Racist (I'm horrible)

I will admit, I was a huge racist....It all started when I met my 'soon to be brother n law', he introduced me to his views and what not. Eventually I noticed the huge ass swastika tattoo over his heart, I asked why and what is was all about. He was a very good speaker and a big influence, through 2007 I adopted the whole neo-nazi concept. By 2008 shouting my Seig Heil's and racial slurs became an everyday use of vocab. My parents hated it, my sister tried pushing religion on me so bad, saying that she seen what real evil was through my eyes, 3 preachers agreed (eh? lol). Eventually, a few of us buddies became "activists" for this movement and roamed the town looking for any dark skinned person possible, they just needed a good tan and they would get an ass kicking. Any fight was never fair, a boot party is thrilling but just fucking sick. I'd say the worse time was when some half black punk called me a pussy at school, well me n some buddies were drinkin beer down by the park at about 12am and saw him walking home, we slowely followed him, really scared the fuck outta him, he skipped some yards and as he was on the road to his house we tried plowing him with my buddies blazer, we were doing about 80mph when we got to him and he dived to his porch as we shot into his yard. Of course he ran inside and the real intent there was most likely to kill, this I do not feel bad about though simply because he was a no good peice of shit who did nothing but talk shit, never did he speak to me once after that. So you could say I was one punk ass skinhead, I don't like who I was but well I changed. I was to the point of wearing the swastika as a show of pride and as a material to spread fear and hate, truely it did work. I'd make fun of black kids, who ranged from 5-10yrs old, it didn't even matter about age and they probally felt confused and very pissed of all the hate towards them, i was 100% not afraid to show my hatred towards anyone ANYWHERE, i'd make public scenes just to embarass the fuck out of them. This girl that REALLLY liked me (who was really good looking and well I liked her too) noticed me doing a Seig Heil salute to a fellow skin and said she was really offended about that and that she was jewish and her grandma was as well, I called her a no good peice of shit and haven't talked to her since....

There, that's the worse shit I've ever done, the most horrible phase ever...Just proof that influence means A LOT! I'm sorry, in no way am I racist like that now, although there will always be that part of me that will be apart of me for the rest of my life. I hurt a lot of people, physically and mentally/emotionally and probally fueled even more racism. I'm sorry, world.:[

[For those who say skinheads are to pussy to fight ALONE, ha we loved hearing that, it didn't matter 1vs1 or 5vs1 they would get their ass kicked. I physically and mentally trained everyday just to be a fit soldier for my movement and race, so never was I in a disadvantage. Eventually though I do believe someone would have delivered a bullet into my skull, anytime I walked alone I constantly had to watch over my shoulder...not a way to live.. but I deserved to be beaten to death now that I look back on it.]

 

And you could've been banging that hot chick in highschool and going to parties.

 

Duuude, I know...I'm not saying all girls hate racist ass skinheads, because I could still be a skinhead and my girlfriend would still be with me (suprising if you ask me.) Really, I could've been bangin' that chick, I could've been having a lot more fun than I was. I was trying to act like an 'adult.' Ha, all I did was make myself look like a douche bag.


Still have that rebelious skinhead in me, not the racist type though, yes if you all don't know there are two types of skinheads, of course. xD

 

MrDot, Now is better than never at least you've seen the error in that train of thought and that it leads nowhere. Believe me I wish I could redirect some knuckle heads I knew back in high school who were militant racist muslims (just to give u an idea of what im talkin about).

 

I dated a skinhead. I'll never do it again.
He never offended me cause he liked the fact
i was 1/2 canadian 1/2 irish.
not the greatest time..

 

Yeah, I provoked a lot of racism into my peers so it really gets to me now to see them as racists. My brother in law eventually had his swastika covered so he saw the errors in his way, really though I'm glad I went through this whole phase, I had first hand experience of the evil of racism in firsthand and as a victim. I'd apologize to all of those I offended, but if I even dared to step to any of those guys now chances are I will leave on a stretcher... GAH, I'm positive this will eat at me for the rest of my life but oh well.

Militant racist muslims? Where do you live?

 

Ha, that sucks.. Even if I still believed in that though I will say I'd never try and push my beliefs onto a girlfriend or anything like that, this ussually happens and can ussually have negative effects on the girl.

 

Yeah, he pretty much expected me to follow that way automatically when we started dating.

 

Ha, well a swift kick to the balls would fix that and any possible future of his ass spawning another sack of shit. If someone would have done this to me and made me "sterile" or whatever, now looking back on it I would say I deserved it and moved on. I hate racism in all forms now, although I don't HATE racists because that would be "racist" of me, they have their own veiws and opinions and I respect that so I don't try to push MY beliefs on them. It isn't common around here but you see a person of another ethinicity being racist towards me, I hate it but I just look at it as karma. xD

 

BAHAH he was like 6'2''-6'3''. I'm 5'3. I'm not going to kick him in the balls. but i didn't follow those "ways" cause i'm a big believer in Karma.

 

Yeah, I wasn't but....well now I am because it has bitten me in the ass multiple times.


Nova, trust me, no matter the height, if you gave him a swift kick to the balls he is done....unless he had a GINA! :O ha

 

Yeah i hear yeah.

haha trust me, no GINA.
but still, i would have to like run for my life after!
i can actually picture him just standing there, staring at me,
with an arnold schwarzenegger[sp?] look.

 

haha, yeahhh, there is always that chance. Considering he is most likely a white supremacist/skinhead then it would go against his morals to hit a woman, but most dumb fucks still would do it. I'd like to think if a girl hit me I would teach her a lesson by striking back with eqaul agression and leaving it at that, but I don't think I could EVER do that no matter the reason. But well, that's a different subject. lawl. xD

 

he wouldn't hit me. he'd just scare the shit outta me.
Well i would hope that you wouldn't hit a girl unless it's her fault, and she hit you(and hurt you) for no reason...
well.. actually i still think guys shouldn't hit girls.
but yes, a different story. ^_^

 

(while we're on the subject ha) From most cases I've seen, the guy ussually provokes it somehow and is just asking for it ya know? But if the girl is being crazy and out of rage attacks a guy for a stupid ass reason, well as I always say, if a girl has the balls to deliver a punch she sure as hell has the balls to recieve one. Either way though, it's just one fucked up and bad situation, just my 2 cents.

 

haha i guess i get your point.
But i also agree that from most cases a guy will provoke it. or a girl will see it in a different way.

 

Living with 3 women from birth to now has showed me that women can be VERYYYY moody and there really is no telling how they will take something you say, most girls I know are like this, just take something in a completly unintended way as in taking the conversation in a complete 180 spin. So, I understand when it does happen. In a way, I believe women will go through shit tons more than a man EVER will considering birth, periods etc etc. So as a guy, I just take it as "venting" and move on. Water under the bridge. xD (I don't know if I made sense but oh well.)

 

lol i hear yeah!!! i live with two.
but my brother and my dad have taught me to look at the other side. and trust me, i wish all girls did this.
I'd rather sit on the couch watching trailer park boys, than parade in a beltskirt, fucking anyone and anything i see.

 

Enjoy jail, that's where you're heading. I'd be laughing at you when I see you on Cops.

Not much of a loss for the world though. You might as well just die.

 

wow. such anger..