Because I'm afraid that I'm about to make a big mistake I know eveerybody says that there are two voices battling it out in their head but I really have them. I just don't know which one is right. Which one is truly me and which one is my insecurities. He wants to move his stuff here...tommorrow. He's at his apartment getting it all together. It hit me that this is real...and I'm freaking. So the voices fight. "But you love him" "I love who he was 8 years ago, I don't know him" "But he loves you" "Of course he does...he's more fucked up than you" " If it doesn't work you can always break up with him later" "But I know he's not the one NOW" "It has to be something special if ya'll have remained friends for a decade" "Hey, you seen his father...He's probably gonna be bald in a few years" "But he's so sexy" "But he's so selflish" " He has a good heart" "He's stupid" "You need to try love, grow up, stop being scared and see what happens" "Being scared is only thing that has left me standing this long" I'm soul searching. And I can't tell which of these voices is from my gut. I just wanted to share ...none of my friends are up
it sounds... worriesome but it might turn out really well too. sounds like a risk to me. Do you want to be a risk taker?
yeah...kinda he has already been staying here for the last month or so. But he has been going back to his place every fews days (about every 4 or 5). Tonight he said something about getting the rest of his stuff like his stereo and stuff. And I found it hard to breathe so I start thinking how permanent it sounds. And like I said I freaked out
It surely sounds like you aren't ready for him to move in, but the stage has been set and you're not sure how to change the stage. I suggest you sit down with him and talk honestly about where you are at this time as far as feelings for him and tell him exactly the way you feel about this move. If you guys aren't on the same page, you will be miserable. I wasn't even ready for a relationship when I met Rob. Our first "date" was watching videos at my place and basically, he never went back to his place. We've been together for over 9 years now. I love him to death. He's not perfect, but neither am I. I have come to realize life is about relationships and relationships only. It's not about possessions, job status, social status, etc....It's about the people in your life. Do you want this guy to be in your life? If you do, you two should discuss what you lives will be like and what you both want and expect from each other. If you truly do not want him to move in, you need to tell him. Just my two cents. Good luck!!
