reputation among guys as being a slutty sex object. I really hope guys see me in public, get aroused by me, go home and jerk off thinking of me. (And if you're reading this and you've jerked off to me online, I love you and send you kisses, and in your mind I'm bent over and you're filling me with your cum and making me say what a filthy cum slut I am who loves dick in my mouth and my well used ass!)

But I also wish I was easy and guys picked up on it, so they could take me home and fuck me. From there I could start to develop a network of guys who know me, or at least know I'm queer and give myself to other guys quite easily when I'm available. It's almost like I wanna be free use for a small, underground community of horny guys I know plus any other guys they get to know and recommend my passed around ass to.

I hope that would lead me to explore a lot of kinky experiences like BDSM, CMnm, threesomes, moresomes, estim, etc. I also hope I would develop close friendships with some of these guys so I can have some more formal FWBs who sometimes give me a little different experience in bed.

Overall I want to accept, embrace and enjoy homosexuality. I'm putting it out to the world I've been horny for the same sex for long enough, and I invite the right guys to take off my clothes, take me by the hand and walk with me on my gay slut journey. Open up not only my ass but also my mind. Indulge in all my hidden desires. Make me proud to realize I love to be promiscuous with guys!