That was too much and now I feel terrible :(

Discussion in 'Relationships' started by MuchaGanja, Jun 26, 2009.

  1. MuchaGanja

    MuchaGanja Member

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    She barely texts me and I am madly obssesed in love with her. She lives across the country and i met her on myspace two years ago. We have never met. I am so deeply in love with her, and she used to be, but just kind of forgot about me. (Im almost 17, shes 18 and going off to college I live in CA, she lives in VA) she wanted to start talking to me, but i got excited and tried to talk to her too much. I am so confused. She has caused me so much pain and sadness, I'm starting to cry as I'm writing this. I can't move on, she is just so beautiful and I want her more than anything right now. She's always busy with friends and doesn't realize how lonely a person I am. I've been living in the past for the past 6 months of how for a brief period of time we would always talk, and that connection still lives on in me, and I can't forget her. No matter how many people tell me I have to, or how much I want to, I just can't forget her. I wanted to see her so badly this summer, but I don't think its going to work. I'm going to europe for a big chunk of time, and shes going of too college. I added her on facebook, and let me tell you, this was not a good idea at all. I deleted her a while ago cause I couldn't take it anymore. I was stalking her page, and couldn't stop staring at her beautiful face. but I just couldn't stand seeing her being tagged in photo after photo with so many friends, while I sat in my room everyday completely lonely and miserable. It was too much. I would feel like utter shit evertime she updated her status or such and was online, but didn't talk to me, or respond to my message. So i deleted her. then she added me, and then again, but i ignored both times, because i didn't want to relive the pain. Now i've just been texting her... every other day, every two days.... I just want to talk to her... And today I added her on facebook. I knew it would be overwhelming. And it was. It was too much. I compulsively looked at all her photos, and just felt like total shit. She is so beautiful, and she has so many friends, that I don't see why she'd even be the least bit interested in me. All the comments she gets... All the pictures of her at parties.. It was just too much, and after seeing that I just wanted to crawl up in a corner and die. She brings out the worst in me. I'm not a creep, but I can't help but stalk her online, and obsess over how pretty she is. This is why I deleted her facebook in the first place. Worst off all, I saw an old status of hers that said shes going somewhere over the summer, and it looks very likely like i won't see her this summer. And that's what kills me. I've been waiting two years. I can't wait another year. She hasn't said anything about it, even tho she said she would visit me long ago. As heartbroken as I am right now, I still want to do nothing but talk to her, but I can't just talk to her, or text her, cuz I've already over done that, and I've probably already come off as too clingy. I just can't move on, she is the one I want.. I feel so crappy right, and I just want to cry.
     
  2. DazedGypsy

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    man..
    sorry you're hurting so much right now. :(
     
  3. Spunkey

    Spunkey Member

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    Sounds like you have issues...
     
  4. VaporDude

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    yea there are other girls
     
  5. ghostkitty

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    yeah i'm sorry that you feel so hurt and probably empty right now, but from the sound of your post i'm sorry to say, it does seem like you may have gotten a little clingy. i think you are doing what is best and just trying to back off a bit. not looking at her facebook page for a while is probably a good idea to give yourself time to put this all in perspective. let her know how you feel, just one time, not everyday, and back off. give her time to think about you a little without being in her face and maybe she will start to miss you.
     
  6. Duck

    Duck quack. Lifetime Supporter

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    Other fish in the sea - I suggest looking in your particular part of that sea.

    You haven't even met this person. There is no real chemistry between you, only that which your brain has created. You want love, that is clear. But instead of trying to force it from a girl who is uninterested, you should learn to find it in yourself.
    My advice is to get away from the computer, and just make yourself happy. Take up a new hobby, or get back to an old one. Read some books or watch some movies you haven't gotten around to. Just spend some time getting to know yourself, and getting to like yourself.
     
  7. natural philosophy

    natural philosophy bitchass sexual chocolate

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    needy

    i almost feel sorry for the chick
     
  8. Duck

    Duck quack. Lifetime Supporter

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    I do.

    But I feel sorry for him too.
     
  9. stacy lulu

    stacy lulu yeeeaah buddy

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    guys this has been going on for years with him and this girl. he cant get the hint that shes not interested
     
  10. natural philosophy

    natural philosophy bitchass sexual chocolate

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    o wait...OP is a guy? i thought OP was a female?
     
  11. stacy lulu

    stacy lulu yeeeaah buddy

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    he might as well be
     
  12. Duck

    Duck quack. Lifetime Supporter

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    Hey, I know plenty of females who are in check with their emotions, and use reasoning; give you're gender some credit.
     
  13. stacy lulu

    stacy lulu yeeeaah buddy

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    hes worse than a female...hes been stuck on this internet girl for years, since i been here and that was in 06. goddamn
     
  14. Duck

    Duck quack. Lifetime Supporter

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    you didn't respond to what I said, so I'm not giving this a worthy response either, know this.
     
  15. stacy lulu

    stacy lulu yeeeaah buddy

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    yeah i totally ignored your statement lol I tend to do that to a lot of people. Im saying hes embarrassing the female race. females can get over this faster than he can

    grow a pair, kid.
     
  16. moon_flower

    moon_flower Banned

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    Then wouldn't he be embarassing the male sex?
     
  17. MuchaGanja

    MuchaGanja Member

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    once again stacy. fuck you
     
  18. neodude1212

    neodude1212 Senior Member

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    holy shit are you really 26?
     
  19. stacy lulu

    stacy lulu yeeeaah buddy

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    Get over yourself and I wont have to ;)
     
  20. stacy lulu

    stacy lulu yeeeaah buddy

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    Idc. He needs to grow up
     

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