Narssatistic personality disorder

Hey , so iv been starting to wonder if NPD describes me pretty well.
Im sure you are all aware of what a Narssasist is so i wont waste time goin into it and ill just get right to the bits about myself.
Its just simple things iv begon notice, these things have been happening for a long while but im just recently connecting the dots. I admit, im cocky, i think very highly of myself and i would say im attractive . Getting girls and makening friends is hard . Not to say im very intrested in other people but i know what to say and how to say it to diffrent groups of people to get a desired effect. Somthing iv been good at since i was a child. I wouldnt say im evil or mannipulative to any extent but i know how to get what i want and can do so with out much emotional reservations beyond the worry of getting caught. They say Narsasists are controlling personalitys, and i remember getting into a terrible fight with my x when we were still together and she was goin off on me for allways having to have control in any situation , that i would mannipulater her for things like sex or other forms of admiration.. Cant say that this is true but i cant say it isnt true as well yea dig? Another bit is my good friend for many years would allways call me a con man , or a escape artist. I agree with the escape artist becuz i have always been great with words. Able to get myself out of anything with something cleaver, heh, and the dimples help i guess too lol . I have expressed openly to some of my friends that there are people withen the group who i couldnt care less about and use them for things like rides , weed, booze and tag alongs for entertainment. People i wouldnt hang with alone but they become ok when dealin in a group. In my group of friends im a jokester, i never saw myself as a attention whore but i notice when im with a group . I feel like im in compatition with the other guys for girls attention and a put the charm up to lvl ten to show my superiotity over the other males. I constantly think people are jealous of me . Part of me wonders why they would be , but of course i would never admit this to anyone i know, lowering my personal value. I remember a time when my buddys girlfriend wasnt pickn up my calls... I assumed he didnt want her picken them up cuz iv been comming over to alot. This was during the summer n it was hot out so often i would come over without a shirt. Partly becuz of the heat.. i guess the other part to subcounciosly stimulate my homies girl. Not that i would fuck her.. i just like being desired , it kind of gets me off lol. Like im on top of the world.

I also feel shallow emotions. Most days are emotionless , im not truly happy untill iv received some kind of kudos given by myself or others around me . My homies GF constantly tells me im conceided, and vain. I laugh it off n flash a smile . Witch intern gets her to comment on me dimples and i eat it up . Sometimes i feel like im openly flirting with dudes Girl infront of him .. and this is my best homie .. since like 8thgrade.. Im 21 now. Sometimes i feel like a computer, studying others and there actions , even goin to school for human psycology then i download the information into any given situation for the desired effect. Iv even been rather heartless without much remores. I pride myself on being honest and not a liar. However i lie constantly, and about small things . Often to make myself sound better or w/e , and i often do this without even thinking .. like its just how the sentance gets formed in my head. I do things i know to be wrong all the time without much thought about moral bits... I can get away with just about anything . ITs all in the story and the evidence presented...

Stealing my sisters ps3 2days after she got it .. My mother n pop had not seen the ps3 so i told them when it came missing that she never bought one. It was a ploy to get me kicked out the house. Her and i had been goin threw alot of shit att he time... and i got my dad to believe me . My sister was kicked out the house n forced to sleep outside. When my pops noticed she had called the cops.. Like i said im very good at working words around for my own needs. Latter they told me they couldnt beleive how evil i was .. so sinnister n what not. Anywho , i talked my sister out of getting the cops involved . I still havnt paid her the money promised and when she bitches.. i just put on a sad face n shrug it off... Whats odd is .. im over it .. i dont even think about the 800bucks i owe her.. i steal her weed.. im pretty cold blooded sometimes.. and i do it all with a smile happy face. I dont even have to be angry.. Im simply entitled to what ever i want..

I feel like im the shit, and i deserve the world.

Somtimes i think im just straight Psycopathic cuz i like.. alot of things i shouldnt lets put it that way... but idk ..

What do you all think ?

 

sounds like you are a liar and a thief and con artist. Your looks will fade eventually.

 

You make me sound terrible

idk , i got great genes.. n i drink alot of bottled water...

I dont think ill ever get ugly... not me .. impossible

 

Sorry. But that is what you wrote in your story up there. You use your looks and smoothness and lies to get out of trouble that you caused. You stole your sisters PSP and then turned it around on her to avoid getting into trouble. I am not judging you, I am just repeating back what you said yourself.

 

And do you think this supports the theory of mine being narsasistc..
I mean , i cant honestly say i feel bad about the things iv done.. only that iv been caught. Poor preparation on my part i presume....


I mean .. its just a bad look you know


Sometimes i wonder if i will ever change, and often i think i have. Then i relized iv just turned back into the chamelien. Blending into what ever enviroment and its happened again... The tendencies are reappearing.

Just want to know if the way i think , live, and behav are possibly a mental disorder. Its a intresting thing to me , dont know if ill ever get evaluated, they tried that.. talked myself out of it tho.

Another note on my emotional detachedness is a friend of mine recently was shot in the gut and just got out the hospital. when i heard about it , i was surrounded by friends and just put on a show. Mimicing the emotions of concern around the room . But in my mind i was almost laughing at the idea, i really didnt care I guess , i didnt want him to die... then i would be expected to go to a funeral and what not .. but.. idk , i wasnt moved by the issue like the rest of my peoples.

I go to school for Crimal justice n Psycology. I want to be a cop.... sometimes i wonder if id turn dirty given my lack in morals ... well real world morals.. iv got my own set of codes i live by...

 

You just mainly sound like a little prick that needs to get punched in the face.

 

Never been called a prick before
guess that better then having some sort of disorder

 

I'm not saying you are an asshole but in that wall of text you did some asshole things for asshole reasons.

 

sounds like a regular ass to me

 

What is a asshole reason... Personal gain?
I thought thats what the game was all about...To gain, to stay in a favorable situation.. make due

 

Who is that rapper.. is dude in the back has cool dreads

 

Being manipulative is generally associated with borderline personality disorder.

 

You may want to tak a look into anti-social personality dissorder and get some help cause it sounds like you are fucking up the world for pretty much everyone you come in contact with.

 

forget it. people like this guy thinks nothing is wrong with themselves, everyone else in the world is fuck up to them.
the vast majorty of therapists, won't even try to work with people like him. it is one hell of alot of hard work for very, very, little or no change at all whatsoever.

lets not mince words here. alot of therapists won't say this; what they know though is, people like this guy are evil. there is no other word for it!
oneloveherbsman, get and read a copy of m. scott pecks' book 'the people of the lie.' you are that book, because you are a person of the lie.
i hope that book is a wake up call for you!

 

Awesome shit. Sounds like some really cool circumstances of thinking in your brain. You should really stop being an ass though and use your ways to pull off things like.....bank heists and other cool stuff. Also, Mr. Hottie, Show us some pictures. PROVE you're really attractive.

I have a feeling you might be an ugly fuck.

 

id say you're more of a sociopath. You don't have values as such...more such a desire for an end result. and that is your satisfaction. This probably is a mix of a quite high intellectual and emotional power but with a very limited scope of pleasure and pain. You may have serious inability to learn from mistakes and empathise with another.

Which maybe a fun ride, but you'll never know love. you'll never appreciate beauty, you will never know life

 

it won't be long till you're a drug addict. so watch out for that needle eh?

 

honey, you're a top notch narcissist. i am schizophrenic. i've seen your kind MANY MANY times in a ward, and in life, and PLEASE for the love of god go get help cuz you're gonna end up with everyone hating you. it ALWAYS happens. i've seen it myself.

and, as narcissist, you crave attention, so people hating you is a limited stimulus, cos you get a kick out of it to begin with, but then eventually, there's no one around to adorn you.

PLEASE GET HELP. you don't wanna turn into a self-important shit-dont-stink bitch like some folk i know. your parents & friends deserve a better you.

 

I don't say this often but you need help bro. Stealing and lying to your family and getting your sister kicked out of the house because of your lie is wrong.

Just remember when you lose all your friends, who are you gonna turn to for help? your family. Your family will be there for you your whole life, friends come and go. Don't do stupid shit to them, and give them a reason to like you. Even if it is for your own narcissistic reasons you should be making them like you so they are generous to you in return. If you were a smart narcissist you would get on your sister's good side and she'd hook you up with weed for free. But you're just an asshole narcissist.

Putting others above yourself is the best path to self-improvement, remember that.

If you want to move upward in society you need as many friends as you can make. You don't get them by lying, cheating or stealing.

 

I would applaud you on your honesty, but somehow think you posting this, is more about feeding your ego than it is a genuine request for help and or advice...


eventually this will all come back to haunt you one day, that's the only guarantee...if you choose to change now you may be able to keep the damage to a minimal but rest assured young man, when it does come back it's comin ten fold.

my younger brother was the exact same as you, a real fuckin dick...took what he pleased, felt he was entitled to everything, felt he deserved mad respect for absolutely nothing, walked all over everybody....etc.....

years later, he's 25 has a shit job(can barely keep a job) people saw through his shit a long time ago and avoid dealing with him, he's in some rough times and no one wants to help him out.......that's what happens when you burn your bridges.


...he also got screwed over(robbed, scammed, left with bills on damages in apartments....) by his supposed "friends" just the way he screwed them over at some point in their sordid relationship

like really does attract like