hey, 18 year old guy here. i have been having fantasies lately where another guy cums inside my butt, and the other me performing oral sex on another guy. a curiousity gone awry. i started looking at gay porn. i want to do these things, but i don't want anyone to know i am having these fantasies or anything.. not sure what to do :-/
here, if you dont want anyone to know about this but you still want to do it, this is what you do. first meet someone that is gay but doesnt know or hang around anyone that you know or hang out with. and develop a friendship with that person. and then be really good friends with him and then one thing will lead to another and then maybe you guys will start going out and then you can do all of those things that you want to do with him. and now your friends and peers wont know about this because they dont know this person is that you have a relationship with
You could stroll into a gay bar and announce that you're looking for someone to satisfy your curiousity for being on the receiving end of anal and oral sex. Five bucks says that you will have a lineup of guys waiting to 'show you the ropes' as it were. No questions asked, no expectations to do anything more. Just use protection. At the same time I would rather have my first time being penetrated back there with someone that I trust. It is a very slow and delicate process when it is your first time and I worry that someone looking for a piece of ass at the bar might just dive right in and fuck you like a raw piece of meat.