Ok, so im 19 and my life is going crazy at the mo. I'm still living at home, was at college doing music when i was 16-18, now ive been trying to get a job full time since summer but havent found anything yet, but im taking a couple of evening classes so at least thats something. I'll probably be going to my local university next year studying media as that is something I take interest in aswell, I am in a band in my area which is probably my biggest passion and probably the main reason im not moving away for uni. Another part of me thinks i'll be greatly missing out if I dont move away for a university course as people make it out as if its the best time of ones life, my friends who are a year below me just started this year and seem to be loving it, if I started at the earliest age, this would be my second year at university. Another thing is I hope if I stay local to university I hope certain idiots from my old school will be there(Didnt have the best of school lifes) as I didnt get along with some certain people. I'm just trying to find a job for now aswell, havent found one yet, trying to get a job in travel as it is something I take great interest in (I want to travel in my 20's, really want to go to the states actually, particularily New York (Im from UK)). One thing that also gets me down is that ive never had a girlfriend and dont feel like theres anyone here for me, another reason why maybe moving away for university may increase my chances of finding someone, but I dunno, one of my friends called me sad for staying local for uni. Im just stressed out with what to do with my life, I hope some people here can give some great advice, thank you all and a merry christmas.
What I can tell you about the school thing, is the grass always seems greener on the other side. Two years ago, I spontaneously applied for a program id never truly considered before, at a school in a town I didnt even research, because it seemed like that was the thing that was making everyone happy. I just dropped out two weeks ago. And Im so so happy. I think I really learned that I cant be jealous of someone else' experience because I know what is making me happy, and what I like. So dont feel pressured to do something just because of others. Howvever if you do, thats cool, cause I always have to try out things personally before I understand.
school scares me, i know i can be that stressed out guy who eventually doesnt care anymore and you stay around to hang out, i want to do something i really enjoy, like music, travel, cultural studies, cooking, snowboarding but i doubt i can get taught anything that i dont know already in snowboarding unless its tricks, maybe ill just travel around with a guitar and write songs that are really recipies from the land im in, and try to find places to snowboard such as japan or chili
everyone i know is stressed about life right now, hell, my and my family lost our house, living with my parents, i just finally got a job, and my husband got a letter in the mail saying that hes going to lose his liscence AGAIN and i dont have mine still. you just have to keep your head up and fuck everything, just see the positive side, and make the best of it!
