Thoughts on my life.....

So, I've been having a lot of thoughts on my life recently.

First, I think I'm going to stop smoking weed. I'm an honors student in all subjects at my Highschool. I've been getting B's and C's in English 2C and Chemistry, respectively. But, i used to be a straight 4.0 student all the way up until 9th grade. Looking back, the only thing I've changed is smoking. Also, it creates tension between me and my friends. It seems all they care about is smoking weed nowadays. Everytime we go to eachother's houses, we always smoke. We've been bestfriends for many years, but now all we do is smoke. That's not right. Just yesterday my friends left my house and went to theirs when i told them that I smoked all my weed.

Also, I'm having regrets on my choice of where I live. I lived with my mom until I was 15. I moved in with my Dad shortly after my birthday. Some changes I noticed in myself where, once-again 4.0 grades, but not without a price. If i had anything below an A-, my dad took away my cell phone, computer, and TV. I thought this was very harsh. But, the real problem was that my dad reduced me to tears at least twice a month. After about 10 months of living with him, I moved back with my mom once my stepmom choked me for asking her to park the car outside.

I have high expectations of myself, but now that I live with my mom, I notice I procrastinate a LOT more. So, I'm thinking of moving back with my father and put up with his torment, for the sake of my future.

Any thoughts?

 

I think you should do whats right for you. We don't know you and therefore can't give the best advice possible.

 

In all honesty, you sound like a drama queen.

Weed isn't your problem, you're your problem. Fucking don't put yourself through getting choked and being harshly (though losing luxeries isn't too harsh) punished...just do your work and quit being a lazy fuck.

It just pisses me off when people talk about how weed made them lazy, weed this weed that...no, you fucking let weed be used as an excuse to why you're lazy. I have a 4.4...I've had the same grades since I started getting grades.

Either be happy getting Bs and Cs every now and then, or fucking get As...you can do it, don't blame it on other shit.

Quit weed if you want, don't if you don't...but don't fucking blame problems on other things.

I'm sorry I ranted, but it relates to exactly what I was discussing earlier, and now I feel passionate about it.

But at the same time, don't be so hard on yourself...chemistry is a hard class...everyone's grades drop a bit in high school (except for the exceptional)...any retard can get straight As in 8th grade...but in high school, it may actually take effort.

 

You need to do what you want to do, but I think it would be much healthier, and much much better for personal growth to take responsibility for your own discipline instead of shifting it to your father. dont put yourself in an environment where sucess is demanded, for the drive for real success can only come from within yourself.

use the desire to acheive something real to fuel your grades, not the desire to 'make the grade'.

marks are only the key to options. dont get marks to get options, get marks to get THE option that YOU want.

you wont be any happier with good marks if the emotive drive to get them is anxiety. it needs to be passion.

thats my oppinion.

 

Thanks for the responses.

Stoner Bill, you are completely right. 40oz and Chronic was telling me how smart you were.

 

lol

 

i used to be kinda in the same boat..but to be honest it's not smoking thats doing it to you, it's just yourself, if you have any maturity at all u should be able to balance your life better so that weed doesnt effect it to the point where u think it does.

and getting 4.0 grades up until 9th grade to be honest, isnt much of an achievement, even without the grass u werent bound to maintain that average

most likely u arent going to just quit cold turkey, u know u like smoking weed and u know u like what it does to you, so eventually even if u are your going to quit, u will smoke eventually, so really it seems like a better plan to just cool down on the smoking and focus more on school.

some people have it in them to smoke, drink, and do whatever the hell they want and still get straight A's [i know a very close friend who was like this, guy smoked weed and drank ever single weekend, shrooms etc. and he got into a university with a 3.8 average]

BUT this is very rare, so just keep your standards high and dont slip and continue smoking if u like

 

It sounds as though you are going through something that I went through recently. I think it might be a good a idea to possibly take a break from smoking and then get your life back to the place that you want it at. Then slowly ease back into smoking. Also, don't blame weed for your problems, weed may have been a good excuse to fall back on but in the end the only people we can blame for our problems is ourselves, because ultimately we are responsible for our choice. So now it is up to you to make that choice to further yourself in life and try and live up to the standards that you set for yourself.

In terms of living with your father again, I wouldn't recomend it. If you want more strict rules regarding your academic progress, simply talk to your mom about it and tell her that you have noticed yourself slipping in you really need to have her stop being so lax on you. Also, if you do go back to live with your father you will be trying to live up to his, possibly unachievable, expectations. So, if you do fail you will feel horrible because you will feel as though you failed him and yourself. However, if you do succeed you won't feel the same satisfaction as you normally would have because you sort of did it for your dad and not for yourself. If you go back to living with him you will be in a place that you may feel demands perfection. But I would rather have you follow this quote:

Don't try to be perfect,
Try to be better.

That's all you really need to do is to try. But the most important thing of all is your desire to change, because if your choices towards change are not strong then you shall fail. This is because people are creatures of habit, and if you don't really want to change you will not be able to stop yourself from falling back into the habits that you were hoping to get away from.

 

^^ that was beautiful bro
i shed a tear

 

in all honesty, you sound like a douchebag.

mary jane is a motivation killer, anybody knows that. if you smoke enough ganja, you are going to not want to do much, especially if you don't have much ambition in the first place. my roommate is a perfect example. he is a really cool guy and all, but i kind of got him smoking a whole bunch at the beginning of the school year and we have been smoking heavily since then, and now he has flunked out of both semesters, not even going to class.

the only word of honesty is hidden in the last paragraph... and even then it is quite sarcastic. quit being so abusive to random people, please! oh, and a 4.4 is pretty much impossible on a grade scale of 0-4, jackass. you can't get higher than an A.

 

actually not to mess up your rant but there are schools which have scales that go up to 5.0. There are also many schools, usually high schools, that have honors and AP classes which count as extra credit. Therefore it is possible to get over a 4.0 on a 4.0 scale.

BTW

Thanx wonderboy

 

that is only if you work to acheive the sucess your environment demands. the point of my post was that enviromental demands are only substitutes for internal demands. you only need someone else to tell you to do something if you cant tell yourself to do it.

an environment that demands high sucess wont result in high sucess necessarily, but if you did acheive the sucess demanded by your environment, whos sucess is it? your success.. or your environment's success?

no great person ever has succeeded by living up to their environment. they are all people who said 'no, the environment's expectations are not the right ones' and that is the only way the world has progressed in knowlege, philosophy, and art. everyone else has simply fueled the system that is already there.

not everyone can further the world, but only the people who want to, can. that means self motivation.

the OPTIMUM situation would be to live in both worlds, but he cant, and that is what the choice is between - self success (which is risky and harder and higher chance of failing) or success set by other people (which is much much easier to abide by, but which does not end up acheiving something that has not been acheived before)

 

Wow you got good grades in public school... but I doubt ur gunna get into a university with good public school grades

 

Dude, obviously, cannabis is the root of his current interscholastic problems if you would carefully read and analyze his post. It is a fact that marijuana can consume an individual, similar to any other drug, and interfere with important aspects of every day life (in this case, his grades). Perhaps his routine of getting high is causing him to lose focus on his grades because he enjoys it so much. Who the fuck are you to tell him what is/is not causing his problems? I know many, many, many people who have become lazy through the act of getting high, simply because it becomes their primary focus. Next time you want to chastise someone, get to know them and understand their problems instead of jumping to conclusions, dipshit.

 

i think youre underestimating other people's potential.

there is NO definate 'will do well'. there is no guarantee that youwill do well if youre asked to do well, or not do well if other people arent asking youto do well.

perhaps you dont have it, but some people have passion and it gets them to do things that other people might have thought were a waste of time.
thats what they would have said to gallileo for example. i doubt HE got explicit motivation!

but thats a bit of a bigger scale. as for higschool, take for example, the kids whos parents butcher them to work better and all that happens is they crack under teh stress? never heard of that? or the kids whos parents are dumb and send their kid off to a public school and the kid happens to love reading, and through his own initiative, reads more books than all the other kids.

this is not the stuff of movies with little girls who have psychic powers.

jsut because it has an IMPACT on our success doesnt mean it DEFINES our success.

you can always have a bigger impact come from personal desire and self discipline.

 

Ehm, I saw some quite opposid opinions of people here, so I'll give mine.

Weed can be demotivating. But its still not the drugs fault, its in the person. Most of the people I know smoke weed and I see great differences between the different people doing that, some are doing great on school or doing great on university and smoke loads, others are selling their furniture for that last bit of weed without any form of degree. But.. often you see its more on the kind of person they are. Weed doesn't demotivate enough to make you not do anything. Simply because you realise you have to do stuff.
Well you realised that while stoned I assume, so that means the drug didn't have at all that influence and that its basically just you slipping away in that life-style.

On my personal situation; I've been getting better marks since I smoked (we have a system going from 1 to 10 here with anything about 5.5 being ok), I recently only have been getting 8's and 9's while I got kicked of school in a year I didn't smoke that, and that had nothing to do with the weed.

I'm not saying it helped me, not at all, but it deffinatly doesn't HAVE to be the reason.

Now about that father thing; I wouldn't go back to something that hurts you even if its better, just talk about it with your mum, it can be quite demotivating if you can't keep up with what someone asks of you. Cutting down a bit can also help, and maybe talk to you friends about it?

 

the way i see it, weed just makes it easier to be lazy.