Conclusions.

I can't believe anything about this situation. Not just the fact they could treat anyone this way, but the fact they treated me this way when I am a good person and did nothing wrong. And how the cover up continues and obviously is never going to end. You are not allowed to harm someone with medicine ever. Not in any place, and it's certainly not the kind of thing people would think happens in the US. Even when dealing with people who have done horrible acts or are serving life sentences, although sadly those people often receive very poor quality medical care. But that is not intended. So what did I do? And what did I do to have it continue like this? What did I do to deserve to be trapped in a nightmare I will never know has ended? And like I said, I've been abused like this all my life. And that wasn't my imaginations. My 2011 and latest therapist confirmed all that happened. They abused me and took away my quality of life and made me feel there was no hope sometimes. And now they are treating me again like I have no value to them being forever caught in this. And I only learned in 2011 I have Cerebral Palsy. I was telling people of my neurological symptoms all my life. I was even still talking to my 2011 therapist about them and how they are pronounced and very strange, this time talking about my extreme physical weakness too. And I obviously have autism and a couple of other things I'm told. Things that are still undiagnosed, things I could get some medical help and advice with, and perhaps better benefits too. But I am told that can't be done or would make no difference. I already told people early on that I don't agree with that. And it seems to make people angry even or indifferent, cruel too sometimes, that I have handicaps like Cerebral Palsy. It does, I explained all the times that happened. I would have been endangered without my car and I have issues that make having a car vital even without the danger I was in where I live. I explained that all to people long before I found I had Cerebral Palsy but they still wouldn't listen. And now it would be nice if I had some help around the house, or even a little more help in other ways too. Like I said Eric was about to buy me a car that was newer model, with a couple more safety features and maybe whatever else I need, for now and the future too. But that can never happen again now that he left me. I must always drive and I refuse to go to a place like a group home. Because like I said, besides being neglected and in danger in one in Detroit, I'd lose all contact with the outside world and wouldn't be able to tell people what they are doing to me there. Obviously everyone would agree with that. Plus this has become the abuse and neglect of an old man, with unknown damaged for years by those unnecessary drugs I never agreed to and no one with Cerebral Palsy should ever take and my handicapped too. I told who I thought should see to it I have all those things, a car with all the features I need, a nice place to stay, safety, independence and a good quality of life. One which means maintaining the one I have now. The people who did this to me for years. The people endangered me and made my life a living hell by trying to take my car aways and harassing me and following me around when I was just trying to live my life, in a city where there was real crime they were supposed to be focusing on. The police and paramedics who took part in this, and all the rest too. Doctors and professionals, and the long list of people who took part, who are now protected from any responsibility and paying me damages to pay for all the harm they've done now. But I seem to be the only one who feels this way or cares. And I told people I am done with any mental health care now. But I need special instructions to deal with my handicap, it would be nice to have a little assistance in living, I need more benefits to live on, especially since there really is never enough money for anyone with a disability, especially one whose disability is supposedly mental like mine. But I don't want to end up inpatient ever again and I mean it. The times in my life I attempted suicide and contemplated were from the abuse and horrible threats I was receiving. I went into detail about that and will always continue filling in more. That's not being suicidal, that's being the victim of abuse. And in that case the person is not blamed like with Evalyn, the abusers are held accountable and stop. Yes I do see how this situation could lead to panic some day. That like when I was in HS I am again led to believe there is no hope of a solution and no other way out. Because they've have proven they are capable of great harm, great harm that they keep hidden from me and the public all while everyone thinks they would never do such things, that they use secrecy to hide their crimes, that they can't be trusted in any way, that I will never be able to trust them again and will never know when they are no deceiving me, even again in a hurtful way, that they use things like manipulation and trickery to supposedly help, like they did last July, or that I go to them for help and they just make the situation much worse like they did in 2004. Yes I do see how that could make me panic and lead to tragedy again some day, especially now that in all this time absolutely nothing is being done, and that they will never gain my trust again, because they don't deserve it. No one should trust them really. But the solution to that is not to repeat all of that or do it more, the solution is to take moral responsibility. Publicly and accept the consequences of their actions, legally and give me all the damages I need to live on now that they left me this way. If they really are concerned about my welfare and if they really want to avoid tragedies like 1989, 2004 and those seven years that followed, that is what they need to do. And I will spend the rest of my life fighting for that even if they don't care.