well. i had this big ol upset emotional outburst the other day it was horrible, and since then nothing has been the same, i felt ashamed cause i have been doing so well, on my path to enlightenment and everything has been awsome, but now, i cant even focus on my yoga, or meditation or anything, its like im not centered!! do u guys think its because of what has happend? and do u guys think maybe a fast would help? i need something, i cant live feeling like this..
God will deliberately make you angry sometimes. You just need to realise you can do nothing about it, focus your anger on God, and realise the humor of the situation. Then you would smile.
I saw you for the second time in the forums a couple days ago. I saw that you posted on a hip gallery, and I think I saw you something about you let's say something one week before, that's all I have , I also know I thought about roses when I saw you here for the second time I really don't know what happened to you that was so horrible the other day, I feel sorry about that for you, it is sad if others are sad I think if what happened to you is fresh (let's say a week or something), and you think you cannot focus because of that(obsiously you have noticed before was different than after, then what happened is bad and sad. (I would say it could be true for the exact opposite like an extreme increase in your happiness) I could tell you that actually you don't have to practice anything and still be true Start by watching what you are thinking again then come down about that because I don't think it is unremovable, it will pass, time, existence does it works over you, you learn Be sure that you are loved, take strong refuges, those will make existence true for you, trust yourself now, for the other things, those that are not so bad Watch what you are thinking Something I always like to do is try to vary a lot in how I think about that, try to vary the thought that you take to react at something happening to you (may it be an event or a person) because it helps to take distance with yourself, it helps to not repeat yourself in 'actions' and 'reactions'. Both are seperated by yourself, you have always been free. Try to have a thought take an action, try to have the opposite thought about it take an action, vary, be a change, move yourself It could also be dangerous, time pass, you learn ... and watch what you are thinking. Focus on it also, I mean try to not be thinking at more than one thing, it makes it much more complicated than it is. This will help to vary, when you do it, just know you are doing it, assume the rest is not important Peace (don't forget to be proud on the way, it makes things happier)
emotional outburst sounds like it must have touched a sensitive spot. It happens from time to time and can be an opportunity to understand yourself. examine it, look at yourself and the circumstances surrounding the event. learn from it and you will become stronger through the process. It is not necessarily a negative thing. Better to be in touch with your emotions than repress them. They are an important part of who you are, and a good indication of where you are in relation to your surroundings.
A student went to his meditation teacher and said, "My meditation is horrible! I feel so distracted, or my legs ache, or I'm constantly falling asleep. It's just horrible!" "It will pass," the teacher said matter-of-factly. A week later, the student came back to his teacher. "My meditation is wonderful! I feel so aware, so peaceful, so alive! It's just wonderful!" "It will pass," the teacher replied matter-of-factly. Not sure how much that helped, its just a zen story i got from a website. I'm sure this just a temporary thing and "will pass", don't get too caught up in it.
thank you guys, it has passed and im starting to feel more at peace with myself, and i am able to meditate again. i was terribly depressed and sucidel, but i pulled through, because something in me told me to. i feel that I can really learn from this, i am learning to control my emotions more, and myself. i am starting to know myself more, i think that this whole experience has actually been good for me. thank you for all your wonderful advice and support! namaste
shame is kind of a circular thing. i too feel unhappy when i cause the unhappiness of others. i do not know that this can or should be avoided if by doing so, a greater unhappiness can later be spared. of course we can always misjudge. it bennifits nothing to condem ourselves for lacking infallable perfection. only to seek always to find ways to reduce the causing of suffering. this does not (that i can see) exclude our own. only the putting self ahead of an other. or of what surrounds us all. i am not saying this as a knowledge of budhism that i do not possess, only as an observation i perceive to be rational =^^= .../\...
