I tripped on Wednesday and Thursday and once again learned something about myself. No matter how much I learn there always seems to be more to learn. When I was younger I used to trip every weekend or every other weekend but all the trips were about the same lesson. At this point in my life I like to space out my trips so I have a good amount of time to become the new me. When I trip again in a few months from now I hope to have come a long way since my last trip so that I am ready for the next phase in my life. I don't like to trip having to learn the same lesson again and again because for some reason my subconscious likes to be hard on me when I fail to get the message. I think I should make it clear that using LSD is not just about learning lessons for me, it's so much more than that. LSD is exciting, fun, always fresh and new, challenging, relaxing, refreshing, a blast, like climbing into a new age space ship capable of exploring the entire universe, a balancing act, a way to better channel and harness energy, a way to balance your chakras, a great way to test yourself, wake yourself up and of course a way to become enlightened while we learn our lessons. On this trip I learned something very important about myself. I have an incredible message that I must in some way communicate to everyone I interact with but a lot of times this message is not well accepted. A lot of people would rather deny the truth then listen to someone who thinks they know better. It is actually popular belief that it is rude or inappropriate for someone to judge or criticize another human being. I'm actually disappointed when someone does not take the time to help enlighten me. People will think things about me but will not say it to my face because they convince themselves that it is inappropriate but in actuality they are too much of a coward to be honest. Of course the same people who can't handle hearing the truth are unable to speak it. We must be honest with one another, listen to one another and be there for one another in every way that we can. I have known all of this for a long time but it was not until this trip that I realized that my methods may be part of the problem. When I take the time to try and enlighten someone because I care about them and they don't care about me enough to take what I have to say into consideration I tend to get frustrated. Of course it is easy to become frustrated when people don't respect you enough to consider what you have to say but at the same time when you become frustrated, what you are saying becomes that much harder to listen to and understand. When I get frustrated with someone for not listening to me I only give them another reason not to listen to me and at that point I become an enabler. Using the fact that I care about them as another reason not to care about me and what I have to say is downright selfish and evil but that is exactly why they need my help. I have to do my best to adapt as the people I'm trying to help inadvertently help me understand myself. I will not give up on anyone because if they honestly do not want my help they will give up on me. If people don't think I'm a good friend they will toss me aside and find another friend. Some people like to make my life incredibly difficult when they speak as though they don't want to hear what I have to say but can't seem to stop being around me and that's when I have to point that out for them and hope they snap out of it. It won't hurt you to consider what I have to say and if you don't want to consider what I have to say there's not much point in being around me. I'm not perfect and I'm not always right so I will always consider what someone has to say about me or about what I have to say. Sometimes what people have to offer is bad advice but I must first consider what they have to say to know for sure. These people don't shut me out because they hate me, they shut me out because they are insecure and afraid. There is no reason to get upset or frustrated with someone because they are insecure and afraid, in fact all this will do is make matters worse. I must be kind as I express myself intelligently and I must not take it personal when someone lashes out because they can't handle the truth. How do you wake someone up who doesn't want to be woken up? Some would suggest that it would be best just to leave them alone but I will never consider this an option. There is no way in hell that any human being would want to live out their life half asleep. They say that ignorance is bliss but no one wants to be a drone or a brainwashed fool. Obviously my trip had a lot to do with refining who I am socially but there is so much more. In total I took eight hits, starting off with two, taking three more four hours later and another three four hours after that. Wonderful hallucinations and visions from past lives. I'm also struggling with tendinitis and this trip was very good in that it helped me understand my body, what it's going through and how to help the healing process. The tendinitis is a physical manifestation of something from within myself and this trip helped me heal the root of the issue. It also has a lot to do with circulation and I have a problem with cold hands and feet so from now on I'm going to have long hot showers and baths. As much as I know that LSD has helped me become a better person there are many people who would argue that my philosophy or perspective is completely fucking insane. For some people it is easier to think that a friend or loved one is crazy than it is to consider that it might be a good idea to listen to this friend or loved one. In reality they are just afraid. There must be a wonderful and magical way that someone can go about enlightening these people and one day I will master this as an art. Let's learn to be honest and kind, let's learn to love each other and be divine. Judge me, as you may help me see more clearly and don't be afraid if you're wrong for I may help you see more clearly. When I say Judge I do not mean for you to make up your mind with absolute judgment; I mean for you to feel free to make an observation so that I might change this about myself. When you call someone a thief, in a way that implies that you cannot trust them as they will always be a thief, you are not helping them because you're not willing to accept that they are a person who can learn from their mistakes. When I make an observation about someone I do it because I want them to be aware of their faults so they can change and grow. I wish that LSD was better excepted and I ask for the insight and guidance necessary to enlighten a world that would rather care less. LSD is obviously not for everyone but not enough people are using it and most of the people who are using it are not using it in a way that is beneficial, which is only giving strength to the belief that LSD is bad for you!
i agree, 3xi, hopefully the world will learn (as a whole) more about how to talk to itself. It matters not just what you say but how much honesty you use, how much trust you give, and how much respect you share. When you critizise someone, it bring you together in so far as you are critisising the other person as if they were one of your own, and it pushes people apart as far as it seems like an attack. frustration is an inditcation that a being is seperating themselves from the target of their frustration.
3xi - I've always liked your posts a lot more than most people on these boards. I think you are honest and your intentions are very good. What you wrote here suggests that you are beginning to understand something that I and others on the forums have tried to communicate to you at times - that when people reject what you have to say, it is often not because what you say is wrong or bad but the manner in which you approach it. You have a tendency to feel like you know more than everyone else (as this post itself suggests), and I don't doubt that you have a great wealth of knowledge and wisdom, as this post and many of your others prove, but most people don't take kindly to being treated as students or children - rightly or wrongly. As you point out, you enjoy being a student and, at least in theory, are open-minded to constructive criticism from others. However, a lot of people aren't so open-minded. Anyway, I've always liked your posts, and I think you have wonderful intentions with your life and sharing knowledge, wisdom, and love, all of which you've highlighted here, and I think your realizations about how the method with which you undertake this is just as important as the knowledge itself will serve you very well.
In most cases it doesn't matter how I say it, people just can't handle the truth. You cannot be an honest person and make everyone happy, that would be impossible. My point is that when people get upset and either start to justify their actions or somehow try to suggest that I am in the wrong for pointing out their faults, that I should not get frustrated as this only gives these people more reason to believe that they are in the right. People who live their lives trying not to upset anybody are basically liars and cowards. A loving person has no choice but to enlighten those around them. People who understand the truth must convey that message whether or not this message is accepted by everyone. The trick is not to let it get to you when people become defensive or when they try to suggest that something's wrong with you for pointing out their faults or suggesting that they could be better people. It's funny how I thought that this thread would be interesting enough to prompt a better response than this. Personally, I feel that anyone who lives life without the desire to become a better person is in for one hell of a ride and if that same person takes some acid, holy mother fucking shit are they in for a surprise. The best part about this is that when nothing seems to be going right in their life they will have absolutely no idea why and they will probably blame everything but themselves.
"people just can't handle the truth" what is truth? your truth? their truth? universal huh? nice post
it might be complimentary. no offense to anyone, but ppl tend to respond when they either want to challenge something or to elaborate on what's been said. often enough is said by the OP that no one needs to comment. plus it is a rhetorical thread, a form of art. sometimes when I see a thread like that I feel like to post on it would be like signing someone else's painting. but that's my reason...:cheers2:
Is your message what you said later in your post about the importance of becoming a better person and the importance of LSD (in case I missed something)?
The potential for having respect that I almost felt compelled to consider honoring towards you just reversed itself with this statement. Are you seriously 32 years old and have not yet figured out that your opinion is not fact? What kind of a sweeping judgement is this anyway? Did you ever consider that maybe people who live life trying to avoid causing others to be upset may have figured out something that you havent? No, I guess not. Better luck next trip, maybe you will learn something new with another go around. Your preaching enlightenment and coming together, yet the more you go on, the more you isolate your position.
i read his two posts and the first thing that came to my mind was, "so much for ego loss".. thats about the only comment i have...
Im still waiting for the incredible message he has to share with us. So far all I've heard is how we all suck because we dont agree with him, and that when we do disagree its because we are afraid of the truth, and that he is here to teach us so we better pay attention or else we are not desiring to become better people. That's not all that incredible, really. Kind of dumb if you ask me.
It's true, especially in his follow up post, the ego is huge... I thought that he was honestly seeking to humble himself in a way but really upon further reflection, a lot of this is just about protecting his self-image and giving himself a way of thinking he is always right no matter how people react.
mhm definately - i have seen how powerful it makes someone to be honest. but that person must also be willing to accept that their oppinion is wrong. when you tell someone that they are the wrong way, you need to simultaneously accept them saying the same thing to you. This is where 3xi falls short. although it is a good thing to be honest, it is not a good thing to engross one's self in spreading an oppinion which is only self-empowering. At no point does 3xi put down himself, or accept other peoples oppinions of him. rather, he is very intellectual but not very understanding. This is like being able to prove things outwardly, whilst being unable to disprove things inwardly. The reason a lot of people hold back their oppinions is because they understand that their oppinion is not much different to all the oppinions they themselves discount completely. But 3xi is not wrong perse. he is right that people should not inhibit themselves from expressing something for the sake of how someone feels within themselves (making someone feel guilt/shame/etc). But he extends this to simply valuing 'expressing your oppinion about other people'. Most of us have realised that our oppinions of people are not always what we end up assenting to, but 3xi is sure that he has an amazing computer brain which computes consistently and reliably, and so this realisation is perhaps beyond him. We must always be open to critisism. But we should also be honest and confident with our ideas. It seems the conclusion I find myself making is that 3xi is still doing the wrong thing but it is right that someone is doing it.
Well you are obviously a two-faced coward but that much has been clear for a long time. Let's not forget that your are also a hypocrite as you don't seem to have a problem upsetting people, in fact you seem to pick people that you don't like and try to insult and upset them just because you don't like them. In most cases just like this one, you have no reason to insult or suggest that I am anything but a good honest person. Where in this thread am my saying something that is not acceptable? You go on to suggest that being honest is probably not a good idea because you will end up upsetting people yet you come on this thread and speak your honest perspective knowing full well that you are going to insult me! So do you agree with me or do you not agree with me because if you think that people should go around making sure that they do not upset anyone you probably shouldn't have posted in this thread at all and kept your mouth shut but you didn't so I guess that means that you agree with me and we should be honest and speak our mind. As for the word opinion, a word people can't seem to spell right, if you were to look it up in the dictionary you would see that it means something to the effect of - a person's perspective or point of view on a subject that has not been proven one way or the other. Now as I am a spiritual person I do not need scientific evidence in order to know that something is true, therefore I do not see any reason to use the word opinion anywhere in my vocabulary. I do not need science to prove that there is a God in order to know for sure that there is a God so when I say that there is a God I will be offended when somebody says that is my opinion. You can say it is my belief but you should not say it is my theory or my opinion because as far as I'm concerned we need no proof. If you can refer to my belief that God exists as a belief and not an opinion at least you show me the respect that someone can believe something to be absolutely true without proof or scientific evidence. Gravity worked just fine before any scientist was able to prove why gravity works and although someone may have had a so-called opinion of how gravity works they were either right or wrong. When I see someone acting in a way that is hurting themselves I will speak up and tell them how I truly feel about them hurting themselves and if they are ignorant enough to protect themselves from growing into a better person by suggesting that what I have to say is only an opinion, well then so be it. According to relayer if you witness someone beating their wife you should just sit back and not say anything because you wouldn't want to upset anybody, right? That would be a true and enlightened way of existing, is that what you're saying? Believe it or not when someone witnesses something and they do not say anything about it their silence is condoning whatever is taking place because if the person did not agree with what they were seeing they would speak up. Relayer, I strongly suggest you put a lot of thought into this subject. I think it's pretty obvious that you are just disagreeing because you don't like me and you actually do agree with me. The fact that you argue your point at all suggests that you are a little lost. If you think that keeping your mouth shut when you witness one of your friends doing something that is hurting either themselves or someone else is actually how to be a good friend you are seriously mistaken. For your own good and all those who you interact with learn how to be a good friend and do what you seem to do anyways and speak your honest perspective knowing full well it is the right thing to do. You have done this many times! Just by taking the time to post in this thread suggesting that I shouldn't speak my honest perspective you have inadvertently proven to all of us that you do agree with me that we should speak our honest perspective. In other words just by voicing your perspective in this thread you have proven that your perspective is not one that even you agree with.
I thought it might be a good idea to highlight the sections of my post where I made it very clear that I do not see myself as all knowing or perfect. Funny how a few of you understood this when you first read the post but then after someone else comes in and tries to make me out to be someone I'm not you forget about what I said and start to imagine me as someone who claims to be perfect and all knowing although I've never said anything to that effect. So just in case I didn't make it clear enough, we all have room to improve and I, just like everyone else should be open to constructive criticism. I'm not going to agree with something that I feel is completely wrong just to show you that I can make mistakes and change my mind. You're going to have to make a very strong argument that illustrates the truth and how I was wrong to think otherwise before I change my mind. Who cares if you disagree when you can't take the time to illustrate why!
Ahhh! It all makes sense now 3xi, thank you dearly for that last post. I am very sorry to have disagreed, foolish of me for writing a detailed explanation as to why I make such claims and expecting you to give it any acknowledgement (that must be your new openness for constructive criticism shining through brightly). You're integrity is overbearing and my wits are now failing. Peace & Love
Why do you only have oppinions/beliefs that are critical of other people, 3xi? Or is that just the case on this board? The only oppinions you make are positive to yourself and negative to others. Even though you state that you realise you must become less frustrated, that is like saying that you are wrong in so far as you cant get people to listen to you. But you never question your own judgement. Perhaps this links in with the fact that you dont need any justification for your beliefs?
Either I am so truly tired at the moment to even care enough to reply to that pathetic attempt at proving a point 3xi just exhortated to us and tainted our minds with, or I am still recovering from a state of shock after discovering that a full grown man is still trying to come to grips with adulthood and how he should relate to humanity. Dude, just for your own sake, dont keep any large blocks of cheese in your home, Id hate for you to be beaten to death by your poor wife in an unprovoked burst of administration delivering your karmic incurrence.
