whats gOing On in yOur mind..

i feel so damn lost this year

but i also feel more confident than i have in years.

sometimes when my mind wanders i wish i was walking through a set of doors and time begins to slow down and a large crowd was in front and my favorite musicians were playing and i had some power to just keep walking strait and people moved for me tell i was right at the front of the stage then time comes back to normal and the music was amazing and the crowd was wild and i was having the time of my life and i knew the words and felt the vibes and aint nobody in there fucking with any of us in that vibe.

 

goals

books

dedication

determination

discipline

swear words

not throwing first punch in a fight

love women, only thing worth living for

investing in steel

 

mission impossible
trains
weed
dog
pain

 

no short-cuts, walk the whole road, and remember every turn.

smoke the reefer

flirting in my DNA

 

set everyone free
tell the popo give up
ready to fire back
we wanna live free
follow me down broony's street..

 

guitar riffs..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TBJjREXXSyA"]Pendulum - Self Vs Self feat. in flames (desc) - YouTube

 

I have some very serious problems in my life right now. It's overwhelming. Yet, excited too.

 

My mind is empty.

 

Music man

 

my mind is basically the same as a richard scarry book

a billion short thoughts

 

Far too much thinking as of late and it is really messing with my sleeping.

 

Currently my brain is not on overload at all. Just contented, in the moment and mellow... thinking things occasionally like "my stomach keeps growing" and about getting Cason's dinner in about 15 mins.,..that's about it.

 

Ambition.
No ambition.

Talent.
No talent.

Will-Power.
No Will-Power.

Women.
No Women.

Point.
No Point.

But hey...Let's be optimistic.

 

I'm letting go of the past so that I can be fully involved and happy with the present. I feel freeeeee.

 

fuck, I don't wanna be/hate being sick...I don't wanna lose any hours, I got shit to do and don't feel like doin' shit, Fuck other people, cuz that's how you get sick...I try to avoid it by using hand sanitizer whenever I see a dispenser and shit, washing my hands especially after riding mass transit (c'mon you know how many fuckin' people have touched those poles!). But I directly ingested this illness willingly cuz sometimes I can't keep myself to myself.

I'll be fine tho, just some respiratory distress and general body shit-feel...i'll go score some oxy, percs, or ms-contin if it gets unbearable.

The hardest part for me to function while being sick is how tired it makes you when you're sick...the amount of caffeine pills I have to take to get out of bed make me sick in themselves.

 

Go hiking, or on a cool walking trail and take a camera.

That really clears my mind for almost anything.

Plus exercise helps sleep

yea so do i... its healthy and important..

some people only think of things in the past and forget what direction to look forward!

 

I'm thinking bird's multi-coloured posts remind me of chewits

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IG-NTcx3Ojg"]Chewits Advert

 

i want to go run hiking..

you know.. hiking..but running up the trail...

pass the fungi perfecti... lets get high... and run up mountains..

 

Will confronting sorrow lead to joy?

My work burns my thoughts away until I'm in the present.

 

monkey boy -- no! sorrow just leads to more sorrow.