Ok so I feel really shit

Sorry I haven't been on the forum for ages, just been doin stuff.

This isn't about dreads, and I cba to post this on that stupif yahoo answers thing, cus im not looking for answers, im just looking for support and a hug

cba with punctuation either woo

ok so i have cfs, chronic fatigue syndrome. its getting worse and worse. im getting dizzy everytime i stand up. i can barely talk. i dont have the energy anymore to anything like put punctuation in my posts.

my family are being very very unsupportive. i think they think they are being supportive but they just dont know. my mum says the wrong things, not only with my cfs but with my vegan/veggie/non anything situation. im depressed, always depressed and mum doesnt understand.. sayes im stropping.. whicih makes it worse.

dad thinks there is nothing wrong with me- always telling me that i need to sort this out myself and i need to wake up the same time everyday and go to bed early but it isnt that bloody easy!!! i get hypersomnia (google it) so would sleep for days, with i could sleep for days so i dont have to put myself through this shit.

siblings are telling me im lazy and i have no morals, i just dont have the enegry to argue and tell them what is wrong or why i am making the decisions im making about the way i eat.

im tired all the time. all the bloody time. i get headaches. i want to be out in the sun but i cant because i get dizzy when i get up and i am sensitive to the light so i feel really weird outside. i cant cope anymore.

im feeling depressed, alone and intimidated. thankfully im going over to my boyfriends on monday for a week so im away from it all here... but there is still a day and a half before i go. i have just come off anti depressants and am feeling reeeeeally shit.

i have a dvd for my parents and family to watch but i feel so embarassed about watching it with them... and i might just have a breakdown watching it because its reminding me of all the stuff im feeling and going through and will remind me that none of the people watching it with me have understood.

http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Chronic-fatigue-syndrome/Pages/Symptoms.aspx?url=Pages/what-is-it.aspx
I have every single symptom on that website.

http://www.ayme.org.uk/article.php?sid=10&id=11
I'm about a 55%-60%

i only eat a very very small amount of dairy, only a bit of cheese every now and again no milk or eggs apart from the small amounts in tinned veggie curry or jaffa cakes. ive been veggie for about two months after my brother baning into my head that death for food is bad.. but i actually believe that we as humans are hunter gatherers and are opertunistic feeders. so in short im ok with killing for meat, but i would only do it if i lived in the wild. id go fishing in a healthy river, but i wont eat fish from a supermarket.

im agaisnt farming. so hence the low dairy. and i dont want to eat meat from a supermarket. id eat it if it were at home already bought and no one would eat it near the use by date and it were going to be thrown away. i hate waste. ill only eat bought meat if it were from a local farm where i know the farmer and i know about the pigs and how the farm is run.

my family dont understand this, or maybe its just me not having the energy to explain that i DONT WANT MEAT unless i ask for it. after explaining it in one line last ngiht to my mum she and my sister laughed, said i had no morals. bs. i didnt argue. i would have has a breakdown. today mum said she got me salmon mousse for my dinner.. wtf? doesn't that just prove my point that no one in my family listens to me? im so fed up of it.

is there a name for this sort of diet apart from semi veggie or a flextitarian? everyone laughs when i say these.

Sorry for my huge rant. im just really fucked off atm. pissed off and depressed. fed up. etc. ARG.

does anyone have any advice about the cfs issue or the non-veggie issue?

thanks for reading xxx

 

*Hugs* I know what its like when a family doesn't understand. I suffered from depression fro many years and my mom just told me to stop being lazy. But now that my sister is showing signs of depression she's getting appointments made, and everything under the sun to help her.

My family also tried to feed me meat.

Best I can say is hang in there and hopefully the videos will help.

 

damn that sucks i bet if either of my sisters got cfs my mum and dad would be like oohhhh aawww are you ooookkkkk? and still leave me in the shadows

...ffs i hate it

im hoping the vid will help

 

This kind of reminds me of when I was getting panic attacks while visiting my dad in Texas. Him and the entire family thought I just wanted attention and told me to stop "faking it" because they wouldn't believe me. They were really bad, BTW. More like seizures than anxiety attacks.

 

We should make this a "Things we have but nobody believes us" thread.

 

I am no good with words and bad with advice.
I can however offer endless hugs and a shoulder to lean upon

:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:
hang tight

 

shit man I get breathing problems and chest pains, people keep palming them off as panic attacks but they arent!! ffs

its so fustrating I feel your pain lol

 

Out of curiosity, have you been to a doctor at all?

 

I'm just going to put this out there..chest pains, and breathing problems ARE a sign of panic attacks. Speaking as someone who had them everyday for 3 years, had more heart tests then you can imagine, it IS panic.

Also, go to the doctor, it sounds like your diet isn't offering you what you need. All my veggi friends take a assload of viatmins so they have a high enough iron level, low iron will make you tired all the time.

 

ive been to the docs yea. these are different from panic attacks, ive suffered from them all my life.. and these other episodes are different. i'd get them every day or every few days. and i know they arent panic. i was convinced it was asthma and a doc gave me an inhaler to see if it worked, it didnt.. but my peak flow is all over the place. over the last week its been calmer but i actually feel worse. so im giving up on asthma.

Id get these episodes both after excersise and at rest. im thinking now it could be muscular... meh. im going to go to another docs next week to shout cus im fed up of it being palmed off as other things. i want tests!! ffs.

 

i thinkyou definitely need to change you diet. can you buy only local food and sustainable, organic meat where you live? it's not perfect, but it's better. if sticking by your morals is killing you, you may need to reevaluate them.. i eat fish and am a reject from the veggie community but it's fine with me because i am healthy and i can find sustainably harvested tilapia at the market down the road. i get sick when i don't have fish or chicken in my diet. maybe you could try it for a while and see if you get better..

 

well dragonvine, sowwy to hear you're in a bad shape. but no worries and chin up, i got just the thing for you: POWERTHIRST
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRuNxHqwazs
you should try some.

also do tell us how the vids watching went with your parents.
I for one am against vegetarianism, as i find it in contradiction with human nature, but i do appreciate your point of view and the fact you're standing your ground. you got my support. and sure, hugs

 

thanks guys why do you think i need to change my diet?

my m.e. has been going on for over a year and a half and ive had these breathing troubles for most of my life xD right mess me

dvd went ok, so embarassing, not knowing what mum is thinking lol. said i have the symptoms in the viid, she said 'really? you never mentioned it before' oohh i bloody did selective hearing lol.

 

mmm depression is fun. my family dunno what to do with me about that either. its weird, im not close AT ALL to my sister, but shes the one who'll ask if im ok, or she'll gimme a hug (shes not a hugging type) or whatever, and she actually asks me what its like.. but this might be because her ex has become depressed/suicidal recently, so shes picking it up on me too..

i also think your diet needs changing. i dunno anything about cfs, but diet affects soo many things. how physically active are you on your good days? dunno why i ask really, but it could be muscular like you said, maybe you need beefin up =]

 

I would have to walk to uni (according to google its 0.7miles) and back again. id have goo days and bad days in uni, ranging from 2 hours to 7 or 8, but id still havr to get a lift or bus back to my house. i find it really hard to walk after a long day and i get dizzy and im afraid i might faint. im at home atm so all im doing is sitting around oing nothing- i might have a go on the running machine for a walk or something tomorrow, see if it brightens me up.

after watching the dvd mum still doesnt understand, said the dvd was "too much aimed towards the more severe cases" oh yea and that doesnt make me feel any better.. ¬¬

im having a googling session, and found that there are links between my breathing problems and cfs... but ive had my breathing problems all my life.. Grr i still want an answer for my breathing. bastards..

i dunno how i can change my diet, im eating tonnes of oats and bran, i eat veg, cheese, potatos bread, i dunno what im missing apart from meat, and that gives me cramps now

 

excersice is a good way to beat depression,thing that is shite is getting the motivation to do it!
it releases happy hormones in your brain
Maybe you could try it? if you are seeing your boyf...they say sex is one of the best forms of excersice hehe .

 

can only do a litle exercise, i get really worn out and dizzy after i hate my health!!

 

sorry to hear this dragon honey, I want to give you a hug <3

 

this is my daily battle.. i gets no motivation when my depression hits, so all these things that apparently make you happy, i just dont wanna do

do you eat meat substitutes? i suppose im thinking of that quorn stuff =/ i have no idea if thatll help

 

i doo eat quorn, i love the burgers thankooo lux xxx