Quitting Opiates (long post)

Soooo about an hour ago, I injected my last shot of heroin. It's been an on and off relationship for a solid year+ now, and in the off periods I've been using suboxoneso I've never truly been clean. I know a year isn't much to some people, but it's still a good amount of time. What set this off is I just got a year of probation with random drug tests. Awesome huh? They gave me 60 days to clean out my system because they know I'm a daily smoker. But anyway, here's how I got arrested.

It happened a few months ago when some friends and I were confronted by this guy when we were stealing a fire hydrant (already dislodged). I supposedly "threatened" the guy when he was threatening to call the cops. So the charges were mostly bullshit, however, one ended up being a felony, and I automatically lose my job for having a felony conviction. Anyway, after three visits to the court with no luck, we clued in my lawyer to the fact that I've been seeing a therapist, and he wanted to talk to her. She tells him that she thinks I'm clinically depressed (probably am), that I smoke marijuana daily, and that I use heroin. My lawyer decided to use this to our advantage, and It actually helped a lot. My lawyer made a good argument, I was very sincere, and I really think the judge felt for me. But yeah, that's how the drug testing came to be a part of the terms of my probation.

So yeah, I've been meaning to quit opiates for a long time, and I sorta think this is my last chance before I really fuck myself over. From the beginning, this whole event seemed to tie in with my dope use. When i first got arrested, I had just started using again. The jail was crowded so I shared my cell with a guy who was in there for possession of heroin. In the cell next to us was a buddy of his puking his guts out cause he was dopesick. Sitting in that cell for the night all I could think about was the connection between dope and me being arrested. Then the end result is that coming clean about my drug use got me pretty much out of the charges (continued without a finding), but at the expense of not being able to do drugs for a year. Now, I know I technically COULD do dope much more feasibly than I could smoke weed, but I'm still not going to. And if(when) I do smoke weed it will be at least a month or two into my probation or until I sufficiently feel out the situation. For now, I've got 60 days to pass a test so I'm gonna keep smoking for a couple weeks.

so yeah, that last shot was incredible. it was between .2-.3 grams of fairly high quality powder, 70 units where my normal dose would be 50 (dose porportionate obviously). fuckin rush lasted for a solid 30 seconds came on strong and just kept getting stronger as i felt it reach every last inch of my limbs. ahhhhhh it was great. but thats it. at least for a very, very long time.



Oh yeah, and I totally encourage people who are quitting or taking a break to post here and talk about whats going on and help each other out with shit. Quitting is rough, and since there is no "withdrawal" forum or anything like that haha, maybe we could use this thread as a means to talk to each other about this shit.:cheers2:
anyway if not at least heres my story

 

ive actually just relapsed the last couple of days, but ive been there before. Its probably a good idea to quit if your on probation. REMEMBER, being sober out here is alot better than being sober in jail. just stick with it till you get done with your probation. other perks to stopping: physical health improves, tolerance goes away, youve got more money in your pocket. these are the big ones. just remember man opiates will always be around, so its not like your missing your only chance.

anyway i think theres already an opiate WD survival guide thread but id still be happy to answer any questions you have. good luck man, it sucks at first but once you get past the physical WD i think you will be quiet happy.

 

word man i know about the survival guide this is just my way of having a thread that applies to me cause i like the opi forums even if im not gonna be using opiates. and yeah im just gonna ween myself down on suboxone again, its fairly painless when done right.

 

haha glad to see you made this hum, but you will be missed
Ill try not to AIM you about my opiate use cause i know that will make things harder

 

yeah if i leave ill miss you guys too. well see what happens, maybe i wont want any reminders of opiates in my life, maybe i wont care. only time will tell

 

yeah man i wasnt dissing your thread just wanted you to be aware of it if you need help with your WD. by the way i hear about Suboxone alot, where dose one come across these? i understand they are like methadone but with less recreational value. are they prescribed just to get people off of opiates or what? i hear about em all the time on the forums but have never even heard about anyone having em around here.

 

Best of luck. I dread the day when I get weaned from my meds.

Does anyone know if shaking (seizing) is a side effect of opiate withdrawal?

 

^^^i believe it is. benzo WD too.

 

good luck, feel better

 

yeah blitz suboxone is pretty much exactly what you think it is. its a partial opiate agonist so it binds to the receptors but only partially activates them. i get em from a friend who is prescribed.

oddibemcd - im pretty sure that seizuring/shaking is not a side effect of opiate withdrawal.

thanks spens

 

i'll be wishing you good luck man. quitting opiates is defenitly not an easy thing to do but if you truely want/need to quit, imm sure you'll make it through. and we'll also be backing you up from here. good luck man

 

Good luck kicking it man, but at least you weren't the dopesick guy puking in jail, i hear thats hell when you're forced to go through withdrawl in jail.

 

^^^ dude i felt so bad for the guy

 

If your lucky enough to get weened off your meds.. HAHA Thats pretty funny
I hope your ready for it when it comes.. They hardly ever EVER ween you off.
I'm not trying to be rude, just warning you

 

good luck dude.

 

seizing is not an opie w/d effect. only alkie and benzos. opiate w/d wont kill you, but itll make u wish u were dead.

 

noo its all good i get my subs from a friend whos scripted and i can get as many as i would ever need. ive got enough right now i think to make it off, i can ween down on subs fairly quickly

 

^ its the most painless way i've heard from friends. if you get it down to like less than a mg.

 

without a doubt. tiny tiny chunks of a pill

 

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