Today I wake up after a night of tripping. Last night I did shrooms for the first time in my life. The experience wasn't that enlightening, it was more fun, different than anything else. We took the shrooms like at 9 pm at a friends house. Right away we left to cruise around the city. I was in the back of a car.. hmm I dunno the word in english for that, "camioneta". I can't remember, but it was this kind of vehicles, that have the back open.. so we got in there, sat there, and look at the sky, and all the city lights, staring at what we were leaving behind. I didn't have a lot of visuals, only with the lights, I saw shapes in the lights. We got into a really incomprehensive state, I mean our conversations, they made sense to us, we understood each other, we know what everyone meant, but it was really hard to follow. The whole night we were... like they say in waking life, don't remember if this is the exact quote, but in a "constant state of arriving but always departing" that was our night. I mean we got to a place, and we were like ok let's go, and then we just got here, yeah but we got here so we could leave,and it went on and on. We were living like a deja vu, with the arriving and departing thing. I mean we went to a place so we could go and we would go so we could come back.And there was a moment like the night was repeating itself, and I felt like we were in a hole trough time. I also kept thinking they are giving me time. Another of the toughts that got into my head is that we were gonna keep doing the same thing for the rest of our lives because of our innability to communicate at certain times, I mean like I say something but the idea changed before it reached everybody's ears. We couldn't stop laughing.. laughter was controlling us, we couldn't stop. We were like.. I don't want to laugh anymore, plz, but we couldn't stop. Like at times we got really quiet thinking that our high came down, so we would start talking really normal, all serious and suddenly we would start laughing, like it was taking control over us. And we were like.. no .. not again. We had to split so the high would actually come down.. because as long as we were together it was still there, it was like the energy colliding between us. We were tripping hard like from 9 to almost 2 am. When I got home and got inside my bed, I was having this weird fantasies that I created, I mean I knew they were created by me, but they felt real. And then I was like I forgot to close my eyes, during my trip I forgot to close my eyes, like I was to aware of what was going around me, that I felt like I would miss something. So no close-eyed visuals for me. It felt great, the wind on my face, staring at lights, how imagination grows, moving your arms, like waving them, I had tons of fun doing that. There was this moment that I tought I was like a women from India, or Thailand, doing one of those dances, they do like they move their arms in that wavy way. I aslo found this cord and I was playing with it, it was incredibly entertaining. Mushrooms released a part of me.
wow, it was so weird for me to read this. This was such a long time ago. "Mushrooms released a part of me", I like that.
Haha thats a great first time, its sounds exactly like something I would do when its nice out and I'm estactic. I asseme you were estactic too haha. Woza!
I'm sure I was very ecstatic too. I still cant believe that was 3 years ago, feels like it wasnt that long, but when I read it, I felt so distant from that person who wrote that.
Is that feeling a good one or a bad one? If you feel your life has gotten worse, then somethings gotta change cuz every year of life should be better as long as you live. If its a good one, then keep doin what you been doin for it is working out haha
No, I dont feel my life has gotten worse, is just different, I dont know really. When I was 18, I was a very idealistic, optimistic, so innocent and bubbly person, but then I got kinda crazy and some of that faded a little, but I've learned a lot about myself and life and maybe I could have learned it a different way, but overall I still like me as a person. My life is just life and it keeps going.
