Why Should I Live?

I'm just a regular 18 year old guy, but I have been battling depression for five years now. for the past month or two I have been debating why I should continue to be alive. I know it sounds horrible but I mean I have a good family, we live around the lower middle class, and I havn't been abused, wasted, high or anything like that. I do though have weak genes IMO. I'm tall and slightly overweight, I'm not physically gifted at all and I'm pretty homely. My personality and attitude is the complete opposite of a succesful person. I am not a very hard worker, I usually take a little longer then most people. I practically have no social life. I keep reflecting back to nature the fact that weaker males and killed off leaving the stronger ones (survival of the fittest) strengthing the species. I just can't find a good reason to continue living??? I was just wondering what other people take on this was?

 

I live for this:
my baby named rama lama ding dong

Actually, I live for the beauty in the world.
It's there...you just have to train yourself to see it.

 

you should never have to end your own life because you have not found a meaning to live when you are only 18. Maybe you need a new outlook on life, exercise and get into shape, try new things even if they may not seem like you. Life is not given just to be wasted away so young...

 

Find some friends and smoke a pound of reefer. Get back to me when you do.

 

life doesnt have its own meaning, it has the meaning you give to it, so dont look to people off a forum to tell you what to live for, look to yourself.

 

there probably isn't a reason for anything to be alive. one day you will die and no one has a clue what will happen next.

with that in mind, one in your position must decide whether to wait for eternity and play a game (chose a "path" in life or whatnot) or give up before they find one and get it over with already.

but you're only 18... a lot can happen in the next mere 3 years that could change you and your outlook on life.

these are the conclusions that i've gathered in my own short life of 21 years so far.

things that have changed my life for the better:
drugs
friends
learning
travel
dreaming (planning)

before that, i felt a lot like you.

^ my $0.02

good advice:

 

dont look so deep in into shit bro

 

Quit fucking feeling sorry for yourself. You don't have friends because you're too wrapped up in feeling sorry for yourself that you don't go out and make them. You're homely because you won't get off your fat ass and clean yourself up. You're not successful because, like you said, your personality and attitude are crap. Get off of your lazy ass and do some work....clean yourself up....and get some self respect.
If not, there really is no reason to live, you're just stealing precious air from the rest of us so you can die lazy and homely when you're 30.

 

id feel sorry for the poor fuck that has to clean that shit up

 

If you're that fucking bad off, just walk out of your house with a minimal amount of shit, get a car or if you have one, throw it in the car, then leave... just leave. Start driving around until you get stuck, repeat.

 

exactly. we cant tell u if lifes worth living or what the meaning of life is. you have to find that out for yourself. do a little bit of soulsearching. find something that makes you happy. things cant be that bad. and just remember, if you die, there is no going back, no second chance. You may as well try to make things better for yourself than just end it all. Only YOU can make yourself happy, so stop wishing it would happen and MAKE it happen.

 

something more productive:

i know what it's like to be depressed most of the time and not know why. it's hard to make friends because your outlook on everything is a reflection of how you feel. it's not like you're "wrapped up in feeling sorry for yourself", it's just that you constantly feel sad and down and it takes way too much emotional energy to deal with most people. you don't have any motivation unless you're on meds or drugs. i know it sounds all whiney n shit but most depressed people aren't necessarily whining. it's how they feel and they don't know how to change it (without drugs, of course).

you just need something to start you off in a direction that you can look forward to and build a reality that you can live with and hopefully love. it's just hard to get started... physical health has a lot to do with mental health. excersize really does feel great and when you start to see and feel changes, it's even better. maybe start with that? it might even give you some confidance, sadly, to socialize n shit. new friends always bring new beginings.

 

he's not saying he's bad off.

 

Why not?

Why not? Is there somewhere else you're supposed to be?

Why not? It sounds like you haven't completely lived all of the life you have.

If you stop now, you lessen the chance of experiencing all of the really great stuff you haven't gotten to yet . . . you know . . . love, sex, travel, perspective, the meaning of all of this.

You don't want to miss it, do you?

Peace and Love

 

live to be alive

dont worry, be happy man!

 

as simplistic as it is, that has to be the most insightful thing said on this thread, and the most true. I applaud you! live for life.

 

Smoke it.

 

I like that. A lot. Did you write it? If so, you have a lot of talent.

 

I don't a brother man, but guess I could take a beer and make an online cheer with you

 

Oh and to the people that started that thread, just live to see what the worlds has to offer .. And George's (Orsino2) suggestion is very good too .. Maybe you could possibly go on a car, a bus or a plane and see the life .. Anyway , good luck man .