I think such an inexplicable irrational thought process as this requires reasoning. So allow me to explain. First off I am not a raver. I have never been one and only dabbled lightly in experimentals... until this summer. Since then my natural curiosity has led me far past the rational world. At first it was simply strange. My mind led me deeper and deeper into is own chasms, each more spiraling and rabid with convolution then the next. I kept evaluating me, my mind, and my existence. But it wasn't until recently that I was fully awakened. I had a sleepdream, as I have learned to call them. It was a trancelike dreamstate. I don't even listen to trance but I heard it ever so clearly. Then the sky turned itself inside out and I say one thing, the inside of a brain splattered out like clouds. It was more like a ginormous dust cloud covering the heavens. I realized it was the heavens and then forgot everything after that. Since then I have been having reccuring dreams of that same cloud crashing into the earth. I have been constantly reading apocalypse predictions since and read a great deal on quantum mechanics, metaphysics, neuroligcal sciences, philosophy(Voltairish stuff), and psychedelic psychotherapy. I have yet to find reasoning. I think the world is coming to an end yet can't explain why. So I guess I have come here in hopes of finding out more. A few things about myself... I am a writer, mostly write poetry but some short stories, I also read tremendously and am deeply involved in many political organizations certain members of the U.S. government would have you beleive are "terrorists"(earth first and such). I play guitar and drums. I think too much. I am currently very interested in neo-shamanism ind trance drumming, especially in older cultures like the San.
