Letting go.

I am on the road to recovery. It's so fucking hard. This is day 1 at 12 AM tonight. I just started going to NA meetings which are a big help. It is gonna be weird being sober. Plus I am going to have to deal with withdrawals from the clonazepam binge I went on. Fuck Drugs. They ruined me. At least I aint at the bottom, could be worse. Some people would say well I'll still smoke bud. I can't do that, after that first hit I turn to a stoner again and am succeptible to other drugs. I can't go down like the people at the NA meetings who went to NA for 22 years and they just got clean on the last two of those years. Drugs are fucked up. I still love them, wish I could do em all day everyday, but I have responsibilities to get my life on track.

 

good luck. na meetings are fun as hell sometimes. i like when people have good stories.

 

stick to the green

 

good decision,, the quicker you shake the hold drugs have on you the better your life will be in thelong run. i wish you the best of luck

 

good choice. good luck.

 

One question when you say drugs ruined you what do you mean? Did they force themselves down your throat?

Good luck with your recovery anyways.

 

May you discover peace within.

 

They almost ruined my success at high school. I got no real friends at all left. Which I couldnt care less because they were never my friends even my stoner associates, all they were was people to hang out if you had a substance or if they did. They didn't ruin my life completely for that's why I am thankful. I know what I did to myself captain, it's way worse than you'll ever know. Thanks for all the positive energy.

 

Yeah, your doing the right thing man. But do you mind me asking what you were on besides the bud?

 

I let drugs take over me. The only drugs I haven't done are meth, heroin, pcp, mescaline, all RC's. It is not about what I have done, it is the tole it took on my brain, because it just aint the same. I am thankful for realizing that and taking the time to get away. I will smoke down later in life sometime, but till then I've got some priorities that getting high cannot get in the way of. I'm not a successful druggie is all I can say. I'm a smart person who has done stupid things.

 

weed is actually my anti drug. when i smoke i dont want anything else. when i drink on the other hand, that is when all hell has broken loose.

 

I've smoked marijuana with every drug I've ever done so maybe that's what makes my hell break loose.

 

there are definitely some things i believe would be very different had i stepped away... probably would have done better in HS... would have not dropped out of college because i probably would have went to a better one.. or a completely different major.. but in the end things have pieced together... and life is looking alright.. i make decent wages.. enough for myself to live "comfortably"... do i wish i would have quit looking back now?.. my answer is you live life and you learn one way or another...

 

I know my dad looks back and says "fuck I wish i could redo everything." Too many people I hear say that. Makes me obligated to not be one of them, although I could be, who knows.

 

Drugs RUINED my sucess at HS, yes i lost all my friends at that time, and later the friends i made with other drug users, it was a fucked up period in my life.
i ran away from it, went into college where im real successfull now.
ive made new friends... and allthough i think i went through some shit, it made me what i am today
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im not saying i dont regret fucking up, but im not saying im not happy right now either... the past few months have been very good to me. or maybe even the whole year. shit since i ran away from my past, everything has been better. maybe ive just grown up... bleh i dont know


good luck volcom, the fact that youre willing to do what you say, shows you have more sense in you then most of the world, i wish you the best on you road.

 

best of luck to you volcom!

 

Good Luck Volcom!

 

Drugs never ruined anyone. Irresponsible use of those drugs is what has ruined people.

Either way, good luck with your recovery.

 

I'm certain I could name lots of other drugs you haven't tried. lol

 

just weed took over you? or what else?