Psycho analyze me.....

You have a really big heart, but it doesn;t always show because you are always thinking about the next best thing and are not engaged in the moment. You need approval from women more than you let on because you wish you got more from mom. You pick women who are unable to give you this affirmation because you sub c. feel like if you gain the approval of someone dissaproving, it will prove that you were worthy of more praise and encouragement all along.
I reccomend deep breathing excercises to be more present and self-affirmations in the mirror and in a journal. Acknowledging 'Wow, I had all these kiddos today and didn't lose it once' is much more inportant than a high paying job or a hair salon. You are building people's mental heath and ability to learn self-soothing in childhood. That is beyond awesome.
if this hits you the wrong way, I will delete it.
Or, I might be wrong. There's a reason I am gettign out of this field lol.