Well guys, watsup, I have had a very weird life ever since my shroom trip, I admit there are some very very good things that came to my life and some not so good. I feel like all of my senses are more powerful. I feel like I am starting to sense a realm that most people don't believe in. I feel like my mind has gotten a supercharge of power, like some sort of supernatural gift from God. So I have come to the conclusion, that as a result of smashing my head into the snow @ 50 mph, and taking so much lsd, that my brain is completely different now, and I am a new person. My friend told me weird stuff happens when trippers hit their spinal chord. I really really miss my old self, but thats how I have always been I would really just like one way of things and stick to that way. So in a way, its like all of this was meant to happen. I am still traumatized, especially considering that last night I had a hardcore flashback. To give you an idea of how crazy I feel right now, I am getting very very scared even talking about this. Whenever I think about death, I get closer to it. I can just feel it when I have "death" in my mind, I can feel death getting closer and closer. I had a flashback last night, me and my friend made some weed gingerbread cake. Gingerbreads my fav so I was stoked and ate a bunch. Sure enough, I got really high, then soon enough with all my friends I just randomly started freaking out. My friends happened to be playing Call of duty waw zombie attack. I felt really really bad vibes in the room, then the word death started repeating in my head over and over again. I asked my friends "what is wrong??" "what is happening???" and I even started crying and then started going "Im going to die" and my friends kept trying to reassure me saying everything was fine, then in the middle of all that I pick up the xbox controller and threw it into the window. I felt like how I felt during the actual trip, I felt like something else was controlling me. Then a few other weird things happened I don't really want to go into. But yeah I hope I turn back to normal soon How do I stop "death" from coming into my mind?? It has been flying through my head all day today, and every time I think of it everything gets darker. Its scaring the fuck outta me guys Just like my shroom trip, last night I realized the only way out was love, I hate to sound all gay n cheesy but its true I feel like the love for my friends is what saved me and scared away death. I also had this rock called the "evil eye" right when we found that last night I definately felt better immediately. FreshDacre is online now Add to FreshDacre's Reputation Report Post Edit/Delete Message
this side is the other side.. we all have just not died together, in sync.. my theories are not for everyone..
he is helping dude... your mind hasnt quite got over death yet you are on the brink of normal reality and goomland reality.. you should double your dose and confront death and kick it in the nuts...
The other night I was sort of wishing for death. I wanted my body to wash away and the atoms that compose me to be cycled back into the universe. Why are you so scared of death?
Hahaha togetha as none you do have a good point. Idk, death has always scared me more than everything else, it is like my one deepest darkest fear, just the idea of never existing again, makes me wanna cry because life is so perfect, there are so many possibilities, and its so easy to be happy. The one thing thjat makes it harder to be happy though is death. But everything needs a balance right? Oh and sorry for the neg rep mr writer mabey you were trying to help lol But yeah I have already decided to not take psyches for a long time. I dont even know if I can ever handle doing them again considering I fucked up my spinal chord.
Death will come when it's meant to come, you cannot avoid it. So don't be scared, live life as if tommorow was your last day. Who cares when it comes, the power is not yours to decide.
The way my brain works it likes to be able to control everything, and this is the most important thing to be able to control, yet I know Im not able to. It just makes me go crazy.
Well its obvious man. You have a a fear issue here. Of course its easy to fear death... until you die. So my friend, you must DIE. Take my advice brother, and embrace death. The only way to fly is to die. Increase dose.
you know you gotta face the fear sometime. that much is inevitable. you dont have to eat psyches to take on a death and rebirth ceremony. maybe you could think of another personal undertaking that would shake you up enough. you could do any number of things...idk...traveling solo with no agenda is good. pack a bag and exercise your hitchen thumbs with an open heart and mind, no destination, give up your control for awhile. if not that, how bout a dark room retreat....or a fast in the wilderness...somthing that will disconnect you from everyone you know and everything that is familiar to you for a time. disapear for awhile to be with yourself, get to know and love yourself in deep solitude...ill bet your fear of death will fade if you come to terms with yourself.
Thanks guys. Very good advice I like the idea prone has, but I think archemetis has more realistic of advice for my situation.
think about all the kids and people younger than you that have already lost there lives... think about the other 7 billion people on this earth that were all born to live and die.. you got to play the game
I don't think you can escape death or its notion. I suggest you should embrace it as a respectful energy, its a part of you now. Possibly your trip was a subtle message from the unknown.
