Maybe one of you guys can help me.

In my life I really haven't had it all that bad. In high school I played football lived the high school life made friends, did drugs, had sex etc. I have dreams in goals in my life that I will accomplish using the laws of attraction (tends to work for me). Really nothing has truly mind fucked me in my life (if you would like to take my brain virginity go ahead).
My problem is that I feel like when I go about my day and try to get things done I have different personalities. And I acknowledge them all. Someday I'll feel like a jolly happy person that loves everyone and wants everyone to have a great time. SOmedays I'll wake up ready to work hard in college football and be uplifting and help others. In can instant I'll just flip out and have the mentality that I'm some sort of superhuman hell bent on destroying EVERYTHING(similar to the ultimate warrior wwf). Then sometimes I feel like the world is a lie and I am just meat bag. There is even a destructive side to me that I won't do what is necessary for success and if anybody tries to help me I'll abuse them. It not just a mood switch. It's a full different person. I talk kinda differently if at all. I react to everyday things in completely different ways. My thoughts can sometime be scary and demonic depending on the mood (One side of me thinks death is answer for failures). People even say that it's like I'm different some days. From emotionless to full of emotions. From a loving friend to a evil tyrant. and If I see it I know everyone else can. I've even had time here I'll do something and then later can't understand why I did it.(Example I beat up a friend really bad because I thought it was necessary which it wasn't and then later felt awful but I can not see the point in that.) I like being the positive me but sometime the other sides of me seem so right?
Schizophrenia or am I just crazy. Or this normal?


1st post I love this forum learned of it last night and have not stop browsing.

 

There’s a word to describe your condition “Bipolar”


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Oh my that a strong possibility, also I was talk to someone who said I may have repressed anger issues which I can agree with. I guess I can try and control the outbreaks.

 

I think you have paragraphcarditis..

inflammation of the paragraph for non med students.

 

Do you play a lot of video games or watch films and television a lot?

 

T.v no I watch it maybe 2 twice a month. Video Games an 1 on weekdays not everyday. Maybe 2 to 3 hours on weekends. :/
Why if you don't mine me asking.

 

Plz everyone is bipolar as for flipping personalities we all have them one for tax forms other for clubbing and so on there is no one personality in one body there is no one thought in one mind all the disorders that are know are the make up of a healthy the human psyche this is a requirement do to the complexity of social landscape and life in general problems arise when one particular trait over powers the rest a person becomes out of balance relative to the environment in another words there is no adaptation to the situation which may appear strange or inappropriate.

Ok first of all all of this is pure speculation so don’t take any of it to seriously.

A trait may be inflated do to the abnormal environment leading to abnormal personality u had a good life u are attractive and u are a football athlete progressive and accumulative process I say this is most definitely abnormally good haha yet this may lead to inflation of ur self esteem and ego that is over estimated in turn I believe u had or are developing a form of narcissism. Good news though this disorder is prime suspect for success in life its exactly what u need to get to the top an over inflated self confidence. There are of course negatives a sense of invisibility well very much lead to perish u may be a stock market player who may take huge risks with urs and especially other ppl well beings, something that is unavoidably real and memorable especially rejection or something like that may lead to deep depression.

As for ur particular situation I think ur late blooming narcissism may aggravate ur true collective self which puts u in extremes of character say u may not live up to ur perfect self image by simple act of dark though which in turn collapses the perfect image that naturally goes to the very opposite side of the scale this is quait interesting if this is ur attempt to balance out ur inner day to day life do to ur subconscious realization of the over inflation of ur own conscious self idealization.

Whatever it is the case we all have disorders do to the search for the middle ground between our animalistic instincts and our new found sentient instincts what gets high lighted or removed in us is the natural way of reality imprinting it self on us and so we on it there are no wrongs or rights.

 

You said you're using the laws of attraction. Great system and belief.

It sounds like there is a side of you that doesn't believe you deserve to succeed.

Just keep using the law of attraction and you will overcome this.