not all there

are you all there?

 

does anyone think why there are mainly only young people on these forums or that people who are older who have done loads more acid dont even have the sit down concentration 'no whats happenin' kind of get my mind on this computer and type a sentece kind of a mind. after all the acid i mean.

i mean you could be doing things and doing things, but everyday have you really done any things.

 

Are you still searching who you are?

 

I'm younger myself, but I know a couple of old timers who have had their share of acid throughout the years, and are living productive lives. Moderation is key.

 

Be here now.

 

Albert Hoffman had minute amounts of acid every single day. look at how cognitive he was... even up till his death at 102.

he was incredibly productive. RIP Albert.

 

damn Peter now much acid did u do?

 

Sadly it seems most people, in general, become disinterested in psychedelics as they get older as they fall into the alcohol/caffeine/office work/food/tv culture that is all around them. And the social pressures to disregard psychedelics get more powerful as they get older. Also, young people still have a lot of their childhood curiosity and are more brave/stupid when it comes to experimenting with mind altering substances.

And when it comes to productivity, this will have to be defined, because what most people consider productive I consider counter-productive.

I do believe that I'm as much "all here" as I ever was...which might not be saying a lot.

I think the key is not to over-do it. I read about people with HPPD and such and think "No wonder, they take pride in how much acid they've done and consider extremely high dosages like a badge of honor". If there was less dosage-machismo, I'm sure that lsd would benefit people much more.

 

those people who let psychedelics fade as they age probably never understood the true potential of psychedelics in the first place. i know a lot of older people who see mind altering experimentation as "kid stuff" and act like theres suddenly this stopping point where they have to leave it behind. these are the same people who assume there is no distinction between drugs and theyre all just fuck-you-ups.

 

Here we go again Peter
I have seen older people, still doing psychedelics and having very, very productive lives. And I have seen the ones who did it when they were young and than stopped. It's not up to me to judge which way is right and which one is wrong for somebody. There will always be many ways in this world. It's up to one to choose where he belongs and what are his limits.
Are you maybe asking for someone older to write what was his reasons to stop?

 

im just trying to gather as much knowledge as i can.

if i knew all there was today what could i learn tomrow?

i felt more 'here' while using acid than not.

and the most fucked thing out of all of this is my sex drive. which since a certain hearing voices incident has gone away. so me and my girlfriend have had sex like twice while it was semi-hard and this is in the last 2 months almost i think. and iv had viagra which didnt do shit, levitra which didnt do shit, and tonns of herbal fucking remedies which isnt doing shit. so its pretty fucked up.
now i did a bit of pills but fark not that many. i think it was after pcp trip. anyone had no sex drive after pcp? now viagra should fucking work, the doctores like ill have to get blood tested if it doesnt work after the levitra didnt work.

anyway i smoked a bit of magic mushrooms on the weekend. and since changed the way i dress again... its actually alot better now. and almost broke up with the gf.

but maybe i should do acid again and it will fix everything.

 

YOU need to fix everything in your mind. Acid, mushrooms, weed......nothing will sort the things out, you need to do it.

 

I'm not all here or there, never have been. People accused me of all sorts of drug abuse before I ever even saw pot. Since, I've been assumed to have participated in much debauchery, some of which actually happened.

The no boner thing may be a mixed blessing. I honestly have always been tortured by the constant and nagging sex drive of a typical adult male, and at thirty, it has not diminished. I'm married now though, and since we're all being honest here, my options have decreased for sexual gratification causing some misery. I can't wait to get old and flaccid. I will be free to dwell on other things.

I've read some of your posts, and you seem to be a bit crazy. I am crazy too, I've come to terms with it though, and can work, drink, party, have fun with friends, play with my kids, and expand my mind.

When you are crazy and have perceived shortcomings (be they sexual, professional, intellectual or anything else), it can be difficult to maintain a sense of self-esteem and assertiveness that is reasonable. While I don't necessarily agree with the 'learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all' a la crackhead Whitney Houston, describing the West's mainstream acceptance of and even expectation of one to be narcissistic, I think you may end up having to just say, 'Hey, I'm crazy and can't fuck, who cares, take me as I am, at least I'm learning and growing!'

Who knows, I'm nuts. peace, SW

 

^^^
Wonderful words!!!

If you are crazy you are not stupid hehehe

 

You're very kind. I do struggle with some things that could characterize me as 'stupid' though.
I have spent countless hours trying to learn the writing system of my new country and still have only learned to write like 15 characters from memory. I ought to know maybe 60 phonetic, and hundreds of representational characters by now.

My spirit is willing, but my mind is weak, and drawn to that which interests me, rather than useful things. That's why I know the names of many mushrooms, plants, and birds in my country but still cannot complete important tasks like mailing things and trying on clothes without much effort.

 

I know exactly what you mean, but that can not characterize as stupid, more like a wise man. Why would you learn something that you don't like at all. I am also living in my "new country" for 7 years and hardly manage to learn to tell them hi on their language. But why do I need to know their language, English is official language and I can comunicate with everybody, why do I need to spend time and my good will on something I don't need. I would rather extend knowlidge in area I do like and need. Off course, if you have to learn something, then its a different story, but torturing myself for no particular reason, I don't see why.

 

im crazy and i cant get it up. fuck it. well at least she isnt pregnant. mind you she has a child with the same name as me. which is strange enough. maybe its my brain telling me to not get it up and not fuck her cause she'll get pregnant and her catholic religion will tell her not to get abortion. for a second i thought she said even when she was married shed make the guy allways pull out im like wtf. fuck this. cause they dont belive in contraceptive pill.

i think maybe i should dump her and take acid once. in any order.

 

Aren't we all like that? Briliant in some things, stupid in some.... Lack of interest doesn't mean you are stupid. Allow others to be what they are. The problem starts when somebody wants you to be exactly as they are and that's when you get the labels of "stupid, crazy, etc"
And if you really, really find that you must learn something you will easily find interest for it.

 

I feel a bit guilty mentioning this because since I've married (more than 2 years ago), I typically don't mention previous encounters, but this may help you. Once I was about to have sex with a lady, and we were naked, but when I tried to use a condom, her religious education came crashing down, and she looked at me like I was crazy and said, 'Is that a condom?' as if I'd pulled a gun or knife out. I said yes, and refused to consent to unprotected sex with her. She was disappointed, but I honestly knew that I would never want to father children with this woman (she would say things like, 'are you doing pot?' when I'd dip around the corner to have a puff). Don't get me wrong, Pedro, fucking is fun, but so is a lot of other stuff (like knowing that you haven't knocked up a lady you'd rather not breed with). I'm sure this will all work out for you in a good way in the end.

 

I'm in the countryside, if I was in a big city, English would be fine. I quite like the countryside life though, and once my kids get into public school, I have to be able to communicate with the teachers. I work at a public school now, and it is clear that only the English teachers and a few other people speak English. I'd like to be able to read a menu in a restaurant too.