i guess this should go under the 'paranoid' threads, but i do think this may be some kind of stress issue of mine that maybe other women can advise and help me out with. recently, since ive turned 17 in march, i have had alot of soulsearching ive done for myself, since its alot going on in my life preparing for adulthood. and during this (and with it) i have, constantly, had this huge huge huge fear that i dont have enough time left....i cant explain it, its like ive been in this huge rush to prepare and plan out the rest of my life (which ive known the career ive wanted since the 3rd grade), make my own money and pay fees/bills, gain independence, and questioning everything in my life that i have always assumed was truth. its like, before, everything i didnt know i feared a bit, and now everything i do know i fear its truth. example, ive always been afraid to travel and my mom would tell me how dangerous it was, now i cant stop thinking about traveling (especially after going to europe) and wondering why she told me that it was so bad. ive been so pressured about maintaining pride and independence and just overall have been 'taking myself too seriously' but i cant seem to take it that way and relax. and im not a perfectionist or anything, im naturally just laid back but recently ive been stressed and i really dont know if its normal or not........
ya...life can seen overwhelming when everything is available to you to see, do and expeirience. but the whole thing is, you dont know what will happen tommorow. life is precious and temporary. always strive for happiness! doesnt matter what you do, or how you do it, as long as you smile, and therefore make others smile, you are doing great!! people spend their entire lives striving for financal security, stressing out on deadlines, and trying to meet the satus quo. For what?!?! only when you can look back with no regrets, knowing that you have at least been open to all the wonders of the world, will we really be happy! so relax, go travel, do what YOU wanna do, and you will be one rich chick!
I understand how you feel. I moved out of my house as soon as I turned 18. I know it sounds weird, but I had never been away from home longer than 14 days before that. WOW. what a culture shock. I I can say is you can do anything you put your mind to. You may f*** up a few times, but it's all a learning experience. All I can say is good luck, and you will do great!! Keep smilin'
I just graduated from high school...and trust me, I know the feeling. I actually spent much of senior year feeling totally overwhelmed by life in general, both present and future but mostly future. What I learned from all of it, though, was that it's so important to live the present- the here and now- to the fullest so you can look back and not have regrets. If you're focusing on now, the rest of your life doesn't seem so overwhelming because you can take things as they come, instead of trying to worry about them all at once.
sidhesister said it beautifully: I have two words: Be patient. You have a long road ahead and much more to explore and learn. So far, your past has only been a small part of who you are and who you will become. Just be patient, relax and enjoy the journey. I felt similar to you when I was your age. I've gone through at least three major periods of change since then. I am still just as actively rethinking my views and adapting and changing them based on my experiences. Things are slowely starting to make more sense however. Yet, being almost 29, I still often feel like a (nieve) 18 year old ready to find my independant place all over again. The crazy influx of thoughts will eventually mellow somewhat and become more harmoneous with time. Your twenties will be such an amazing time!!! If you only knew what you would be looking back on when you are 30 you would be so excited about what adventure awaits you!!! Most importantly, no matter what, periodically take time for yourself, for reflection. Spend a weekend by yourself in a tranquel environment away from home and free your mind. You will be very happy with who you will become in the end!!! It is a once in a lifetime adventure, be sure to enjoy it!!!
