Unreal realizations and my time spent with sunshine

A little over a year ago, my buddy told me he could get acid, I've heard a lot about it, and everyone told me in one word about acid: "awesome". I didn't know what to expect, well, I took three tabs and I waited, I started smoking some weed, and then I saw something I thought I'd never see, woodgrains spiraling off a table and floating in the air. I couldn't believe it. Me and my friends decided to go for a walk. One part of that day will stick in my mind forever, and changed me forever, for the better. I'm sitting on a library bench outside, and I'm watching cars drive by, I started talking saying "I'd give anything to be this person, or this person, or anyone of these people for a fucking SECOND, look man, they're doing something with their lives, making decent money, enough to gas up their car, pay for insurance, you know what? I've been thinking. That's the problem, I haven't been doing enough of the things I want to do. I'm gonna get my lisence, a better paying job, and a car or truck. I'm gonna start doing everythign I say and mean everything I say from here on in". So I walked to the driving school and they were closed, thank god. I was in the most beautiful mindset ever, I felt like I had to do something, so I said "I'm gonna go buy a hat", and to this day I haven't gone one day without wearing the hat I bought while tripping on LSD. It made me look at the world a helluva lot different. I'm not lying when I say, acid changed my life. Never in my life have I felt free, never in my life have I been able to ... "let go" like that.

And after that I did acid here and there and had a fucking blast, but somehow I got mentally addicted to it, I wanted every trip to be like the first one, I wanted my life to change each time I dropped. That wasn't the case. Instead I went on a downhill path so to speak one day when I dropped 2 tabs and kept all my thoughts to myself. That was my only bad trip I ever had, and it haunted me for months, I started doing OCs, coke, and heroin just to get my mind off it. But some how, I overcame whatever it was that haunted me, I just told myself "shit happens, take it as a lesson learned".

and then, on Saturday I dropped four tabs of powerful acid along with a roll...I wasn't prepared for it, I had a lot on my mind about my car insurance, and to be frank, I didn't trip on acid. I was fucked up on acid. I couldn't talk, I couldn't walk, music just sent me to the floor, it swarmed around my soul and something told me that day I was going to refuse language and embrace noise. So I sat in my car all day watching the clouds go by, watching bushes turn into alligators, I couldn't walk or do anything, I was dumbfounded. That was the only time I ever yelled "I don't want to be on drugs anymore".

So all in all, acid really did change my life, I never looked at the world in the way I did the first time I dropped. I loved it. A part of me wishes I only did it once and just longed for it the rest of my life. But I live life for experiences, and acid was one hell of an experience, maybe I'll and drop it again one day down the road, but it fucked with my head waaaay too much. The day I feel like I can let go, I'll do it again, but I gotta go all out with the tye dye shirts and all that jazz, ya know?

If any one replies, I'd be interested in what you have to say.

-Pat

 

but if the thunder don't get ya, then the lightning will.

 

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Yeah acid and psychedelic drugs can definitely change you and I think in most cases they can help you. Of course, they can probably destroy you if abused, like anything else, as you mentioned when you said you had a bad trip.

I'm addicted to tripping.. and I don't know if thats good or bad or okay. I just know anything in excess is not good, anything in moderation is fine.

Interesting story you have though.. I enjoyed reading your experiences.

 

yea reading what u had to say was very interesting. and I realized me and u and have some things in common about how we feel with acid. my first time dropping acid was beautiful. I loved it. i loved everything and everyone. like you, ive never been able to let go like that either. I danced everywhere. me and my friend who was tripping withe me, we went to the forest with some friends and it was the funnest time ive ever had. I cant wait to trip again. it expanded my mind for sure. haha peace~