Wanna get OUUUUT!!!!!

dammit. i'm sick of staying here in Nowhere, Hickcountry. i'm sick of this fucking school, everything about it, the asshole teachers and the stupid classes i have to take multiple times that i'll never even need. i'm tired of stupid immature people giggling and throwing gravel cause i'm a freak. i'm so sorry, what way should i kill myself so you won't have to know i'm walking by? fuck em all. in the ass.


rant. ignore.

 

Move up north. Soon. We're cooler... and colder.

 

lol i fucking HATE cold!! there's no way i could ever live up north... haha....

 

Ok, then move to California.

 

yea....CA's probs the best place in the u.s.a ...well from what they say..

 

heh. i wish it would be so easy, to just be like "hmm, i think i'll move to ______". what the hell am i gonna do?

 

Yeah.. you're right Blackie, but the thing is... sometimes it's hard to find that. I've turned to homeschooling, but the country board of education is currently being a pimple on my ass, to put it gruffly...

 

lol.... blackie i agree with ya, but it's kinda hard when yer distracted with bullshit like that, ya know? oh well. oh well. oh well. i love saying that. oh well. it's like giving up and not caring woot. oh well.

 

I don't quite agree with that comment about it being the same wherever you go. In the hicktown I grew up in, random people on the street would make rude comments to me for absolutely no reason (and I'm sure they did it to plenty of other people too by the way). Some said they wanted to have sex with me, some would make lewd comments about the clothes I wore (which have NEVER been skimpy by the way), some even spat at me. And I don't mean teenagers either, I mean grown men who should know a lot better. Some places are just full of backwards, immature hicks.

Then I moved to a different suburb and that sort of thing has never happened since.

You're not a freak Eddie, the people in your town are. And you're not a freak anyway girl.

Do you plan on going to university? If so, maybe you could be a resident at the university... and pick one far far away, like in Cali! Your country has so many universities to choose from. But I have no idea how much that would cost for you so just ignore me

 

wow i've had people spit on me a couple times too. aww, i'm sorry they did that to you though! grown men!! man, you shoulda kicked their asses that really sucks!!

i don't plan on going to college, i wanna travel after i get outta HS... (college is realllly expensive, and i wouldn't have anything to do there anyway) one day i wanna go to an art/photography school so i can be a photographer tho. lol, if i did go i'd definately wanna be in california... but yea, expensive haha....

 

You can study at Uni to be a photographer... here they have Bachelor of Arts degrees in Graphic Design and one of the majors is Photography. But I understand it must be very expensive.

 

yea... thing is tho, it's really expensive and i'm rather poor, lol... not to mention having to do all them classes you don't need to do (well, you usually have to do that at a university anyway). lol....sorry, i'll try not to sound TOO hopeless haha....

 

You could become like a nomad or something... Just wander around wherever...

 

Don't Worry, Be Happy
Bobby Mcferrin
(Miscellaneous Movie Songs Compilation)

Here is a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't worry be happy
In every life we have some trouble
When you worry you make it double
Don't worry, be happy...

Ain't got no place to lay your head
Somebody came and took your bed
Don't worry, be happy
The land lord say your rent is late
He may have to litigate
Don't worry, be happy
Look at me I am happy
Don't worry, be happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry, call me
I make you happy
Don't worry, be happy
Ain't got no cash, ain't got no style
Ain't got no girl to make you smile
But don't worry be happy
Cause when you worry
Your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
So don't worry, be happy (now)...

There is this little song I wrote
I hope you learn it note for note
Like good little children
Don't worry, be happy
Listen to what I say
In your life expect some trouble
But when you worry
You make it double
Don't worry, be happy...
Don't worry don't do it, be happy
Put a smile on your face
Don't bring everybody down like this
Don't worry, it will soon pass
Whatever it is
Don't worry, be happy

 

Yeah kids are dumb. But you know life gose on far aftr school. I hated it too. I worked real hard to graduate a bit early. So I could move on with my life. I did just that. I know so little of the peopel I knew then. I had a hundred people then I know nearly 5 maybe now..and not even closely.

 

Come live with me Ed!!!!

 

move to california

 

are people's small towns really like that? because i grew up in a pretty tiny (20,000) and very hick (remote part of BC) but there was nothing like that... We always threw huge parties every weekend and the whole highschool would party together (well everyone that drank really). And being so hick, there were lots of stereotypes - cowboys, skaters, umm people who like rap, nerds, jocks, hippys... but everybody partied together and talked in school - there was nothing like spitting on some random person on the street because odds are their your friends or else your friends good friend. Its just weird that nobodies that tolerant there.

 

you think 20,000 is small? my town's less than 4,000. more like about 3,500. and they're mostly old people anyway.


and katie i would love to live with you but it's just so goddamn cold in yankeeland haha..

 

Haha... we could move to New Orleans!