I don't know what's wrong with me. I like this guy lots, he is good looking, has an amazing voice, and we get on well. I met him online in a virtual world I make a living in, and he works in the same place in the virtual world. Like most people you might meet on the net, he is in another country. I knew him when he was attached to someone, and was friends with him, and he was joking, and teasing me about silly things, and I started making comments about kicking his butt. Thing is, that I don't get what's happening to me lately. He's now single, and I'm with a really sweet guy in this virtual world, who I really am attached to, and am seeing in real life soon, but I can't stop the violent comments with this guy. It's getting stupid and I'm beginning to scare myself with it. Recently we started msn-ing by voice, have talked intimately a couple times, but chatted on a daily basis, and its really nice (even though I have terrible guilt for my other guy). Anyway, we've been up nearly all night several times, and I've watched the poor guy sit there on cam and start falling asleep. He does simply fall silent a lot, but it's a comfortable silence. But in the end, inevitably, I end up making some comment about throwing something at him, or kicking his butt. It's getting worse. We were just chatting, and he left to go out for 30mins. He comes back and says that he was just speaking with our boss. He told me that she said I have to lay off the violent comments at work...I didn't even know I made that many, that it was noticeable!!!! That typed conversation was interjected by more comments. After he said hi and he'd enjoyed the walk, while he was telling me about our boss, I couldn't help the comments about the possiblility of being injured by one method or another while out. Then I said I would try and behave, and he sent me a link to the new vid by Pink - Please don't leave me. - he said of it "Look familar?". I'm mortified. I suddenly feel like I could just break down and cry and I feel so utterly vunerable - I'm not violent, won't even kill a fly if I can help it, and I can't stop. I won't ever be with this guy - there is a lot about me that he doesn't like - he's never made any comments about it as he doesn't know - but he has made comments about things he's seen on people, he's found disgusting. And that instantly put me off him completely in any kind of way, other than friendship. The comments started before that anyway. He has joked about sleeping with him, which insited really violent comments, and I wouldn't anyway, whether I was with the other really sweet guy or not. I know its silly as its all over the internet and people will say 'get a real life', but I can't at the moment. I am disabled, and also I am a full time carer for my elderly parents, so I won't have a life until they die. The virtual worlds are all I have available at this time in my life. I'm so upset. How can I stop this violent comments thing? I can't even talk to him about it - because I don't understand it myself and I will only break down and cry if I do, and I refuse to cry in front of him. Anyone else had this ? What did you do about it ?
well dont worry too much, at first glance it would appear to me that you have some sort of connection with him, but perhaps because of your circumstance you are unhappy with how things are going and subcousiouly take it out on him with violent comments. Perhaps take a break from chatting with him and give yourself some emotional distance. put a sticky not on monitor - no violent comments
Don't mean to hijack, but I'm curious - what is the virtual world you make a living in and how do you do it?
Have You Ever Thought Of Turning Off Your Puuuter. Forgeting About your "Virtual" World. Coming Back Down To Planet Earth. And Trying To Meet A Nice Man, In Your Own Town Or City..??? Just A Thought.... Cheers Glen.
this might be a good time for you to spend growing. i would suggest, you see a psychologist and you two work though this before, one or both of you lose you jobs.
