relationship revolving around drugs

when i was about 14 i started smoking weed constantly, and drinking on the occasion, after i cut back on the party seen, i experimented with some other drugs at shows and festivals and stuff but never got addicted to anything or tryed anything more than once, but when i was about 17 in december or so i started poppin pain killers and such just minor ones like vicodin, perkadin, and other stuff. Eventually i started dateing this great guy who was also addicted to pills and besides that problem which i considered minor at the time, he was a great guy had a job, nice car, and planned on going to college. so we dated and eventually we found our true love in a pill called oxycontin. it seemed like it was all we cared about and i know it was all our money went into them. eventually my parents found out and all hell broke loose i got kicked out and now i live with my boyfriend. we both decided to stop doing them and with time and persistance we both slowly weened ourselfs, or else we were going to rehab. things were going good after we quit...we had out lifes back on the right track is what i thought but i found out my bf was doing them behind my back a couple of weeks ago and i have once again started doing them and i cannot stop i dont know what to do anymore... i dont know if im going to be able to get off of them now that im 18 and my parents could give two shits about me...i really need help and i know it i just dont know where to find it....i dont;t know if i should leave my boyfriend i know i could do it i just don't know if i could live without him he is my soulmate..should i check myself into rehab...should i try to get on methadone as an alternative that is what my bf wants to do but then i would worry about getting addicted to that im so lost right now i dont know what to do

 

Well the fact that hes addicted to them too lets you know that he, just like you, have some serious internal issues to deal with. Hopefully you can both work through it together! If you really love each other it won't be a problem to listen to each other. Be strong!

 

Oxycontin is a very serious drug, and I suggest you get help as soon as you can. I've had friends who said it was harder for them to get clean from oxy than heroin. This is most likely not something that you are going to be able to do on your own. Get into a rehab program. I have seen what oxycontin can do to people- i'm not trying to be harsh- get help. I wish you the best of luck. Feel free to PM me any time and I will help you out in any way I can.

 

all i can say is....just get out of the relationship because however great he may seem, he is the one who is bringing you down...he is the one who got you back on drugs.
my ex was a heroin addict...when i first met him he'd smoked it once or twice but nothing serious so i just accepted it. then wen we were going through a rough patch he started injecting it and i didn't find out until after....a long time after. when he finally told me, it hurt more than all the times he cheated on me...it wouldn't have been so bad if he'd let me in and let me help him....

 

No! METHADONE IS MUCH WORSE!!!

i know this sounds a little cliche; have you thought about camping for a bit?

i say that because i find it is a good way to remove societies pressures. you need to do lots of things just to survive. build a fire etc. it can remove many of the factors that subconsciously cause your dependency. allow you to think clearly.

(tip: don't take any drugs with you! not even alchohol. and no music too. just life, existing.)

~

 

Reahab

if your bf cares about you he'll stop doing them with you...and vise versa.

 

Dont chase pill / drug addiction with other addictions. they lead tot he same place. its probably not bout the pills anyways..obviously they are effecting yoru health and judgement and causing you confusion and stress in yoru life and it has to stop. the drugs are probably your usual comfort for dealing with life etc...maybe a control issue...seeing that they bring you comfort with you are "down". But you don't want illusion anymore so you have to get out of your current situation and get yourself help. Nobody will help you but you. and nobody will respect you more in the end but you

 

i had the same problem with coke though- addiction is one of the hardest things to deal with- you and your boyfriend should go to rehab togethor and do it as a team if your soulmates- you have your lives ahead of you...