One of these I have to find the courage....

I'm soooooo fucking depressed at the moment. I always talk about dying but one of these days, I just have to do it. Can't keep always talking about it.

 

It's not worth it. Like you said you're depressed "at the moment." Things can and will get better. Hang in there.x

 

I remember being told once that there's a thing in your brain that keeps you from killing yourself. People who try/succeed in killing themselves don't have it. But, some unbelievably, indescribably depressed people are incapable of ending it no matter how bad they want it. And, some much less depressed people are capable of ending it just because they don't have that thing that stops them.
Keep in mind, I was 14 when I was told this and I'm terrible at retaining details. So there's a chance that this is half crap. But, I think I'm right.

 

I just saw this thread for the first time

I'm sorry if this is my stock answer, but it may be helpful

people don't really want to die. they just want their pain to end.

there's probably a way for you to get better so that you'll feel glad to be alive

you might want to check out www.suicideforum.com

also, www.befrienders.org for a list of suicide hotlines

the book "curing depression naturally with chinese medicine" by bob flaws may be helpful to you

hope that things can get better soon!