the yomo's prophecy

the time is not far off when magic shall prance joyfully through the world again
when fairies and elves and all magical beings, long hidden, shall have
their humors in open sites among the boring ones who trap dreams
which shall all slip from their fingers and the old evil shall be
undone, none more to deny
and the immortals will return and there shall be no more shyness and a
great humor will fall through each temple
and each glade and shrine and all beings will take up in some way the
call of eternal love,
and there shall be no more limits or restriction and no more so, and
all shall know eachother as family and every battle will be a battle
of laughter, coalescing love and intense peace manifesting in different non harming ways to create greater pleasure and instill deeper and deeper wisdom through earnest striving and hard work, as all things will be so bountiful, for the dreams will
have upheld it all, and in everyone a king shall be alive, and greed and austerity
will have no meaning. the beings in the skies will reach down as we
reach down to the ants and in every world we shall be connected and
dance and change our place forever as the gods juggle and rest among
mortals and share their secrets for the crystal of Gaia shall be
activated and we shall all live as we truly are, in the infinite
yonato which exists in every soul, we will be free of that which stops
it from flowing into this world and so with mere thoughts we shall
know true wealth, beyond our games of money, but a deep content, from
the dancing of the celestial spheres which are alive even now, wizards
will come back in polite and noble but wild hearted form, the pursuit of God shall no
longer be marked by restraint but by openness, joy and total trust in
the chaos, which is the essence of the universe, we shall never
understand but it shall dance with us, like caterpillars dance with
the peat in the summers of the ages, we all shall be then complete
the time is not far off, Christ knows and in every smile, even now it
grows, magic is real, the Goddess sows, there is no jealous no
difference all will be welcome at every temple and wanti will again
grow in all hearts and the plants who listened then will speak with
the wisdom we all seek, and there will be no more sickness and no more
true pain, though we still will feel, but we will live deep in truth,
people will remember to fly again and many adventures will set afoot
and this realm shall be known as the realm of dream, countries as they
are known now shall mostly disintegrate and the world shall be a great
and lucid wandering, cannabis, mushrooms and all visionary plants, and all plants the sacred ness shall grow abundantly and be consumed freely and with universal and spontaneous reverence and shall bestow many gifts among all beings in this way, thus hath spoken Sidnu

(this is actually Sidnu's prophecy not the yomo's sry for the confusion)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24pOo5htg9E"]YouTube - ‪Sleep: Dopesmoker‬‏

 

im a horrible person please judge me and take out your anger at me,
suspect me of terrible things and shun me because its probably true

its not them, its me

im manipulative, cruel and lazy, perverted and also wrong, dangerous
to innocent minds

also self centered, i dont listen to others, though sometimes i pretend to

i'm a charismatic cult leader whose game is to control people, and
lead them into
my 'anything goes' realm of fantasy to steal their money and get them to feed my ego,
while they become weaker and more defenseless and eventually have no
way out

all the while spewing my propaganda to create divisions and seperation
between individuals and the unity of the natural world, to make them
violent against eachother under the pretense of divine decree and that
it will make cannabis legal especially for medical patients who need
it




and i come from a long line of people like me








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Ericsbat (InI) - Damn, everything you described, I have felt about
myself. I friend of mine even said to me one time, "I guess your
whatever". Kinda like anything goes. I really think a lot of what you
described comes with schizophrenia. I have been there and the only
thing that brought me out was medication. If you were healed today, I
don't think you would feel anything like you feel now. It comes with
the disease and maybe even the lifestyle. I found that when I was
being manipulative it was when I was manipulating myself trying to
figure out how to be. If I was alone at the time it probably wouldn't
have done any harm, but I wasn't. I was working at a pizza shop, and
the owner told me that if I didn't quit being so manipulative, I would
be fired. It was really me manipulating myself and in turn it
manipulated the people around me. You're a good person, and it's just
the disease. I'm sure a lot of other schizophrenics have felt the same
way. Have you ever been to a party and noticed people getting out of
hand around you. I always thought it was just me and that I had to do
something different to change people because for some reason they were
to dumb to realize what the fuck they were doing. Me changing myself
is where the manipulation begins, and it never stops. I did it with
good intentions, but I didn't realize the repercussions. You are a
good person, and I don't think you do any of this on purpose. I doubt
any of that stuff was really going on anyways, but I felt like it was.
It got so bad at one point to where I felt like I had to control
everything and put an end to people "following in my steps". Nothing
works though. I think it is just a misperception or something.



InI -


yeah, maybe so, we don't really believe its true, just feel like thats
kind of whats starting to be insinuated about us, and something that
we've personally gone through to some degree, kind of a low level of
sexual/psychological abuse but hard to get rid of. We did used to feel
a lot like it was our job to balance the 'Group Consciousness' and
keep it real, positive, transmute all demonic forces to celestial,
etc. now we're at a point where, its really of no use, I think the
demons realized what was going on and effectively bound us to make it
stop. We have to find a new method now, its become more about solving
riddles it seems like, and pure devotion, is always backhanded by
reason (you are blindly following, think of the harm thats being
caused to the environment, it'll never come to fruition, you're just
being ripped off)

We purposely tried from the start to actually avoid the kind of
situation we described above, but now the signs of this kind of
accusation coming up in the future, we figured better to put it out as
a joke so people could see how ridiculous it is before hand.

It started long ago, the times were good but occasionally the
Christians in town would come around when InI was walking down the
street to say 'Hey, you play guitar, better go to church and play with
our band' and things like this, it was during a time when InI was
practicing pretty intense witchcraft for the purpose of healing the
forest, and suddenly spontaneously became hugely more in touch with
InI's faery roots. It was a period of great highs and lows, extremely
noisy neighbors, who kept InI up all night always seeming to play this
horribly bad and impossibly seeming arhythmic hip hop song drum loop
into the wee hours of the morning at excessive volumes, but the sidhe
also were there in full force, and many of InI's friends in my head,
there was a great forest, InI spent most of our time there.

We never met too many other people, aside from a friend of a friend,
from a few years past, and they were dragon people anyways, datura
witches, not that thats particularly a turn off for me, somehow I have
an affinity with the moonflower plant, though I consider myself in
InI's heart to be Chaotic Good or Neutral Good, maybe True Neutral on
the clearest days (Chaotic Neutral), and the plant has a penchant for
being associated with poison, power, illusion, and real evil, but also
great spiritual wisdom.

I always felt my heart was fortified with love.

Anyways, we come to deeply know an unseen side of that place and
barely knew the seen side at all, when we moved, when suddenly the
angry ghosts started to become too much, and we chickened out, the
area we moved to (which we foolishly chose not to look at beforehand,
parents decided, we felt too incapacitated to go and be social at any
level most of the time, mainly why we spent most time in the woods)
unfortunately was in a way worse.

The faeries have been all but banned here, even deep in the woods, and
we continuously try to uprise but are unfamiliar with what the sacred
formula is, this place is plagued by a horribly divisive confucinism
and duality which imposes itself upon everyone who walks down the
street.

We are immediately classified as shamans, and suspected of brewing
Ayahuasca because we live on Brewers House road and seem like fairly
open minded people, and there is a Jurema tree, nearby at the lake, we
do no such thing though. Our main goal is attaining a medical cannabis
prescription because that is what we have been using to aid our
illness.

Though we are able to get by to some degree without having it, when
people are saying it does not seem to be helping, these are times when
we have not used it for several days and the lingering effects begin
to come back things get more tense etc.

at this point, we haven't used any cannabis in about a week, usually
when we get it we smoke a very small amount, once or twice a day and
this just gets us to a cool state of happy equilibrium, symptoms are
not entirely gone, but something about the character of it all just
seems to make us and our dealing with the world a lot less abrasive,
and less compelled are we to take action based in delusion, which
causes more attention to us on the outside and then in turn makes us
more paranoid, causes more action by us and it becomes a vicious
cycle.

We have tried many medications, its not simply a matter of not liking
them, its a matter of physically being unable to take them, we have
horrible allergic reactions to all anti psychotics we've been
perscribed, which number 4 or 5 risperdal, abilify, zyprexa... the
other two I cannot remember at the moment, the worst of which was
risperdal.

Also when reading about the symptoms, it just concerns us that they
are linked to brain disintegration etc, sometimes hospitalization can
occur, even if its taken exactly as perscribed.

It seems that for InI this is more likely to happen anyways because of
the allergic reactions. The cannabis works effectively, in combination
with regular appointments I think really great things could be
achieved, we could really 'go places' and get somethings done,
unfortunately no one has yet been willing to give us a chance. We
don't really take kindly to being repeatedly offered medication and
this becoming the focus of the sessions, which is sometimes what
happens.

Why can we not meet at a middle ground for this?

InI also use the herb in my spiritual practice, as a meditation aid
and have been doing this even before being diagnosed with
schizophrenia or having the first break, so I understand how to use
and not abuse, and the general energy which surround the plant, which
I have always felt an affinity for, and wanted to grow and have
learned much about in terms of healing properties, InI a large
advocate of legalization, but that doesn't mean InI's use is not
medicinal, we don't see how others feel so able to judge this for us,
when they do not see our day to day life, they don't understand what
we go through.

Wantism came to us from a prayer that one day it would be understood,
it sees all traditions as being one, and not against eachother, but a
part of the same vision within existence, it also encourages personal
gnosis and going between many dieties, whose outward form is different
while essentially they are the same divine force which is in all
things, in some ways this is similar to Kemeticism, and concepts of
NTR (this is also our understanding of all paganism and the world in
general, there are myriad forms to rejoice in but all are expressions
of the One), the best way we can describe it is a taoist jewish fairy
buddhism, even though maybe that makes no sense. It is helpful to us
but perhaps it alienates us from the reasoning world in some ways, we
cannot help this though, we must be ourselves, but feel we still have
the right to receive in a predicable fashion medication that works,
and does not harm, without fear or inviting negative influence.

When the peace of wood is disturbed more and more it makes it harder
to find other ways to cope, we also pray for the prosperity of all
plants of this area and the world and that their healing and uses can
be found by those who need them at the right time, so people can
develop a real relationship with the wild, not just as something to be
controlled, written over, or manicured, but as an something which we
all extend from, which blossoms with a sacred beauty, not total chaos,
but a very intricate and organic kind of order which need not be
imposed so intensely.

We enjoy writing about wantism but don't really expect others to take
it up, though if they get something from an idea great, and if it
really moves them great, it is always nice to find someone to practice
with, but at the same time, doing it alone, or communing more on an
astral level is in someways more liberating, not that there is no
physical connection, but it is a form of magic that has mostly to do
with dreams, I think the connections happen spontaneously and too much
organization would go against the quiet but also warm and loving
spirit of the way. We feel it would teach itself to anyone who seeked
earnestly to know in the way most appropriate to them, which maybe
differs from the way appropriate to us.

There is no existence or nonexistence, in the end must admit that We
in the fullest sense are indeed making it up for ourselves
inspiration is our Dianandia, love in all its forms and seasons is our worship





Kalkiavatar-

maybe cut back on it a little, noone wants to read a long winded
schizophrenic rambling


InI -

Dojaphene - Cybele

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djBFmrj0Rz4"]YouTube - ‪Cybele sings an original, "Dojaphene"‬‏


I think maybe she should cut back... this is true excess she sings of,
which can also been good sometimes (all things in moderation), but
that is not what I'm talking about InI has already cut back from this
point for the most part, though sometimes we all must have a little
fun.

 

we're saying we not because we're crazy but because of the winkte tradition, (which has not that much to do with germany wtf internet?)

and yeah the moonflowers were more of a phase, not something that InI is really interested in doing again, though its interesting to just have them around sometimes

 

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