Whoa, talk about dredging up the past...

i was just added to the contact list of a girl i lived with in durango, colorado. i was totally in love with her. she was so beautiful and sexy and fun. totally straight, though. i think. though i only learned this after the fact. she'd kiss me in front of guys to get their attention, i guess. i was kinda naive and on the rebound, so i didn't realize it until later. i was considering trying a relationship, asking her out but she was dating around. i was totally mesmerised by her, but intimidated, too. she was enjoying her vacation in durango, to say the least. i would get so jealous, but didn't say anything. after all, she wasn't my girlfriend. though when i realized she wasn't actually into me at all, i was really burned, you know? i still get furious with girls who kiss in front of guys just to turn guys on. i get really annoyed when girls make out with me just to LOOK bi. it really hurts my feelings.

anyway, after she left town, i ended up having sex with a friend of hers, whom i later found out was her boyfriend. how the hell was i supposed to know? he told me they weren't dating and i believed him. after all, she wasn't behaving exclusively, you know? but i dropped the guy as soon as i found out, and i figured she'd never want to talk to me again. i couldn't blame her. i had never been single before, i didn't understand the etiquitte. and i acted like an ass, i'm not good with social subtleties. so, anyway, now she's added me to her contact list and i'm just totally freaking out. well, my version, anyway, which just consists of me going "wow." and typing this.

crazy, huh?

 

yes.

 

she's probably gonna bitch me out, do ya think?

 

no, or she would not have added ya.

 

yeah. i'm all aflutter, you know? god, she's sooo beautiful.

 

hmmm a girl did that to me before and it made me mad.

 

yeah. i have a hard time holding grudges. maybe she's grown up a bit. we were both in our early 20's. it's amazing, too. i just saw her last name, and i knew who it was, even though i haven't seen or talked to her in 7 years.

 

maybe she has held a torch for you all these years.

 

i doubt it. i don't think she likes girls, not really.

 

hell, maybe she married that guy and has been waiting to bitch me out. it's okay, i deserve it. i fucked up.

 

I fail to see where you fucked up.

 

i fucked her boyfriend. the fact that i didn't know is kinda beside the point.

 

He had a girlfriend and fucked you. that is his fault.

 

yeah, well, i shouldn't have been so gullible.

 

you, of all people I would not expect to feel like this. It is so not your fault if you didnt know. Just because she is all that doesnt mean you ever wronged her.

 

i'm just really annoyed with myself that i was stupid enough to fall for a liar. that's all. i take responsibility for my role in things.

 

Some people are good liars. You are a good person, a strong person, but not infallible.

 

well, at any rate, he wasn't worth it.

 

that is why you are with MR. KC and not him.

 

oh, hell yeah. dave actually met him, when we first started dating. dave hated him on sight.