lonely stoney looking for some peeps to relate to

Im a lonely stoner, a hopeless romantic deprived of passionate relationship. I find myself endlessly searching for something that isnt there. Something of which i know nothing of, something that totally consumes me yet i cant put a finger on what "it" is. I am a lonely stoney only child whose views on people and the world in general are different at best. Still i find myself searching for this something to fill a void in which i can not identify. A void so deep that i myself even through self reflection and meditation i can not seem to fill. I am still a hopeless romantic in search of what they call "love". I know how to give love but an terrible at receiving this love in return, which makes relationships great in the beginning but soon after i get tired of loving more than i am loved back, not because the person is incapable of giving this love but only because i do not know how to receive it so my feeling of neglect is purely self created.

Just wanted to see how many people out there could relate to my feelings of the current moment

-Much Love
-Dis

 

I relate to you. It's like you've just said the way I feel completely.

Especially the relationship part. I just broke up with my ex-girlfriend of 6 months.

However, rather than getting down about this, I realise I deserve a person to give as much as I can give, and when I find them it'll be more amazing than a life with her could ever be

Always look to the positive nature of a terrible situation.

 

i have problems accepting love sometimes too. to accept love you have to be completely open in a way, and i am afraid of being completely open sometimes. it's a fear of vulnerability. you are obviously a gentle and kind soul, and so naturally there is trepidation when asked to let down your guard and accept the affection of another, for they may not be capable of caring for you properly, and if you let them in, and they trample all over you . . . nobody wants that. bravado and a tough mien won't save you either, it is true damage.

 

Match.com worked for me. Getting married in September. She is not a stoner but accepts me for who I am and does not judge.

 

i can relate. i am also different at best. im like a trapezoidal peg.

i started exploring the nature of Love, in all its forms. and accepting it as it is. sort of like a love thyself thing, but its more about seeing the world with honesty, without prejudice. like whether or not fois gras is cruel. i can see both sides of the argument, my opinion though is that it probably doesnt matter that much to the duck. and who is the duck going to tell? and arent you going to eat the duck anyway? the whole process just expands on something that happens naturally. so im ok with people eating fois gras, but when i have ducks, i wont be bothering with it. too much time, and frankly, a waste of feed IMO, and thats why its a delicacy.

when i was in high school i actually cut everyone off from sharing their problems with me. noone wanted to be a shoulder for me to cry on, so i revoked crying on privileges. i was mad that noone had time for my feelings when i shelled out the caring and understanding left and right. all relationships should be reciprocal. now i find i have an abundance of love, and i feel like if it doesn't come back to me at least it will likely be passed on to someone else. if you are in a romantic relationship sometimes you have to look for the ways love is shown. love should be free flowing, and when you understand more about love (which takes time and honesty) it gets easier to be open. love is remarkably complex for something whose purpose is merely to keep us together long enough to raise offspring.
another interesting bit, is that love and hate are not opposites. the opposite of love is absence of love. hate is a totally different emotion, and remarkably, if you are honest about it, they coexist. absence of love though, the very thought makes my heart ache.

 

Really nicely said

 

it might be the drugs talking, but i'm actually pretty content

 

why, thank you.

 

Get a dog. I should be a guru or something

 

Haha I agree. Dogs are fucking awesome, Odin always cheers me up when I see him jumping in anticipation of his walk whenever I get home.

 

you sound like a whiner

 

yo natural is that an 8-bit ocarina in your sig?

 

That reminds me of the album Man on the Moon by Kid cudi.

 

yea its the 'flute' from link to the past

:xmastree:

 

first you must be open to loving yourself
no one and nothing can fill that void

 

sounds like you have never tried to deal with any sort of pain. Either that or are so unimpressed with yourself that you have to make sly comments to people over a forum just to feel like your important in some way.

 

don't worry, that's his thing..he has issues

 

Get out more and you'll find someone. Even if you're ugly as shit like a trans. I bet you never hang out at pubs, or anything and when you do it's with only a few dudes. Volunteer with your community, go to church, join a group, wedding crash, theirs a million possibilities and doing the ones I listed you don't even have to really do anything that won't happen naturally.

I usually stay home and smoke, feeling good, but sometimes wondering what it's like to do that with a girlfriend. Then I go out, do nothing trying to get one, and get one, and then realize I don't want one.


Edit: Also you write like an 80 year old englishman turned emo, might not want to talk like that to a girl... constructive criticism

 

umm wtf???