should I feel sad?

The ex is going out tomorrow on a date for valentines with his new girlfriend. It's been like 3 weeks? Should I be sad? I kinda flipped out a bit today, but then finished off a bottle of wine, and had my mom yell at me for like 2 hours.. And I sort of feel better.

I have no boyfriend, no lover, no anything. And I'm going to be feeling like shit tomorrow knowing that he out fucking his new girlfriend while I'm at the gym slaving my butt, and then probably watching tv for the rest of the night.

Should I be sad or should I say who the fuck cares? He's going to get served papers from my lawyers marshall in a few days. So I know that's going to really make him feel the pain. So anywho.. I know I'm totally obsessed about this, and I keep making these threads. But man I was used and thrown away and I'm PISSED. I'm so better than he is. Why should he get this instant relationship, and I have to work hard at making myself better again, and to get ready to date the kinda guys that I want?

I'll probably be going to bed in a few, and you don't have to bother replying to me. I just want to get it off my chest I guess.

 

ill be your lover if thats what your looking for

 

lol I sort of am, and thanks.

 

you have to think about it this way. Would you rather spend one valentines day alone, or a million with the person who you dont feel true love for.

its probably just jealously anyways. I used to date a girl on and off and whenever we dated i was like meh, but when she got a new guy i would get back with her just cause i couldnt stand letting someone else have her.

its a long road and eventually you will see that he either is or isnt the person you want around you and jade

 

You really are obsessed with him arent you? Obviouslly he is doing well and dosent mind that you guys arent together. Its time to start moving on with things..

 

Yea I know.. it is a big jealousy thing. I don't want him, and I know that I can do a million times better, yet I don't want him with anyone else. But this woman will see soon enough just how much of a loser druggie/alcholic/lowlife that he is. I can't wait to take him for everything he's got. Which is nothing lol.

But yea you're right. It sucks, and I have to look forward to those hundreds of valentines days that I'll get to spend with the love of my life when I eventually find him.

 

I may be assuming here, but the guy is probably attaching himself to a "quick fix" so that it can distract him from something he truly misses.

 

I hope you're right pharmaphunk. And you probably are... Thanks

 

she finished off the wine though lol

 

so what does my drinking wine have to do with this??

I needed something since I've quit pot for awhile. Now I'm drinking water, and then I'm goin to bed.

 

what are you going to do sue him?

 

you were self medicating yourself for a quick fix just like he is looking for a quick fix

 

well we're trying to get full custody, supervised visitation, and child support. So it's sort of like suing I guess... But not really. I guess it's as hard as trying to get divorced these days.

 

i cant remember, is he the father of jade?

i guess so to get child support

 

Yea but at least my self meds won't be going anywhere anytime soon, unlike his old fat hag.

 

yea he already drinks and does coke and shit everyday constantly so hes gotta go fuck some chick for his "quick fix" if that makes sence. i wouldnt say you drink or smoke or do anything for a quick fix. you do it more to relax and take your mind off of things before you go to bed. its always harder to go to sleep sober rather then when your high or had a few drinks in your case now.

 

yes unfortunately.

He'll probably be a dead beat father for the rest of his life too. He owes the irs like 11k, and whenever they catch up to him he lays himself off of his union carpenter job, and works under the table, and collects for the rest of the year. So that's probably what will happen when they try to take money out for the child custody.

He's a loser with no life, no real job, no lisence (suspended) a felony record, drug abuse, alcoholism, and no money. So my lawyer thinks we've got a pretty damn good chance. Especially since he won't be able to afford one of his own.

 

lol "his old fat hag" is she really fat and ugly looking? if she is then that should really give you the hint that hes just doing it for the hell of it. he just needs someone to take his mind off of you for that quick fix thing. if hes going out with some fat ugly chick that hes known for a long time and your worried about it then thats just crazy. i would just laugh at the fact of how much better and younger you are then she is. im sure deep down he didnt want to lose you but theres not much he can do about it can he? so hes taking what he can get as fast as he can LOL.

 

thank you!

Well she's 37, and no skinny minny! And those were his words! I guess once upon a time ago they were supposed to be engaged, and she chickend out and told him that she cheated on him to break things off. Now she's divorced for like the umpteenth time, and obviously desperate if she thinks he's a great catch!

It is a jealousy thing I'm having, and I know that I have absolutely no reason to be jealous of that, but it's hard having "your man" belonging to another woman you know? It sucks.

 

well shes about the right age for him LOL. i know you seem to try to hide your age on here but i was just wondering how old you are. i cant rememeber if ive seen you post it in another thread or not but you dont seem like you older then 25 or so. i know its bad to ask a women their age but i was just curious. seems like i have seen you post it before i just dont remember.